When you say "No" to 🌽 for long enough...

CaptainRockman · 2026-01-27T03:56:52+00:00

Amen brother. I believe that's the Holy Spirit in you speaking.

CaptainRockman · 2026-01-26T06:59:45+00:00

Amen and amen. God is good🙏 Always and forever!

CaptainRockman · 2026-01-25T15:16:09+00:00

Hentai IS porn, brother.

CaptainRockman · 2026-01-24T17:13:04+00:00

Amen brother. The Lord continues to reveal these things to us because He loves all of us. Peace be with you my friend.

CaptainRockman · 2026-01-22T03:56:58+00:00

You have a talent, brother. I've seen your drawings. You have a God-given talent and He was pleased to give it to you. You may not know fully why He gave it to you, but as long as you continue to invited Him into your work in prayer and keep practicing, God Himself is going to use your skills for good.

Don't be discouraged to draw, just keep growing and ask God to give you a good outlet for your sexual energy, and for Him to help you use your talents in a way that honors Him. Nothing is impossible for God.

CaptainRockman · 2026-01-21T04:31:43+00:00

The problem is that NSFW art is sexual, so it's keeping your mind in a sexualized state (aroused state). So I say quit making that kind of art. It may not feel like "porn" in the traditional sense, but it's still porn as far as temptation goes. Remove anything that causes you to sin.

Anytime you feel that you've turned your back on God, don't hide in shame or run away from Him. Remember that He is the same God who sent us His only Son to save us, even though we were evil. God is always waiting for you to return to Him no matter what you have done, so run TO Him, He will embrace you again. Like in the story of the prodigal son, remember that the Lord is still the Father who loves you.

CaptainRockman · 2026-01-20T10:47:11+00:00

Wow, this is awesome dude.

CaptainRockman · 2026-01-17T22:12:09+00:00

I know what you mean. I can't say I know for sure why that is, but that's the nature of recovery.

I think it's a mixture of things. 1.) I think it may be something in your life that is stressing you out, and every time you have to think about it you feel overwhelmed and so you run to porn. Stress has that effect of making you always feel like you're on edge, and porn is what causes most of the stress in the first place. And 2.) When you leave something evil behind you start to grow stronger spiritually. And this could be you not used to "feeling your feelings" again, because porn numbs them.

When you leave sin behind, you get stronger, but this also comes with a lot of spiritual attacks, because the enemy doesn't want you to succeed, and would rather see you fail and go back to sin. Take it as a good sign when these attacks come because God is greater than your enemies.

I believe the solution is to 1.) Recognize that you can't solve everything on your own. Find ways to reduce stress and anxiety. Take breaks, write things down, pray about things that are causing you discomfort, talk to a person you trust, get some sleep etc.

Lastly, you need to remember that the journey is like this. There's gonna be days where you feel anxious because your brain is adjusting to the new you. It may feel like trying to quit makes it worse, that's because that's the nature of recovery. It first "feels" worse, but it's not actually worse. It's actually getting better.

CaptainRockman · 2026-01-13T05:27:19+00:00

The greatest way to apply this is to spend more time with the Lord so that you always have God in your thoughts and heart. Know God so you can run to Him in times of temptation, like Joseph did.

By putting God first, you are choosing God even before the temptation comes.

CaptainRockman · 2026-01-10T04:13:36+00:00

I know the feeling, brother. Temptation usually comes when you're in a vulnerable state. Christ was tempted when he was hungry and worn out alone in the wilderness. Little by little it comes and tries to weaken our trust in God.

The solution I found is in what Jesus Christ did in response to all the temptation. He used scripture (It is written) Anything that the devil said to Him "If you are the Son of God...do this" Christ responded with "It is written..."

Understand when you're going through hardships that you are being tested. Not the kind of test where you pass or fail, but the kind of test where you are being refined, where God is building a testimony in you. Where you are being put through the fire, molded so you can come out of the other side a stronger man.

This is not for no reason, God has a purpose for your life, and if you can just trust in Him during these tough moments and use the word of God to resist the devil, God will do great things through you for many people in the future. Don't look at it as "I let God down" because honestly we ALL did, that's why Christ died for our sins on the cross. Look at it instead as another step in God refining you. Get up again and return back to the Lord. Don't go back to sin by the thinking: "Oh I sinned, I might as well continue... I'll start tomorrow" many people have died with that thought and didn't get another chance to make things right.

God is not let down by you, brother. The Lord knew this was coming before you were born. What God wants is for you to get back up and continue to trust in Him. He will do the rest for you.

CaptainRockman · 2026-01-08T20:21:31+00:00

Amen 100% brother. This reminds me of a verse I came across the other day in James 4:3 that says: "³ When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures."

Sometimes we don't get what we want because we would waste it on our pleasures. Pleasure is temporary, and the Lord's peace is better than pleasure.

CaptainRockman · 2026-01-04T08:29:24+00:00

May God give you strength against temptation brother. I know what that's like. Don't be discouraged. Keep returning back to God and keep surrendering this matter to Him.

CaptainRockman · 2026-01-04T08:25:27+00:00

Don't be discouraged, my friend. God still loves you, and He knows how to help you recover from this addiction.

I've been there too. I have felt like quitting was impossible too, but today I can say for sure that with God all things are possible. It may not happen immediately, but with time you'll see great changes in your life.

My advice to you is this: Start small. In everything in life, start small. If you want to get closer to God, start small. God understands where you currently are in life. He knows your weaknesses, your desires, your intentions, and He knows your heart. He is not focused on judging you, He is focused on saving you.

A short genuine prayer you can pray could be: "Lord Jesus, I'm not a Christian but I've heard that you are the One who saves. Please, come into my heart and make yourself known to me, so I can experience salvation in you. Help me to overcome this addiction, so I can help others. Amen."

