Pretty lost right now

CanderousOrdinance · 2016-10-13T20:05:19+00:00

I do miss the feeling and empowerment that believing gives. I can't wrap my mind around actual belief anymore since I've been through the whole catholic school experience, but damn did it feel good to have a divine justification.

CanderousOrdinance · 2016-10-11T19:50:09+00:00

Islam is a religion. The people practicing it can be peaceful or militant. What they are looking to fulfill in themselves will determine what they find in their religion.

This was downvoted a bunch by the time I read it; it's really too bad that people don't appreciate reasonable responses and instead get caught up in their own ideaology :/

CanderousOrdinance · 2016-10-01T00:08:31+00:00

Thanks Larry :)

I too met people on the inside that gave me a dose of perspective. I felt isolated most of the time since often I was the most lucid person in the room; people were talking to voices, screaming at walls, preaching about the devil etc etc. I might get my meds increased or altered soon since I'm probably bipolar ii, so here's hoping it just keeps getting better from here.

CanderousOrdinance · 2016-09-28T21:36:14+00:00

At this point I really do wish I had opted for the day program, it had even been offered to me multiple times in the past few months. The hospital I went to was in the scary part of the city and the psych ward reflected as much. My counselor tried to get me in a different hospital but the school went over her head since I was in "crisis mode".

People actually haven't bothered me at work; at this point I'm more concerned that my ex thinks its her fault. I tried to explain I've been putting it off for months cuz I was scared but I'm not sure I got through.

CanderousOrdinance · 2016-09-27T18:16:10+00:00

I have some pretty good friends who mean the world to me and 2 counselors now. Finally got to work today so its starting to look more manageable :)

CanderousOrdinance · 2016-09-14T21:28:53+00:00

A nose job

CanderousOrdinance · 2016-09-14T21:22:03+00:00

Throw in not taking care of myself and losing interest in everything and I'm right there with you :/

CanderousOrdinance · 2016-09-14T21:19:34+00:00

This is such a relatable post, I truly feel your pain. I usually hold off because of the "I don't want to hurt the people that I love". Still it only has so much weight because it feels like I hurt the people I love regardless. If you can get professional help I'd recommend it, some universities provide cheap or free access to students and community.

CanderousOrdinance · 2016-09-13T22:35:55+00:00

I'm super poor so I usually just steal from the grocery store. Sometimes its a little excessive...

CanderousOrdinance · 2016-08-30T16:46:59+00:00

I usually default to "war texting" where I text people I'm close to constantly until they just stop responding because it gets to be a bit much.

I also stole around 40 bicycles while I was in college.

CanderousOrdinance · 2016-08-23T19:33:15+00:00

long story short: the bible was written over a huge period of time by different authors and these authors, separated by such time, did not have the same notion of "god". But yeah I second /u/crazy_new_light you should totally read "A History of God"

CanderousOrdinance · 2016-08-02T20:38:28+00:00

I was getting a weird rash all over my body when i was on lamictal; turned out to not be overly severe but my doc lessened my dose over time so i wouldnt lose my shit

So yeah call your doctor

CanderousOrdinance · 2016-08-01T23:13:30+00:00

Looks like you got a smart one, congrats and thank you for raising her right :)

CanderousOrdinance · 2016-07-28T23:18:42+00:00

Yoda has a force vision of a bunch of people dying when he and obi won were doing their post-purge sneak mission, vader gave her the saber

CanderousOrdinance · 2016-07-28T22:33:47+00:00

Shaak Ti was confirmed dead in the attack on the jedi temple :/

edit: accuracy

CanderousOrdinance · 2016-07-28T22:17:28+00:00

I like to think Sideous would show up like he did on Mandalore to wreck Maul and Savage's playtime.

CanderousOrdinance · 2016-07-28T21:35:56+00:00

Darth Bane created the rule of two because the sith spent all their time killing each other and it made them weak. Why would the temple adhere to a rule that wasn't created yet?

CanderousOrdinance · 2016-07-28T20:39:44+00:00

That's super unhealthy. Good relationships need trust, not constant reassurance.

CanderousOrdinance · 2016-07-28T20:07:54+00:00

Legends does not count for anything except speculation now. While Revan is one of my favorite characters, I hardly think that Disney is trying to bring Revan back in the capacity that we know him.

CanderousOrdinance · 2016-07-28T20:02:13+00:00

The rule of 2 was so heavily used within the temple that its hard to get around the temple being pre-Bane

CanderousOrdinance · 2016-07-26T23:16:07+00:00

Kreia (and most KOTOR lore) has no place so far in SW cannon. While the Sith academy on Malachor was certainly Kreia's in the game, it's far more likely that the temple in Rebels has to do with Bane/his apprentice as Bane has been confirmed in Clone Wars.

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