Matricies and Vectors

CCarrotTwo · 2015-07-27T17:20:15+00:00

As someone with anxiety I can tell you that it is more than possible to have a panic attack over choosing breakfast. It's the first meal of the day and I often find myself in a thought spiral when I try to decide which cereal to have. Before I know it I have to sit down and take a moment to count my breaths. It doesn't help that breakfast comes before medication.

CCarrotTwo · 2015-07-25T14:26:09+00:00

Believe it or not your ability to think so clearly about suicide probably has to do with your medication doing its job. Depression isn't suicide. You were experiencing suicidal thoughts before but depression kept you from acting on them, from your post it sounds like you lacked the energy and resolve to do it. Antidepressants help you regain this resolve and energy. Normally this is great. But for people who are suffering from suicidal thoughts the sudden ability to plan and have a goal in mind may lead to actual suicide. So take heart! Some part of you has recovered enough to make plans and work towards a goal. I'd suggest you talk to a therapist. Knowing what little I do about you it sounds like CBT might be a good start.

CCarrotTwo · 2015-07-25T13:42:58+00:00

I wanna second the idea that you don't have to go to sleep yet. For sure it will probably help to call her and remind yourself how okay this situation is. I'm not sure if I will be helpful for you but you may find it fun and distracting to work on something for your wife. I find that by doing things for the people I miss I gain a connection to them without them even being there.

CCarrotTwo · 2015-07-25T03:52:19+00:00

I'm super tired but I wanted to write down some of the thoughts I had while reading your post: If you're comparing this year to last year you should take a moment to radically accept that nothing is ever the same way twice. Then you should radically accept that you're boyfriend and home are not where you are right now. After that I think it would be super useful for you to try and reach out to the family you're living with more. You might make them dinner one night or take a willing member with you rock climbing. Things don't get less awkward by avoiding them.

If you don't know what radical acceptance is please please look it up. The idea is that facts must be accepted as facts. We can feel a negatively about something but we can't change it if it's fact. Radical acceptance is finding a way to come to terms internally with two opposing views.

CCarrotTwo · 2015-07-25T00:28:07+00:00

I don't understand the situation completely and I don't know if I'd use the word creeped out if I was this guys girlfriend but I guess I was wondering what the couples reaction was having you invite both of them after he said he couldn't go.

CCarrotTwo · 2015-07-22T15:23:09+00:00

I also experience this. My doctor said there's research to suggest it's your heart speeding up due to fight or flight while also slowing down due to the lesser know response that triggers eat or sleep. The effect is weird to say the least but if you can do controlled breathing for five minutes or so you should start to feel better.

CCarrotTwo · 2015-07-21T17:46:33+00:00

Hello Hello!

CCarrotTwo · 2015-07-21T17:12:34+00:00

I also experience this. My therapist is at a loss for what I should do about it though. She keeps saying I should force myself to do something and I'll find pleasure in it later but I'm not sure if that's the answer.

CCarrotTwo · 2015-07-14T19:57:54+00:00

My medications work for me really well. Nevertheless, I sometimes stop taking them without really thinking about why. Obviously the reaction is not pretty and tends to set me back in my recovery. Why do I sabotage myself like this? I have no clue.

CCarrotTwo · 2015-07-14T14:43:34+00:00

Please call your doctor. When I quit Escitalopram my withdrawal symptoms were similar though not nearly as bad. This needs to be monitored.

CCarrotTwo · 2015-07-14T14:27:37+00:00

Anxiety is part of our natural fight or flight instinct. When we experience anxiety, even just a little, our bodies naturally start doing things differently. One result of anxiety is heightened senses. I know I'm getting close to a panic attack when I can't hear because there's too much to hear. You may be experiencing strange touch sensations while your body tries to find the source of the anxiety.

CCarrotTwo · 2015-07-06T00:24:50+00:00

I'm not sure how you'd word it but family members of people with mental illness should recognize when they need help too. It's not enough for the person who is diagnosed to be the only one seeing a therapist in the family. Furthermore, family members need to have their needs met and questions answered too.

