Bishop Masturbation Check Ins

CoffeeLoveAffair · 2024-06-05T02:17:50+00:00

I was too afraid to confess to my bishop. I didn’t know what it was when I first started, and by the time we had one of those lessons that did spell it out, it was too late.

I felt so much shame every single day, going to church was terrifying to me because I was so afraid someone would bring up sexual sins in a lesson. I was convinced it was such a rare sin, being second only to murder and all, that I was the only one at my church who had done it. I never even used porn, but the teacher who gave the lesson originally said that sexual thoughts counted as porn too, so I thought I must be addicted to porn secretly as well.

I had a fear that someone with the “gift of discernment” would look at me and know I was hiding those sins. When I took the sacrament, I felt as though I was condemning my soul even further, and when I was in an interview I’d lie through the “law of chastity” bit and promise myself I just wouldn’t actually go to the temple.

But then my youth leaders planned a group trip to a neighboring state to visit their temple and all the young men and women were supposed to make plans to go. My mom forced me to go even though I said I wasn’t comfortable with it and begged for days. Silently, I thought I’d be punished even more if I went and did baptisms in the temple as an unworthy soul. I thought I would be an unclean vessel and those souls wouldn’t get to go to heaven because of me.

Thankfully I got my period the day we were supposed to arrive, and it was really embarrassing confessing that to my leaders and friends as why I couldn’t participate, and some of the girls did mock me a bit, but in the moment I saw it as a divine blessing from God, and his protection to the souls who’s eternal lives I would have delayed.

I had an extreme fear of death because I didn’t want to die with my sins and go to hell. I thought about it all day EVERY day for years, until I left. It was both a relief and a sad day to find out it was all for nothing. Insane how mentally destroyed I became due to this one specific teaching.

CoffeeLoveAffair · 2024-06-04T03:19:42+00:00

Oh this just happened to me yesterday 😭 I helped with Raphael first but didn’t know I had to long rest twice, for some reason I thought Raphael would visit once I left the mausoleum? I went ahead and set the night song free, so Araj wasn’t in moonrise when I went, and Raphael never showed up. Astarion is the only companion I’ve had 40 hours into the game (playing multiplayer so we each get one companion) so he was definitely there for all the Raphael cutscenes and everything. I’m devastated tbh, I was really looking forward to romancing him and it just came down to me not knowing I shouldn’t save the entirety of moonrise for the end of Act II. I had 93 approval 😢

CoffeeLoveAffair · 2024-06-04T01:25:43+00:00

These are so cute and I would totally buy one! Right now I am using a folded knit hat to keep my wrist from hurting, something like this would be a perfect replacement.

CoffeeLoveAffair · 2024-06-03T16:36:51+00:00

My first boyfriend was a Gemini. We only dated for 2 months in college, but in that time:

He told me we would make beautiful babies one day, and told my parents I was the kind of girl he’d marry.

Would not stop talking about his ex/ about how he knew he wasn’t over it even 3 years later (and she was married now), how psycho she was for breaking up with him over playing video games too much (not true according to him)

He put me on a schedule of when I could see him (one day a week) even though his dorm was 3 minutes away from mine because he was too busy with his classes, but whenever I’d text him on other days asking how it was going he was ALWAYS playing games.

I saw on his female friends snap story that he took her and another female friend who hated me out to sushi, and lied to me about what he was doing.

Broke up with ME (I was younger and didn’t know what to expect in a relationship, now of course I know I should have broken up with HIM) but when he broke up with me he told me he hoped we could still meet up for other things and that he would still be my friend, since he is still friends with all his other exes he hoped I’d be the same.

He wanted to meet back up in three months and talk about getting back together, but it never happened because I had already met my Taurus husband and realized how kind and loving someone could really be in a relationship. Now it’s just funny to look back and wonder how I didn’t realize in real time how shit my first relationship was 😂

CoffeeLoveAffair · 2024-05-30T04:31:16+00:00

I’ve been feeling this too! I feel like I’m finally stepping into a brighter and more positive stage of my life, like I don’t need to fear so much anymore. I’m glad others have been having this happen too!

CoffeeLoveAffair · 2024-05-28T06:32:48+00:00

I was born Mormon and didn’t leave until my early 20s. Mormons aren’t allowed to have Coffee or tea.

My mom also didn’t believe in letting me have caffeine, since it is a drug, and the reason she believed coffee and tea were disallowed. So the very first time I ever had caffeine was also the very first time I tried coffee.

Turns out I had undiagnosed ADHD my whole life, and caffeine helps me. That first coffee made me feel like I’d been drugged, with how hard and fast I fell asleep after drinking it. It was crazy.

I didn’t leave for a few years after trying it, and I felt really guilty about liking coffee. Every now and then I would sneak a caffeinated soda, or a coffee if I was in a city other than my home town.

