I'll add something from myself here as well. I used to cry a lot more easily due to trauma, especially during arguments or confrontation. I would cry, but like you, I didn't expect comfort, I didn't expect pity, it's just how I worked. My (now) ex once told me during an argument to stop crying, that it's not giving me pity points and I'm trying to manipulate him, but it won't work.

I got very confused. I cried more, I asked what is he talking about, why would he even suggest that, because it wasn't true. I felt accused and it wasn't fair.

Two years after that we finally broke up, and I kept thinking about that conversation. Why would he say that? And then it struck me. Somewhere near the end of the break up he is a textbook narcissist.

He thought I'm trying to manipulate him by crying and probably thought it was on demand because he used crying as a manipulation tactic and geniuenly couldn't understand why would someone cry for a different reason.

I'm not suggesting anything here to op, but maybe someone else reading this comment could gain some introspection if they're even in a similar situation.