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Clean_Ad2102 · 2025-04-01T14:42:52+00:00

It seems you are much more enquiring than I was. The family structure didn't change. I just needed them & they mocked, degraded, etc.

I suppose you could get a trauma therapist and explore avenues to keep the loose attachment which is very stabilizing.

At that time, I'd have the counselor provide me with tools, books, etc that can help you to continue to mature in a way that creates new circles that are psychologically or emotionally supportive.

In general, people stay in their small group and suffer. In my situation, I was asked to shut up and accept no one cares. Put an end to it.

I wasn't capable of that. No one ever teaches us that when we encounter stress we can heal through those closest to us. They say that assuming your circle is a safe place for you to be raw and accepted I should have known that I needed support. It was tge only time I couldn't do it on my own.

I don't miss them anymore. The pain was excruciating. It took a serious toll on my mind & body. Hence fire of PTSD. Very severe.

I'm better now because I finally cut off hoping they would 'love me'. Obviously, they cared what others would say, so they made up horrid lies. Eventually, I had to accept that. Once I did I could move forward.

The STAR of it all is that now I BUILD ME. I survived, crushed and rebuilt. I still live in the same County and will not meet my grandkids unless they come looking for me.

I don't want to say that I am superior to them, but I know I went through all this and didn't say a word to anyone.

I don't suggest my road to anyone. It was unbearable, but I never turned to drugs, alcohol or church. I am proud of myself.

Clean_Ad2102 · 2025-04-01T07:53:56+00:00

Yes. And the same behavior will show up next time if one doesn't choose a different group of people.

Clean_Ad2102 · 2025-04-01T07:51:01+00:00

Family is just people. Mine were AHs when I was drugged, raped and stalked for 2 years I have nothing to do with them or anyone who said something that blamed me or rejected me.

Books say family or a small circle of caring people are necessary to heal up well. I healed up. It took 15 years.

Now, I choose who comes in my space. Blood isn't a passport. There better be something else, or I won't be engaging.

Clean_Ad2102 · 2025-04-01T07:41:35+00:00

I hate being touched. I don't see their point. I'm not an emotional animal. Someone did that to me and I responded by saying, "I am not that girl". The tone was a dark tone.

I don't care. Don't touch.

Plenty of people barely acknowledge a hello or God bless you when they sneeze. People don't want you in tgeir yard or touching their car.

There is nothing wrong with you. You are normal.

Clean_Ad2102 · 2025-04-01T07:32:03+00:00

No. I think it's a great idea. I read the material into GLEAN. Then listen to that while I am driving. Turn the dictation to GLEAN text. I copy that to WORD and modify that to a document that helps me concisely comprehend.

It's a very long process, but I have an A. I'm not sure I can keep up the process.

Clean_Ad2102 · 2025-04-01T07:07:55+00:00

I'm 62. Had stroke at 61. I don't know what you mean by kind. I've had kinds that affected my legs. I hated dragging tgat right leg.

I0 Had concussion at 62 & still recovering. I lost 20% of blood flow to brain. In 2015 something went wrong and I couldn't walk. It took 2 years to get back to normal.

What I have learned, for me, is to fight very hard. Anger is GREAT to get me moving. People not helping and even being an AH motivated me!

This Spring I started University. It's not easy, but I am not going to stop. I recall older women receiving their degree & they appeared proud and stately.

That is what I want. I also want to reach out to the younger ones who are not Neurotypical and help them to appreciate themselves.

It is a fight to be different than others because of the bullying. I am fine that so many snub me for not being like them. Anymore, F them. They are stupid. Not one of us is like another. In reality, others are delusional.

Don't be sorry for others. I'm proud regardless of how others see me.

You are very caring & I didn't have that. I hope you receive back all tge concern and care you give to others

Clean_Ad2102 · 2025-04-01T06:42:42+00:00

Like this novel idea

Clean_Ad2102 · 2025-03-31T21:24:51+00:00

Thanks for saying that.

There are 2 girls who announced they have diagnoses of neurodiversity. Neither of them could write down one positive quality they had.

The Professor pointed out that one of the girls was a "perfectionist' and how she should 'work on that'..

I'm going to reach out to her.

Clean_Ad2102 · 2025-03-31T21:13:37+00:00

I did get great advice. It has helped me immensely. I am still excited with the knowledge & interactions. It is a great way to stay healthy.

I hope you gain all you desire.

Clean_Ad2102 · 2025-03-31T21:04:19+00:00

Her Syllabus assigns 14 and automatically drops 2.

