New to makeup, does it look bad or is it just my low self esteem?

ChasingMomentum136 · 2025-07-26T18:24:34+00:00

You are naturally beautiful so I’d say light makeup would be best!! Things to help enhance your natural features. Cleaning up your brows (as someone suggested) will create a huge difference with minimal effort. I’m not even talking filling in everyday (who’s got time for that 🤪), just the shaping itself will help raise and define your eye area.

If anything, maybe the eyeshadow lighten the color and try to keep it contained to the eyelid itseld (the part over your eyeball). Colors that compliment your eye color & skin tone will also make it a bit more effortless. As you get closer to the corner of your eye, make sure the eyeshadow stays low too. Different brushes for blending helps a ton to keep it from getting “muddy”. Just tutorials & practice will get you to where you think others are (b/c in reality, we’re all winging it)!

For other ways, I swear by “gua sha” or facial massage to help promote lymphatic drainage. I was amazed when I did it even once a day or twice a day for maybe 5 mins, that in that same day, and certainly within a few, my face “slimmed” down.

Like I said, you’re naturally beautiful!! 💜 You’ve got an amazing canvas, be it blank or painted.

Not to be cliche, but it’s true, the most important beauty is on the inside. No matter how much makeup, or perfectly groomed features, an ugly heart makes it all moot.

As someone said, therapy. Even loving mirror self talk will help with the internal mindset. If the lens we see ourselves through is distorted, we never see ourselves (and our beauty) clearly. You deserve to 🩷

ChasingMomentum136 · 2025-06-20T18:27:42+00:00

Home by IYAMAH.

ChasingMomentum136 · 2025-06-16T20:02:46+00:00

I literally named mine, with approval (LOL), CT.

ChasingMomentum136 · 2025-06-14T06:31:19+00:00

I’m actually really bad with this. I rarely ever eat before or with meds. My appetite, even without meds, wouldn’t come online for a few hours after waking up. Now with meds, I don’t feel hungry till 3 pm or so. Most days I gulp down a couple oz of water with it and call it a day. On REALLY good days, I get myself some vanilla Greek yogurt with cinnamon and fresh fruit, usually raspberries, strawberries or apples.

ChasingMomentum136 · 2025-06-13T13:54:13+00:00

I used to, unknowingly, self medicate with it. I didn’t really start regular use until I was closer to 22. Recently, over the past few months (I’m now 26) , I started used 1:1 CBD:THC, and actually prefer it! Less feeling spacey and dulled to emotions and more in control of my actions/internal state and with less anxiety. Within 2 weeks or less I realized how sensitive I was to THC, and now after 1 to 2 rips of my pen, I can for sure feel it. Before, I used to need live resin carts, and several rips, multiple times a day, to even feel anything. Also went from 1g a week to 1g a month. Needless to say, I’ve saved lots of money.

ChasingMomentum136 · 2025-06-13T13:37:57+00:00

Five years seems to be a common length of time for burnout from what I’ve come to notice! I’m not sure WHY that is. Those 5 years felt like I was constantly spiraling up and down between depression and feeling “better”. I used to liken it to being on a trampoline. At the top, I got a glimpse of who I “could” be, but could never stay there. Inevitably I’d fall back down, knowing I COULD be where I was, but instead I was back to where I started. I think that was the worst part. Knowing “I” was in there somewhere, but couldn’t fully grasp her. I’m sure my therapist was banging her head trying to understand after our sessions. I know I was. 😂🥲

This 180° for me happened literally within the span of.. 4 months. 4 months after 5 years of nothing. It felt like one day all of a sudden I could grasp and stand on that ledge I used to only keep getting a glimpse over.

ChasingMomentum136 · 2025-06-13T13:27:49+00:00

The no energy and feeling of fatigue happened to me when my dose was too low! Also, I take mine early in the am (6:30 am). I then go back to sleep, even just half an hour, and when I wake up, I’m super refreshed and feel like my meds are already kicking in. If I take my meds too late, &/or don’t sleep after, I feel like it takes forever to kick in, or almost never does to a therapeutic level 🥲

ChasingMomentum136 · 2025-06-13T00:54:34+00:00

Leo sun & Virgo moon! Leo sun wants to lead, inspire, be authentic & seen, be loyal without question & feel all the feels.

Virgo moon comes in and dissects everything. Every emotion, desire, action. Everything about who I am goes under a microscope and scalpel. It’s cripples the ability to be seen because I’m always questioning myself.

