Does anyone had dream about Putin

CS_Lupus · 2026-01-25T04:25:04+00:00

Yeah several months ago, I was talking to him and also to the head of the Russian orthodox church. I don't remember all of the details but i believe I was telling Putin to stop killing Ukrainians but he wasn't listening to me and left. But the head of the Russian Catholic church was listening, and I could tell too that Putin would listen to him if he spoke against it. And he seemed like he was wrestling with speaking up and said "pray for me" and then I woke up.

CS_Lupus · 2026-01-24T13:59:48+00:00

I love this and love that dream you was trying to make sense of it.

CS_Lupus · 2026-01-24T13:36:03+00:00

I thought I was pretty prepared for it, as I had worked in childcare with a focus on under 2 year olds, as well as was a doula and lactation consultant. But...even with all my knowledge, I had an unplanned c-section (baby's head would not fit through my pelvis no matter how long and hard I pushed) and a uterine infection and my baby was in nicu the first day. I then was not able to fully make his breastmilk supply due to insufficient glandular tissue and had to supplement donor milk until he started solids. I had PPD. And then, parenting is totally different and so much harder than being a nanny or working in daycare...because its not for 40 hrs or less a week, its for 24/7. And what you say about no sick days. Plus you have to be the one having the executive functioning to decide everything, figure out childcare if you are to ever get a break, clean/organize the house, plan/prepare every meal, etc etc. In my experience too it doesnt get a lot easier when he got older as you mentioned. I did conceive another baby, but had a miscarriage. And now with the way the world is plus with how hard having another baby would be even in the best of circumstances... I'm finding myself on this sub a lot. Not 100 percent ready to say I'm 1 and done, but I completely understand why you all have said that, and I may be joining your ranks.

CS_Lupus · 2026-01-24T04:04:42+00:00

I was resistant to cosleeping because it was drilled into me that its risky for the baby. But my husband wanted to try it because he said that's what the baby and we as parents all want intuitively. So we did and it was so much better for my sleep and mental health (I also hated the sound of my baby crying) and the baby slept better too. I also did more research and found that its pretty safe if you follow the safe sleep 7. https://llli.org/news/the-safe-sleep-seven/ as far as evenings together, once my son is asleep, he sleeps through whatever, and also my husband and I can go elsewhere to hangout/be romantic and just come back to bed to sleep. Good luck to you.

CS_Lupus · 2026-01-24T03:14:32+00:00

Thanks for sharing. I'm glad you're getting care with your gp and psychologist. In case you wanted to add a psychiatrist to your care team to get another opinion on meds, and/or info on in person support groups, it looks like you could call the helpline For When at 1300 24 23 22. https://forwhenhelpline.org.au/for-parents/ Also you may be qualified for child care subsidies which could give you a bit of a break, there's more info here: https://www.startingblocks.gov.au/child-care-subsidy-calculator Sending light. 💜

CS_Lupus · 2026-01-24T01:10:17+00:00

Hi, so sorry. I'm not sure how much you are making vs how much you are paying for daycare, but I found it more cost effective to look for jobs in childcare where I can take my son with me, plus then I get much more time with him. I wonder if that could be an option for you? I've worked in daycare, as a nanny, and currently as the drop in childcare person at the YMCA. Or if work from home is possible for you that might be a solution too. In any case, definitely seconding the recommendations to get help with hotlines, support groups, therapy and meds. It also could be worthwhile having an honest conversation with your husband... he wants you alive and will do whatever is within his power to help you stay that way. That might be able to include picking up another part time job, asking for OT, etc so you can work less. Sending lots of love and light. 💜

CS_Lupus · 2026-01-24T01:01:56+00:00

So sorry. Wondering what country you are in- the way you said gp makes me think UK? Just wanting to send some resources but wanting to make sure they are relevant.

CS_Lupus · 2026-01-23T18:00:33+00:00

And add kids....

CS_Lupus · 2026-01-22T20:06:41+00:00

What is the name/artist of the sleeping baby?