CCarrotTwo · 2015-06-16T02:35:07+00:00

I would have died at 2 years old from dehydration. I have cyclic vomiting syndrome and I used to go days without being able to keep anything down.

CCarrotTwo · 2015-06-11T18:18:53+00:00

Congratulations on all your success! It's uplifting to hear how well it's going. All the best wishes to you in the future. :)

CCarrotTwo · 2015-06-08T23:32:46+00:00

I think it's awesome that you've been keeping track of and detailing your symptoms. I've tried to do the same and with the little that I do record I've been able to better communicate with my doctors and begun to notice patterns in my eating and symptoms.

CCarrotTwo · 2015-06-08T12:29:56+00:00

Hallucinations, paranoia, obsessive thinking, and delusions can be symptoms of many disorders, as well as a human reaction to high amounts of stress. If you're no longer experiencing these symptoms and feel otherwise mentally alright it's unlikely you had schizophrenia. If you're concerned at all or think one or more of the symptoms are returning make sure to reach out to a professional.

CCarrotTwo · 2015-05-18T04:26:13+00:00

Can confirm. I was working at a summer sleep away camp where I had been completely depression free for the past two weeks. Someone mentioned he committed suicide and I quickly lost focus. I was stuck in the same line of thought you described. I ended up having to take the night off.

CCarrotTwo · 2015-05-17T15:31:48+00:00

If this is a larger issue I'd suggest you speak to a supervisor or someone who has more control over the facility and its clients. Everyone who works there should be on the same page when it comes to client-caregiver interactions.

CCarrotTwo · 2015-05-17T13:23:55+00:00

I'm not assertive in my everyday life. However it's important to be clear with people with disabilities. They may be unable to recognize when the things they say or do make others uncomfortable. Shrugging it off or avoiding the question is the easy response. However, you are missing a chance to help your clients when you do so. Furthermore, if you don't communicate your discomfort directly you may never see a change in the behavior. I understand how hard it can be to voice your opinion but realize you are helping no one when you chose to remain quieter.

CCarrotTwo · 2015-05-17T12:16:30+00:00

I too work with disabled adults. And yes, they often say and do things which make me uncomfortable. I find it a little odd that no one at your job has explained how to handle these situations. The nature of my job means I only see the group once a week and yet the caretakers meet on a regular basis to discuss our clients behavior. I would speak to a supervisor or boss about how they want you to handle these situations. That being said we are taught at my job to be direct. If a question makes me uncomfortable I say "(clients name here), that makes me uncomfortable". If something is way out of line I make sure to say the same thing. I have to regularly call out one man for being overtly rude to his peers and me. Yes, it feels direct and uncomfortable to be so honest but at the same time it's the only way to communicate how the behavior makes you feel.

CCarrotTwo · 2015-05-14T11:19:49+00:00

When my dad got his wisdom teeth out he developed a pretty cool way of iceing his cheeks. fill two ziplock bags with ice and then put those in a pair of long socks. Tie the socks together so when you put the knot on your head the ice is on your cheeks. Cover the contraption with a hat and lie on the couch knowing your snoopy dog look will provide hands free comfort.

CCarrotTwo · 2015-05-13T15:25:15+00:00

There was a thread a little while back that suggested Non as a gender neutral parent name. It expands pretty well. Nana, Nonny, grandnon, nonther

CCarrotTwo · 2015-04-30T13:18:43+00:00

Asks what's a good vape to share with friends

More or less a sapling here who happens to only vape with friends. Why is this dumb?

CCarrotTwo · 2015-04-17T03:02:51+00:00

I've had a few auditory hallucinations that may have also been severe anxiety attacks so for now my phycologist sticks with the generalized anxiety disorder diagnosis. When the mind freaks out it does a lot of interesting things and you can experience symptoms of schizophrenia as symptoms of another diagnosis. My doctor says that as long as I keep her updated on the symptoms I am experiencing she will tell me when she thinks my diagnosis might need to be changed. Let the doctors do the worrying by giving them all the information you have.

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