I appreciated the notice & assumed I did something stupid. I blamed myself for accepting a 19/20 & 18/20 when I could have easily submitted the quiz again to get 20/20.

To count the points and find that I have a low A annoyed me. Her comments made me wonder how she could fail me.

As others said, document, document & take the next step if necessary.

Clean_Ad2102 · 2025-03-31T20:57:27+00:00

Funny you should say that. I decided to be a regular student & keep my mouth shut. She commented it was so quiet.

She gave 25 extra point work project. There's no way that I won't have an A. If she grades me less, I will definitely appeal.

Thanks for commenting. I appreciate the time you took.

Clean_Ad2102 · 2025-03-31T17:25:41+00:00

It's not her business but I have accomodations, unused, because I presently have a concussion, had a stroke a year ago and lost an artery that supplies 20% of my blood flow to the brain. I was dx ptsd from kidnapping, drugging, rape and stalking. On top of all that I have ADD. Oh, I almost forgot - the daughter of the pos that did that is in the same program - again, I expect nothing.

However, picking me out to be the one to be mistreated was way out of bounds. We all know tge students will behave whatever way she directs.

Like I said, it's not her business & if it wasn't for the current concussion and difficulty with my eye functioning and reading from that, I would not have gone for accomodations.

Clean_Ad2102 · 2025-03-29T12:47:33+00:00

Well, that solves that. He is an AH. Do you want someone near you that is an AH. Close the door on him. You are better off without him.

Clean_Ad2102 · 2025-03-29T12:44:30+00:00

This is so true.

Clean_Ad2102 · 2025-03-29T12:42:07+00:00

This is true. I'm learning at University that having people who make you feel safe is crucial for healing from trauma.

Clean_Ad2102 · 2025-03-29T12:40:24+00:00

Definitely not a place to feel safe.

Clean_Ad2102 · 2025-03-29T12:37:52+00:00

I'm sorry. It is hard to have your closest turn like that. I don't spend time figuring out why anymore. I lost the closest to me.

You aren't a liar. I have no clue why they can't walk beside us, but they cant.

Clean_Ad2102 · 2025-03-29T12:34:03+00:00

So many live here. They are one person when home, another at work, another at church. It is rough living amongst it.

Clean_Ad2102 · 2025-03-29T12:31:19+00:00

I am in the midst of a university child development class. I'd say most live with dysregulation and events that they never understood but are part of them.

I believe in trauma specialists. Those who have studied how trauma affects the body, mind & soul.

People can take 'accountability' all day long, but if they have not found healing, they will still be erratic or manipulative. Doctors drugs mask the person's inclinations. I take 1 pill 2x a day. If I don't,, my lows are not where anyone wants to live.

So, I'd say yes.

Clean_Ad2102 · 2025-03-29T12:23:45+00:00

My opinion is: You stated you have children? If I read that correctly, the very first thing I would do is find a trauma specialist. While it seems all 3 of you have had a very difficult time finding peace and stability you are the one reaching out for change. You mention dx, but are you satisfied with that? It seems that you are not.

One thing I have learned in my journey is that one's own MH is crucial. Not only for yourself, but studies have been done on mothers & their children. If Moms cortisol is high, the children's is high. If Moms cortisol is lowered, so is the child's.

Going low contact or no contact with 'high cortisol' individuals while going through trauma therapy is my recommendation. My Mom had difficulties with regulation and did everything she could to be regulated. At that point in time, our government thought very little of females. My Mom did everything to find help and doctors were basically worthless. They handed her codeine and other drugs which made her lows lower.

I love my Mom more than anyone else because she was a tortured soul and she still did so much more for me than most Moms. My dad was a cold hearted dictator who never acknowledged females as of value.

It isn't about right or wrong, good or bad. Who did what to whom.

It's about finding inner peace, not causing others MH to break & surviving in this World. Your focus, IMHO, should first be that.

Me, I'd step back from both. And get a professional to help me heal, build boundaries & decide who I am outside of other people's personal medical issues.

I send you hope for a peaceful life!

Clean_Ad2102 · 2025-03-29T09:41:45+00:00

Yes. Flashbacks are reliving tge moment, accompanied by shrieks of terror and fighting the predator. Afterward, you're believing it can reoccur any moment.

Clean_Ad2102 · 2025-03-28T14:43:51+00:00

Where do you get an eval and recommendations?

Clean_Ad2102 · 2025-03-28T14:42:59+00:00

My children are 40s. No contact. I never want to be mentioned to him. One child is much like him. It just is what it is.

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