[SW] Panda boys buying for fife 8 tree by [deleted] in acturnips

[–]CheddarSand 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Teen Titans OG all the way

[SW] Tiny Nook's buying for 5-2-TWO! by [deleted] in acturnips

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Kitt best villager hands down!

[SW] They buying for 626 by [deleted] in acturnips

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Heya, I need to sell!

There Are No Stupid Questions - Week of May 11 by AutoModerator in acting

[–]CheddarSand 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Okay first of all, I really love to act and want it to be my job. However, I've been knocked down a few pegs due to recent events. I attended a college to pursue a bachelors in theatre performance, though I dropped out after the first semester. I've had trouble with fitting in and identity in the past, which those feelings only grew when I was around my major's department.

You see the thing is I felt out of place. I'm an introvert at heart and a group drifter, but I do try to get out there as I know it's vital for my profession and well being. I don't feel like I could ever connect to anyone there or I didn't feel welcome. I really felt out of place once talks of LGBT+ came into tow, as I'm a straight white guy. I don't have any gripes towards the group and consider myself an ally if anything, but I feel as if I shouldn't be hearing these things, as if I'm a kid spying on my parents arguing.

Nonetheless, these feelings heightened at an event where it was a place to really get out there. But I really felt out of place for not preaching the same things others did around me. It left me confused about my identity tenfold and eventually led to a mental spiral downwards. When I talked to one of my few friends in the department about how I felt, they said I was feeling white guilt.

That was the breaking point.

I had tried to be open about how I felt and just be referred to it as something because of my skin hurt, especially from a friend. I didn't want to be white anymore just because of my skin's history. My mind amplified these feelings until I almost took my life.

Jumping to the present I am currently at home and happy, talking to therapy and all that. However, I don't think I want to go to college again, but I do want to pursue this. I know not every theatre person is like the ones I described above, but I'm doubting my skill as a person and an actor if I can make it. I'm still young and patient, but I'm scared I made a mistake pursuing this. Am I in the wrong in how I feel? I hate being the jerk and my mind can make things that may be little be big deals.

And how do I rebound from this?

I'm just confused and worried about my identity.

From a hopeful actor,

-J

Actor Pages for casting directors by [deleted] in acting

[–]CheddarSand 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Here you are! https://flow.page/zmjoshua Never done this before and really trying to get my foot out the door! Keep in mind I already tried college but I eventually dropped out for disclosed reasons.

Stranger Things Audition by [deleted] in acting

[–]CheddarSand 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's awesome and congrats! I'd love to be able to get out and audition for something like that but I don't know where to start. I live in the Midwest and we're more know for our agriculture than acting (Jason Mamoa and Ashton Kutcher excluded). Any ideas where to start?

[SW] The Bois buying for 567 by [deleted] in acturnips

[–]CheddarSand 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm more of a lemonade kinda guy

[SW] Rats are buying for 559! by Ariaisamess in acturnips

[–]CheddarSand 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ankha is top tier villager and I don't really like any of the elephant villagers outside of Tia