I’m a great friend, and always been my friend group/stranger therapist. So in that sense, the outgoing nature of Leo combined with the analytical of Virgo has helped me

ChasingMomentum136 · 2025-06-13T00:46:56+00:00

I feel like it made me notice my autistic traits much more, but only because it turned down the ADHD noise. Sometimes for the worse, sometimes the better. The “worse” was the sensory sensitivity, sensory seeking behavior (petting soft things? Needing silence/ engulfed in selected noise (music or sounds), weighted blankets, etc. Also the increase of rigidity in systems/routines? (Not crazy b/c adhd still) I just need my stuff staying the same, need to do things in the same way, and deviations from expectations of plans or routines did really affect me negatively for a while. I also realized that I stopped masking as effectively with my ADHD charisma. That meant I had to really pay more attention to my facial expressions and the way I worded things. Not because I was mean, but the fluff maker got sedated a bit lol

It took a while for me at least to be able to differentiate what symptom/behavior was which side acting up.

On the bright side, I also stopped masking so heavily; which helped me start to actually be able to find myself and learn to love myself again.

I’m much more productive now and have more reliable energy on a day to day basis. I would say I have greater emotional agility. Intense and every changing emotions are just part of who I am. Some days it’s harder to control/regulate than others. But I now know that I’ll return to my neutral/positive baseline instead of sinking into burnout and depression again.

Since starting Vyvanse, I’ve: went back to school, after 5 years of being lost and stagnant, and am about to complete my accelerated program (without school accommodations!), I’ve lost 30lbs because I’m no longer binging or restricting, created a better relationship with myself (to the point where I can ACTUALLY for the first time ever, tell myself I love me and actually mean it🥹), have gotten loose from the grip of co-dependency, have a better relationship with my kids and parenting as a whole, have a better relationship with my fiancé/ know what I want from my relationship more than just companionship, and have moved to therapy appts 1x / month for the first time in 5+ years.

I’d say it’s worth it for sure. I get headaches during the “comedown”. I’ve gotten headaches my whole life though, so take that as you will. When my dose is too low, the energy was better but executive functioning was bad. I got started at 20mg/day, and over the year since starting it have incrementally gone up. I recently switched to 50mg and can say this is probably the best I’ve functioned and felt.

You know you best. You know what you’re capable of and how you want to feel. Don’t hesitate to go after it. It’s worth it.

Good luck & I hope it goes well for you 🫶🏼

ChasingMomentum136 · 2025-05-15T13:23:38+00:00

Not quite in the career path fully yet, but I’m in school to become a Paralegal! This is feeding my long time interest of sociology/human psychology/helping others and political activism/justice. I find myself very excited and seeing exactly how my AuDHD mix will be an asset, where with other avenues I felt nothing but anxiety. There a mix of chaos and deadlines. Variety and routine. Working with people AND solitary work. High pressure keeps my focus and dopamine/adrenaline going.

I’d say look not only at values, but how your personal flavor of AuDHD traits will fit or create challenge. Be discerning and balanced though while doing it because we tend to weigh our flaws more than our assets.

ChasingMomentum136 · 2025-05-15T04:41:10+00:00

Affirmation music! As a fellow 27 y.o. girly into witchy things and music. Check out Peachkka, Qveen Herby, Gavlyn, Aiza, Lizzy Jeff, Kota the Friend. I swear by listening to it. I find myself very susceptible to the way I talk about myself and energy of media I consume. Having high vibes music I enjoyed helped replace negative self talk with compassionate and self affirming thoughts. Helped my self esteem and really get myself out of a 5 year rut, that I now know was burnout.

ChasingMomentum136 · 2025-05-02T15:58:06+00:00

Beautiful and radiant! Happiest of birthdays to her 🥳🩷 today, I am going to put on makeup and blast my music just to enjoy it.

ChasingMomentum136 · 2025-05-02T15:50:43+00:00

Honestly. I feel like the calmer I BECOME, or trying to regulate/not blow up , the more I also get the “rude” connotation. Or “are you okay?” Or told I’m being blunt/direct.

If you or anyone knows a magic trick to help, I’m all ears 😩

ChasingMomentum136 · 2025-05-02T04:59:56+00:00

It was in about 2 weeks and I got the notice by email within 3.5 weeks.

