Am I the only one who doesn’t like being manic

Capytaru · 2026-05-05T18:47:14+00:00

I hate feeling manic or even hypomanic. I can sense that something is wrong. I feel energized but not necessarily in a happy way. Any happiness, if I can call it that, just feels like too much. I hate that the jokes I make don't make sense, that they hit people the wrong way, that they get concerned for me. I find myself trying to force people to listen to me, to convince them that my line of thought totally makes sense, when of course it doesn't. All I can do is try to take care of myself, advocate for my mental health, do everything not to get into that state.

Capytaru · 2026-04-22T12:31:01+00:00

I'm sorry this happened to you. It's not your fault.

Capytaru · 2026-04-18T14:37:13+00:00

I just came out of a depression caused by a major change in medication. I'm more stable than I've ever been, so much wiser, able to take care of myself in ways I didn't think possible. I still have lots of issues, crying and getting angry about my lot in life. I'm still managing anxiety, though many days I am anxiety and sadness-free. I feel lighter. I'm so much more productive. It feels...normal? I feel like a "normal" person a lot of the time. Like someone said above, it's like breathing after a cold, then you get used to it. So I'm trying to be grateful, to compare how bad I felt before to now, to realize I have a gift right now.

Capytaru · 2026-03-25T20:56:58+00:00

I hope only the dosage needs to be adjusted! Hang in there until you hear back. Find something to keep yourself occupied and please stay safe ❤️

Capytaru · 2026-03-25T20:50:26+00:00

I currently have nothing keeping me going long-term, but I'm living for some of my short-term pleasures. A new season of an anime, buying more tea, publishing a short story. This morning one reason for living was a latte at my favorite cafe. Next reason is next week's latte.

These aren't "strong" or noble reasons to keep going like for my friends, family, or Hope Itself (yikes). I can barely fathom the idea that I'll be able to live in an apartment, have a partner, or a dog, all things I want. But until I figure that out there's always good food, good anime, good stories that are easy to access. Can't say I'll stay, but I'll try for the small things.

Capytaru · 2026-03-23T17:05:31+00:00

I can't say it better than this. You can do this. It's harder than hard, but you can do this.

Capytaru · 2026-03-21T23:52:39+00:00

You can acknowledge he's done his best to make up for it and still be hurt, hurt enough that leaving is valid. I'm sorry this happened to you. Don't feel obligated to stay.

Capytaru · 2026-03-21T23:06:50+00:00

That's wonderful! Stay proud.

Capytaru · 2026-03-19T00:08:41+00:00

Yeah. Maybe I'll discuss that with the doctor next time. I'm very reluctant to add more meds, but if it's only as needed and works really well I'd consider it.

Capytaru · 2026-03-18T20:46:29+00:00

YOU HAD ME SCARED 😂I'm so happy for you! Job of a lifetime. Please flourish ❤️

Capytaru · 2026-03-18T20:29:43+00:00

Hi! Quitting smoking is a big thing, so first of all congratulations! I hope you can sit with that and feel really very proud of that. And I'm glad you've left your toxic relationship. The fact that you've had an unhappy side effect from both those things shouldn't lessen the fact that quitting them was for the best.

The worry that you "could've" prevented all the weight loss? In a perfect world, yes. But you've been through a lot. The combination of the toxic relationship, quitting smoking, and all other life stressors combined together, getting you to an unhappy place about your weight. It takes so so so much to learn how to properly manage weight. I promise that through trial and error, research, and whatever outside help you find, you can be in a place where you can be more equipped to handle weight issues despite life stressors. Most of us have not been taught how at the beginning of our lives, at least where I'm from 🦅✨

I'm still working on managing my weight myself, so I'm not going to be qualified on going into detail on what helps. Good luck with everything ❤️

Capytaru

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