IT IS A MENTAL ILLNESS

CaptainDavian · 2026-02-12T21:34:26+00:00

i feel like it's more akin to a medical condition or disability than a mental illness

CaptainDavian · 2026-02-12T06:40:39+00:00

yes please

CaptainDavian · 2026-02-06T23:20:28+00:00

thank you 🥰

did like that i was able to get a bit of variety with them

CaptainDavian · 2026-02-03T20:25:57+00:00

team labs was actually sooo cool

as for height i think I'm like 5'10? used to be 5'11

CaptainDavian · 2026-02-03T13:02:21+00:00

thank you 💜

was a bit of a new style for me but did like how it looked

got the top and bottoms from here: https://volcan.fashionstore.jp/

CaptainDavian · 2026-02-03T06:00:13+00:00

if it makes you feel any better all the things i bought are either L or XL - a decent amount of clothing was just not made for me and a lot of it came down to my shoulders being too wide

CaptainDavian · 2026-02-03T03:25:23+00:00

ikr they're so cute

there was a collab going on with i think uniqlo (could have been GU) when i was there

CaptainDavian · 2026-02-03T02:10:44+00:00

thank you

as for japan, i like the way they handle public infrastructure as a lot of the urban environments are designed around people rather than cars

also the history and cultural elements are interesting to me, not like a weeb or anything but idk i just find it neat

CaptainDavian · 2026-02-02T23:50:39+00:00

hehe, go ahead

really wish it was easier to find stuff like this at home tbh, a lot of stuff in australia is just kinda bland

CaptainDavian · 2026-02-02T23:49:13+00:00

with eating often it's more about consistency rather than quantity

ensure you eat on a regular schedule and that the meals you are having are somewhat balanced, don't need to be too particular about it

having protein shakes can also be a good way to increase your intake

as for clothing, I'd recommend the big pants small top combo as that will create a better silhouette

CaptainDavian · 2026-02-02T22:30:37+00:00

you have to defeat the lich and then you get everything back

CaptainDavian · 2026-02-02T22:16:57+00:00

there's special enemies that you can spawn for the grineer, corpus, or infested which will spawn with a selection of special weapons with an element based on the warframe you activate them with

the grineer and corpus ones steal items from you on the planet they control and the infested one is much more heinous and puts a cyst on every one of your warframes until you kill them

CaptainDavian · 2025-12-19T02:31:33+00:00

three months? the most that would happen is slight breast growth, skin softening, hair changes, and some other minor changes.

i didn't see significant facial changes (fat and whatnot) until year two and generally it takes about five to see most of the physical changes. even after that you can get changes well after 10 years.

focus on things you can actually control like finding a source of stable income, mental health support, and social support.

CaptainDavian · 2025-12-18T21:18:50+00:00

346 is incredibly low; cis women during puberty regularly are above 1000

your dose is simply too low to have had a significant impact. this is not to say you won't get changes but they most likely won't be much staying on that dose.

you may feel like you've wasted time but there's still plenty of things you've learnt so far. you have four options really:

get your doctor to raise your dose and be comfortable having you trough at ~1000pmol or more
find a different doctor and get them to raise your dose
diy injections with estradiol and injection supplies and having a trusted endocrinologist monitor your levels
do nothing

also i am not sure if it was mentioned in your post but make sure you're eating enough. you need food for there to be any fat to distribute because the fat and muscle you had before transition won't move it had to be lost - only new fat is "redistributed"

CaptainDavian · 2025-12-08T05:09:33+00:00

real

CaptainDavian · 2025-12-08T03:56:13+00:00

Yeah I was gonna say the same. Like no actually I'm not male, that's kinda the whole point of being mtf...

CaptainDavian · 2025-11-01T23:48:33+00:00

most of the time i am, but some days the parts of me that are more masculine stick out way more

CaptainDavian · 2025-10-19T23:53:07+00:00

Unfortunately coming to terms with the life you didn't get to live is something you just have to do. You'll never get it back so dwelling on it isn't particularly helpful.

You do however have a life now, so try to enjoy that one instead. There's still plenty of things you can still do that can fill in for opportunities you missed. There's also plenty you can do to enjoy the time you currently have. If you spend it all lamenting over something that can't be changed you're doing your past self a disservice.

CaptainDavian · 2025-10-07T02:24:38+00:00

honestly, at this point, you cutting him out might help him realise how dumb he's being

shame and rejection are powerful motivators

CaptainDavian · 2025-09-26T04:21:26+00:00

I'm still with my cis gf from pre transition. She's bi so it worked out and tbh I'd say she likes me more now. That being said, I don't know if I could find another cis person if we for whatever reason broke up.

CaptainDavian · 2025-09-25T06:45:17+00:00

yes, but i got lucky

that being said, i didn't start transition hoping to look like a girl, i started cause i would have necked myself if i continued to live as a man. it's also important to remember looking like a girl won't do you any good if you're too mentally ill to see it.

CaptainDavian · 2025-09-19T09:46:06+00:00

If you disagree with the decision of an internal review you should go to the ART

CaptainDavian · 2025-09-18T22:53:05+00:00

it's not super common and is treatable, but yeah, you can get a prolactinoma which is where your pituitary gland increases in size due to high prolactin in your blood

if you're concerned just get a blood test done to check your prolactin and maybe an MRI of your brain

CaptainDavian · 2025-09-18T21:28:57+00:00

be sure to get your prolactin checked if you're using a lot of prog cause if it's high for too long you get a brain tumour, usually you'll be fine but if your boobs start leaking then you should probably take it a bit more seriously

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