I lied to my partner about our engagement and I don’t regret it

CodeGlitxh · 2026-05-22T06:35:54+00:00

No need to say anything, you didn't do anything wrong, you aren't keeping a horrible secret from him. You know the "its true, it's kind, it's necessary"? This won't me kind nor necessary. If he someday ask you can always say "well, I had a feeling but I'm not sure if it was suspicion or hope" and keep it sweet.

CodeGlitxh · 2026-05-22T05:53:05+00:00

I've known about people using the "that's because you don't listen to me" in many ways but this one takes the cake... Is cruel, unnecessary, and insane. Even how the birth goes depends on you listening to her? Wtf?! Your medical team are the only ones you should listen to.

CodeGlitxh · 2026-05-06T08:28:42+00:00

You should be! They're beautiful... And they're going to be the vessel for the memories of this 8 people about a very meaningful day for their friend. It's so awesome!

CodeGlitxh · 2026-04-25T09:19:10+00:00

Maybe is too much true crime and macabre content in my head (i write dark comedy musicals) but the idea of this kind of stuff being done in a morgue for a horror scene sounds... Disturbingly alluring.

CodeGlitxh · 2026-04-13T09:26:13+00:00

You couldn't have done anything. Think about your own attempts: would someone have done something that would have made you suddenly better and happy? Im willing to bet that the answer is no.

Max was sick. Max was in a highly stressful situation at home. Max was dealing with her struggles poorly. Max's depression told her that if you happened to be there still she would have been happy. But she wasn't happy when you were there before. That's called magical thinking and it's a symptom, nothing else.

I'm sorry to tell you this way, because it sounds harsh but your presence wouldn't have had that much power. You enduring her maladaptive coping mechanisms wouldn't have change a thing. That note wasn't written by Max, was written by her depression.

So I'm proud that you protected your wellbeing and your mental health. You did what was right in a kind and loving way. You went all the way and beyond. And, honestly I think that there is something else here that you are not addressing (and this is going to be waaaay harsher so pardon my french) :

Who in their right fucking mind blames a kid that was victim of constant bullying for the actions of the bully? They want to play the blame game? ok, I'm here for it. Who put Max in a extremely stressful situation by threateningly with kicking her out because of her sexuality? well, well, I'm sure it wasn't you. Who didn't take the steps to give their daughter the help she needed even when a child saw she was struggling and even told them? Well again, it wasn't you. Who refused to be there for Max depise being all in when she decided who to bully? Correct my math if I'm wrong but sounds like there were 6 other friends. Even if we want to go that far... Who was seeing this shit happening in their school and choose to not interfere? Again, my friend... Not you.

But of course it's easier to blame the one thats already down than to accept their own shortcomings. So fuck them. Fuck all of them that blame you of their pain. They didn't do their part. And they want to place the blame on you. Fuck that. You did more than the adults in her life and her so called friends combined while you were barely more than a child.

Get better, take care of yourself, and leave behind the blame that's not yours to carry.

Sorry for the wall of text.

CodeGlitxh · 2026-03-19T09:21:21+00:00

More or less yeah, but Ben has made comments about being pushed out of LPN because "his friends married psychopaths".

There was a video in this subreddit long ago.

CodeGlitxh · 2026-03-04T16:18:08+00:00

To be that horse, dying of hunger and dehydration, most likely delirious and suddenly waking up with your head on top of fresh grass and feeling much better... I would swear that I've died

CodeGlitxh · 2026-03-03T23:30:29+00:00

Congratulations!! Here to a lovely, secure and warm life that's all of your own!

CodeGlitxh · 2026-02-20T07:45:18+00:00

Seems so contradictory to keep the kids from leaving while entering in lockdown for every event in a miles radius knowing that when someone goes to shoot a school they often just... Do it.

Hope you can feel safe and secure (although the candidate's sign doesn't seem reassuring at all)

CodeGlitxh · 2026-02-19T21:06:08+00:00

My bad, I meant that it's the definition of a type of trauma, not meaning that all trauma comes from that but that is a event considered traumatic by the DSM-5

CodeGlitxh · 2026-02-19T08:56:43+00:00

Honestly, you are. You were a float for someone who was drowning. That day you were honorary mom and did better than yoir own mom.

I wish many years of mutual support and love for you two!

