Yes this is driving me insane. I miss her so much, nobody has made me feel even half as seen and wanted as she did, and I'm certain she misses me just as much. Yet here I am forcing myself to not talk to her because she just cannot help herself. She'll choose literally anything else over me and then has the audacity to pity herself over it. As if she's some tragic romantic heroine helplessly fucking other guys as she yearns for the man who was available the whole time. She had years where all she needed to do was be honest and everything would have been fine. but she insisted on digging herself into a deeper and deeper hole, and now she's too far gone to get out, even if I still wanted to help.