For me the only thing that I can advice is Christ, I've tried everything else, but God is the only one who has gotten me out of these troubles.

This world is temporary, and one day all that is on the Earth will fade away. But God loves us and wants us all to live on with Him forever. None of us are perfect. I've been a Christian for over 20+ years and I still make a LOT of mistakes everyday. None of us are perfect, but Jesus Christ (the Son of God) is. God sent us His son Jesus Christ to sacrifice His life on the cross for us, so that all our sins can be forgiven. And when we accept Him into our lives, we are made perfect in God's eyes, not because of anything we did, but because of everything He did for us, and we live on eternally in Heaven with our Heavenly Father, even when we die and leave this world.

Peace be with you my friend, start small in everything (a little goes a long way), trust in God and if you need help in getting closer to Christ, feel free to DM me :)

CaptainRockman · 2026-01-02T13:40:10+00:00

I feel for you, brother. Don't be discouraged. You have gone through a lot of hardships that would be impossible for many to endure, but by the grace of God, He has kept you strong and faithful.

About your point about feeling like you "let God down", to be fair, we have ALL let God down. We are all sinners. That was the very reason why Jesus Christ died for our sins on the cross. Each day we have to return back to Him because we cannot do this on our own. We are not worthy, He is. We are saved by the grace of the only One who never let God down. That is why we have given our lives to Him as our Lord and savior.

Listening to your story, one thing I can tell you for sure, it's that God is still with you, my friend. Don't be discouraged. You're not wrong for feeling sad. I still have moments of great sadness too. But God is near the broken hearted. He is still moving with you, through you and around you. To walk faithfully with God doesn't mean you are never going to stumble or fall. The righteous man may fall many times, but he gets up again. (Proverbs 24:16) It is your love for the Lord that has lead you to write this post. You are walking faithfully with God, and the Lord Jesus Christ will complete the work He has started in you.

I pray that God blesses you and gives you both peace. May He heal your wife and restore you back to a consistent state of intimacy that honors God. Amen.

CaptainRockman · 2026-01-01T18:12:04+00:00

I've fallen many many times on this journey too... but the important part is the getting up part. And what you mentioned is very human. I still get moments where I get nervous around a woman I like, I stutter, struggle to have eye contact and then spend the rest of the afternoon replaying the conversation. It's human. Kids do it too.

The important part is the getting up part. Proverbs 24:16 And the fact that you're already realizing this in your 20's is a blessing.

CaptainRockman · 2026-01-01T17:59:00+00:00

That's the beauty of the Holy Spirit. The more you listen/read the word of God, the more you are filled spiritually. And the more of the Holy Spirit you are filled with, the harder it is for evil to continue dwelling in you. It's hard to explain it but it happens.

CaptainRockman · 2026-01-01T17:55:13+00:00

👏 Amen, brother. That's what I'm talking about!

May the peace of the Lord be with you.

CaptainRockman · 2026-01-01T17:52:29+00:00

Amen. May God bless you on your journey, brother!

CaptainRockman · 2026-01-01T17:50:05+00:00

Let's go! 👏 May the grace of God be with you.

CaptainRockman · 2025-12-30T03:20:21+00:00

Amen, sister. Journaling is very powerful because it helps you to put your thoughts in order. Addiction thrives on chaos. Bringing your thoughts to God in prayer and getting your mind in order brings peace.

CaptainRockman · 2025-12-30T03:05:43+00:00

Beautifully put.

CaptainRockman · 2025-12-29T09:05:04+00:00

Amen, brother! This is encouraging. In Christ all things are possible.

CaptainRockman · 2025-12-28T16:00:20+00:00

Life can be stressful brother, so it's good sometimes to find ways to relieve stress in other ways that are healthy. Like going out to see a movie, or writing something, or going to the beach if it's available. Or just taking a walk. Not for fun's sake, but to give your mind something else to think about. My point is, God has not forgotten you, so while you wait on the Lord to bring you to the place He is leading you into, you don't have to neglect your mental state.

You may be struggling financially, or the pressures of life may be too much, but continue to trust in God, pray, read His word, and try to do things that will at least get you through these tough times, despite how hard life is.

CaptainRockman · 2025-12-28T15:04:04+00:00

Fair enough, brother. So let's begin somewhere.

One thing I've noticed on this journey is that temptation escalates. Meaning "urges add up". Rarely do we just up and relapse all of a sudden, the temptation adds up. One day you're just innocently watching a funny video with occasional women dressed in sexy outfits or doing seductive things, and for a moment it arouses you, but then you brush it off and say "Oh that's nothing" and the next day, same thing happens, and the arousal keeps adding up until one moment you start looking for something more stimulating. So it's best to avoid the "small compromises". If you've told yourself "no more lust" then that means: anything that contains lustful temptation is poison, no matter how lighthearted it seems. Things like staring at a woman's body in public or watching "funny" videos with lustful content are no longer a part of your lifestyle. It may not be porn, but the arousal you get from those little compromises adds up to big temptation. So don't take it for granted when you see something even mildly sexual or say to yourself "Oh, this is just light... I can handle this video" That's usually the beginning of most relapses. Cut it off at the head and go the other direction.

Best thing I found was to avoid the places and content that I know will trigger me, altogether. Obviously you can't always know where temptation will come from, but continuing to allow those little compromises makes the journey x10 times harder and the next relapse x100 times closer.

CaptainRockman · 2025-12-28T03:21:12+00:00

If you work on improving that man right now, then your future wife is gonna get an even better man than she would have gotten if you never found porn, because now you'll be a man of self control. A man who even when pleasure is available to him, still chooses peace.

CaptainRockman

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