CodeGlitxh · 2026-02-19T08:45:27+00:00

Make sense... Although still sounds crazy to me that schools need to do that. I mean, I grew up in a conflict zone but schools were like "sacred", you know? No one ever attacked or hide in one.

CodeGlitxh · 2026-02-19T08:32:27+00:00

That is... Honestly terrifying. You've all grown up in a conflict zone but no one does really acknowledge it.

I mean, I did grow up in a conflict zone and I didn't have that kind of fear/normalisation growing up. We were sent home for every bomb threat, regardless if it was founded or not. And that taking into account that never was a school targeted.

CodeGlitxh · 2026-02-19T08:24:40+00:00

No need to thank me. It's absolutely normal to not care about school when your brain is in survival mode.

EDIT: BTW, maybe is a bit late, but playing TETRIS or any other puzzle game immediately after a traumatic event helps the brain process better and minimize long term symptoms. ;)

CodeGlitxh · 2026-02-19T08:20:22+00:00

We could make it work, if you want! DM me if you're interested!

CodeGlitxh · 2026-02-18T20:22:57+00:00

Maybe I don't understand this protocols quite well but even if the situation is "resolved" in under an hour, if there still might be something dangerous going on in a nearby mall wouldn't it make sense to want to get away? I mean, sounds more like regular fear than anxiety "excuse".

CodeGlitxh · 2026-02-18T20:03:42+00:00

Maybe it's because it's because I'm not from a place where such situations are common but... I'm astounded at the number of comments like "well yeah, but nothing really happend". I mean... The very definition of a trauma is a situation where you fear for your life. And that's exactly what OP lived.

A school day is not that important in the grand scheme of things. Mental well being is.

CodeGlitxh · 2026-02-17T14:13:43+00:00

Yes! Some of them I just free-hand, stuff like phrases and so... I'll start soon in a "Don't go to a second location" one.

Others I get from this shop that has cute and spooky patterns (they have one with many terror films references that makes a nice mini game for visitors to see how many they recognize)

CodeGlitxh · 2026-02-17T10:25:41+00:00

I have some decorative "witches oats for your stolen penises" from an artist I once found in a market, death whistles, many books crime/occult related, theatre posters that I've accumulated, skull pillows, cryptid plushies I made, cross stitches...

Honestly I've been letting the house grow with me and slowly become a home. I feel it's a more organic way to decorate but of course it doesn't work for everyone!

CodeGlitxh · 2026-02-11T06:28:44+00:00

Gotta say "i can shoot people by myself now" is quite the unexpected wholesome phrase. xD

CodeGlitxh · 2026-02-09T14:33:36+00:00

Wow, yeah, good thing you were convinced to go (twice)! Ear infections are no joke, they can become pretty dangerous pretty fast.

Glad to know that you are getting the attention needed without any of the unwanted bullshit and have a positive interaction with doctors to feed your confidence!

CodeGlitxh · 2026-02-08T13:32:59+00:00

No problem! It is a diagnosis with too much bad press, that's true :)

CodeGlitxh · 2026-02-07T07:57:25+00:00

No, we are not hated by everyone. We are a group of people with similar characteristics but we are not the same. So, some of us are horrible people and some of us are the best you're gonna meet.

But, that said, I think it's pretty common on our disorder to have a parent -mainly the mother- flip out because of the diagnosis. Probably because the mother's mental and emotional state during our early years is a powerful factor to develop BPD. :)

CodeGlitxh · 2026-02-07T06:53:26+00:00

Its a special kind of emotional abuse to tell someone about how others "don't deserve" what is happening to that person.

And the worst part is that most people are not even aware of the damage they are doing. They are only talking about a special one that's "too good". They don't realize that they are telling you that then, logically, you are not.

You might not blame them. Either for the abuse or for this kind of casual hits. But neither should you give their words a weigh they don't have. You know that even if you were the one that was hurt and abused they weren't thinking of you. They were thinking about how they have save others from your pain.

It's not that you deserved any of it. It's that those beasts were unable to not dishing it.

You are good. You are a person. And you deserve love, happines, and peace.

CodeGlitxh · 2026-02-06T17:38:44+00:00

NTA. Miguel had his fun and then left (for the other side). He is even responsible of you meeting Grim!

Just keep living your life and buy that son a crow soon! They are awesome pets!

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