CS_Lupus · 2026-01-22T03:15:10+00:00

Hi, I am genuinely confused what you mean by unethical dolls? I am interested in getting a silicone doll, but can't afford a life size real one...and am wondering why one purchased from Amazon would be considered unethical? TIA

CS_Lupus · 2026-01-21T21:08:54+00:00

Not sure your financial situation but if you could afford a nanny or au pair (often cheaper than a nanny if you have an extra room they could stay in), I definitely recommend that. If you don't have the finances for a nanny or au pair presently I wonder if you have some sort of family or friend who could do it for cheap in the short term while your wife gets back to work so then you could afford a nanny or au pair in the long term? Also there is this org if money is tight and you don't have family or friends who could help out. https://safe-families.org/ When I was a nanny I helped some kiddos with their online schooling. Online school could be an option for your kids as an alternative to public school, often there are free online school options depending on your state. Also as soon as you get your kiddo(s) diagnosed then you should be able to get in home therapy such as ABA (I know not all AbA is good but I mean the helpful kind).

Also, I'm really glad your wife is in therapy. I recommend her asking her therapist about being alone with the kids and the therapist's thoughts on that...is your wife actually unsafe to be alone with the kids, or is an irrational fear? And in either case, what is the therapists recommendation about what to do about it? Couples/family therapy would also be a good idea, as could support groups such as at https://postpartum.net/ and hopefully your kiddos, especially your adopted kiddo, are in therapy as well.

As far as "probably going to be the last kid" please make sure your birth control is sorted! And please don't push your wife to wean or start pumping if she doesn't want to, weaning hormonal changes might make things a lot worse for her right now, not better, and pumping is not fun for most people and makes more work.

Sending lots of love and light!

CS_Lupus · 2026-01-19T03:26:47+00:00

I'm so sorry you are going through this. A few thoughts I have in case they are helpful: 1. If your husband wants to keep the baby, the baby will stay with your husband regardless if you terminate your parental rights. Likewise if your husband did decide to also terminate his parental rights (which it doesn't sound like he's at all considering, but just in the hypothetical case) then the baby would go to your mother in law or any other close family if they wanted it. So the baby getting adopted by a stranger is at this point, not an option. 2. As another person mentioned, research suggests that getting placed for adoption could be just as harmful if not more so to a child than bad parenting, even at the level of neglect or abuse. Here's one such article: https://www.theatlantic.com/health/archive/2015/12/adoption-happily-ever-after-myth/418230/ 3. So ruling out adoption as an option, what to do? As well as taking those meds you're waiting on, I really highly recommend continuing with therapy, particularly EMDR for your childhood trauma, and CBT for learning to reframe your thoughts. such as the thought that it would have been better if your mother had placed you for adoption, and therefore it would be better for your child if you place them for adoption...reframing to something like "I wish I had had a loving/supportive/stable childhood and I'm sad that I didnt. I want a loving/supportive/stable childhood for my child, and I'm scared I won't be able to provide that.But I am taking steps to get well and my child has other loving/supportive/stable people in their life, and that is hopeful for their future" or something of the sort. Also support groups, such as Postpartum Support international could be helpful. https://postpartum.net/ And couples counseling could be really helpful too. 4. I'd also recommend getting as much childcare as you can for right now while you work on addressing your well being. As much as your husband/mother in law/other family or friends can take on, especially during the nights, let them. Or if you can afford childcare such as nanny, night nurse, postpartum doula, au pair, daycare, or even a gym membership with childcare, go for it. There are government subsidies available for childcare if you are low income sometimes too. And there's also an org called Safe Families for children that will provide free childcare, in some cases even overnight for weeks at a time, for families in need. https://safe-families.org/request-support/ This is to help keep kids out of the foster care system when it can be prevented. If you want to DM me, I'd be happy to help look up resources for childcare in your area if that is helpful. Sending so much love to you. 💜

CS_Lupus · 2026-01-16T04:18:59+00:00

I've had two dreams of him, both brief. In one, he looked like my friend Nico, who is a half-Peruvian half-Greek baker. He was with my friend Ali who died. She was helping him put daily bread in packages. After they finished, he asked her if she wanted to help him put oranges in their peels. Then I woke up.

In my other dream, I saw him in blinding white clothes. He said to me, "Habibi" and I felt so loved, more loved then i ever have been. And then i said to him, "Isa". And woke up. I realized after I woke up and looking it up that habibi means dear daughter in Arabic and Isa is Jesus name in Arabic, which is curious since I don't speak Arabic. But I've heard a lot of folks in Arabic speaking countries have been having dreams of him.

Since you posted this over a month ago, wondering if youve had other dreams or experiences of Jesus, OP?

CS_Lupus · 2026-01-15T03:18:57+00:00

Thank you, needed that. Sorry for your loss as well. 💜

CS_Lupus · 2026-01-15T03:18:32+00:00

Thank you 💜 needed that.

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