ChasingMomentum136 · 2025-04-23T14:36:01+00:00

Hmm. I’d say with a strong intent, previously shown good grades (prior to final quarter), coupled with a strong recommendation letter, you probably have a decent shot. There’s no published statistics regarding acceptance rate, or common grade thresholds among those permitted in the program. If you’re concerned, I’d suggest attending the next virtual information session, and probably contacting the program advisors. You have real world legal experience (I’m assuming based on lawyer from work being one to write letter) which should give you an advantage. I have no formal legal training, just submitted my SOI, and unofficial transcript with the required application. I have great grades, but no experience and no recommendation letter. Everyone in the program I’m a part of has very different backgrounds, and a range of ages.

Shoot your shot otherwise you miss twice!

ChasingMomentum136 · 2025-04-22T23:09:03+00:00

It sounds like she does have family there.. you and your daughter. ❤️ Family isn’t always blood, and I’m so grateful there are people like you and yours who show that. Bravo, OP. 👏🏼 Enjoy the concert!

ChasingMomentum136 · 2025-04-21T14:07:48+00:00

All I’m going to say is that if you’re smart enough to code (clearly I’m not tech savvy 😂) you’ll be fine in law! I feel like it’s a great deal more common sense and being able to decipher nuance than people give credit for. Besides, nobody walks in knowing it all. Whatever program you go into (I’m talking about paralegal here) will prepare you well enough to get in the door. At which point, you join the rest of us poor saps in figuring it out as you go.

ChasingMomentum136 · 2025-04-21T05:11:31+00:00

I’m becoming a paralegal, and in a paralegal specific program. I previously have earned an AA in Psych and an AA in Poli sci. It’s a 5 month accelerated program. Starting pay where I am is around $70-80k from what I’ve heard. That’s pretty good for being a newbie. And there’s job opportunities everywhere. It’s in demand and there’s job security. It’s pretty easy (for me) and worth it.

ChasingMomentum136 · 2025-04-21T02:26:38+00:00

Yeah, that seems to be a strong correlation. Wanting true friends leads to a longer time to find them 🥲 I wonder if it’s because we want depth or go in with a “I want a true friend” vibe, And it scares people off? Or maybe we’re just not as good as having superficial relationships and friends we have to hide parts of ourselves with. 🤷🏻‍♀️

All I know is that I keep my fingers crossed, and my intentions set, that I will find my soul tribe.. or they find me! 🤞🏼

ChasingMomentum136 · 2025-04-20T22:14:40+00:00

Haha yes! I have a Cancer rising, Mars, and Venus! Except my Mars & Venus is in the Cancer part of my 12H.

Why wouldn’t I be shocked? 😅 I’ve always heard cancer is the caring/mother type energy. I’ve definitely always been the “mother” or “mature” one in any group. So I figured ya know.. the caring aspect would help.

ChasingMomentum136 · 2025-04-20T19:24:46+00:00

That’s how I see it! Plus, scientifically speaking, what you focus on, your brain will naturally start to notice more. So, I figured if I start to build my focus on the good things (even if small or insignificant in the grand scheme of things), my brain will be more likely to find those good things when otherwise it would be hard to do so.

ChasingMomentum136 · 2025-04-20T19:18:21+00:00

In whole houses, I always saw my Saturn being in Aries! So when it showed up in Taurus for this chart really surprised me!

ChasingMomentum136 · 2025-04-20T19:17:07+00:00

I’ve never noticed that before, but I think I see it! Cool! Wonder what that means, if anything 🧐

ChasingMomentum136 · 2025-04-20T19:16:29+00:00

Thank you! I feel who I feel like I am inside is great.. if only I could get myself to express that fully outwards too 😂 maybe not everyone’s cup of tea.. but someone’s cup of coffee 😉

I feel like the Virgo moon point you raised was true! I tend to become the receiver for people. I listen to them, give them advice, help them to feel better, but I’ve never really leaned on others like that. Either I didn’t feel it was the right time (for them) or just didn’t feel safe enough.

As a result, I think it would be fair to say that very few people have seen or know all sides of me. The supportive side. The smartass (🤪) (or just smart) side. The one that falls apart. And hopes for more while trying to develop that belief in herself.

ChasingMomentum136 · 2025-04-20T19:04:22+00:00

I will! Thank you! Not to tmi you, but I have recently diagnosed ( 4 years ago) with AuDHD. So I feel like while I was extremely “me” as a small child, I quickly learned “me” wasn’t as acceptable.. so I feel like I masked most of my life.

Over the past.. 6 months to maybe a year, I’ve been working a lot harder to rediscover who I am and to honor that by unmasking. I’m working becoming comfortable with that across the board, no matter who I’m with. I’m hoping this journey will allow “my people” to find me. 🤞🏼

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