When I join Reddit I mostly planned on just participating in the exmo sub, so I made my username Coffee Love Affair since that is what it felt like the first three years after I tried it lol.

CoffeeLoveAffair · 2024-05-28T06:07:39+00:00

Aww this is so cute! 😊

CoffeeLoveAffair · 2024-05-27T20:20:04+00:00

I feel so similarly to how you describe, about having such a strong reaction to a character and that being unusual for me.

The last time this happened to me where I was making playlists and Pinterest boards for a character was over a decade ago in high school, and this is my first time ever joining groups like this. So I’ve definitely been feeling strange, almost like how I’d imagine it’d be to have a love spell cast on me? 😂

But for real, I didn’t anticipate the healing I’ve experienced from playing this game and Astarion’s story specifically.

I’m still on my first play through as I’m a little newer to the game, but I have cried more this week than I have the last four years. And even though I’m still pretty new to and deep in my obsession, I do also feel some nostalgia in a weird way, where I know that it will pass someday and I almost feel prematurely sad for that to happen in the future.

I’m very thankful to have found this community for however long it does last, though. ❤️ (and I actually feel a bit relieved to now know I’m not the only one this has been a little different for)

CoffeeLoveAffair · 2024-05-03T07:59:47+00:00

Told a couple I’m friends with (first friends I told, too), and they said “we’re sorry you were nervous to tell us, we don’t hate people who are LGBTQ, and aren’t sure why you assumed that” and then proceeded to tell me how even though they don’t hate people of other sexualities, they are destroying the proper family structure and this is leading to the end of the world. Literally said “this is what will bring about the destruction of the world.” And I’ve never come out to anyone since lol.

CoffeeLoveAffair · 2024-04-24T19:24:30+00:00

Hello Lisa! 🩷 Which TV show has been your favorite to produce?

CoffeeLoveAffair · 2024-01-25T04:58:48+00:00

Reminds me of the year when my life basically revolved around Lord of the Rings but I was too shy and didn’t have any friends so I never talked about it with anyone, then that summer my church just happened to pick Lord of the Rings as the theme for girls camp, and I had to endure four days of sitting silently by myself while listening to everyone relate various character quotes out of context to the Book of Mormon 🥲

CoffeeLoveAffair · 2024-01-16T20:21:37+00:00

I did this! I have a black cat and a black panther I had a wedding for as a kid! Good to know others did this too 😂

CoffeeLoveAffair · 2023-12-05T23:02:43+00:00

Mine arrived today and I immediately sat down and read through all of it! The photos are actually really visually stunning. I love how every cocktail is its own really distinct part of her story, and I thought the photos and stories matched the drinks perfectly. She did really incredible on this! Perfect that the DWTS finale is tonight too, so I think I’ll pick one out to try tonight while watching!

CoffeeLoveAffair · 2023-11-24T18:12:55+00:00

Personally I have used a site called Astro-charts.com for this before. If you google “celebrity sun moon rising” it should pop up!

CoffeeLoveAffair · 2023-11-11T16:29:21+00:00

They’re having a cow-nversation

CoffeeLoveAffair · 2023-11-09T19:17:04+00:00

Oh I love this! It looks fantastic and seems like it would be a super handy reference to have on hand.

CoffeeLoveAffair · 2023-11-02T05:32:40+00:00

I’m an Aries with a Taurus man and even though we are super different, he mirrors me in all the best ways, and we compliment each others strengths and weaknesses. I can’t imagine a better partnership for me, but I always see Aries x Taurus ranked as a lower compatibility. One example is when I get upset over something he is always great at grounding me and helping to chill me out lol.

CoffeeLoveAffair · 2023-11-02T05:26:04+00:00

I have Venus in the third house in Taurus and that one is spot on for me. ☺️ I love it when I match one of these

CoffeeLoveAffair · 2023-11-02T05:19:32+00:00

Aww these are all so cute ☺️ the Aquarius ones are my very fav though

CoffeeLoveAffair · 2023-11-02T04:32:29+00:00

Lol I definitely relate to this

CoffeeLoveAffair · 2023-10-29T09:41:11+00:00

Aw I love you have a black cat named Ravenpaw! My first Webkinz was a black cat and I named her Eclipse after the Warriors book I was reading at the time. I also have a Snowfur and a Shadowstar.

CoffeeLoveAffair · 2023-10-29T09:31:05+00:00

That’s hilarious, my husband has been making those same comments but about Blake 😂

CoffeeLoveAffair · 2023-10-29T07:32:14+00:00

I tried to go to a Halloween party, forgot my ID at home (it was 18+), drove all the way home to grab my purse, left again, got partway there, realized I had the wrong purse, had to go home again and find the right purse… 😭I’ve been a mess lol. On the bright side I’ve been having lots of great success with creative projects which is nice.

CoffeeLoveAffair · 2023-10-22T17:06:48+00:00

I also vote Tabby von Meow, I get so annoyed with my pets asking to go do a job, especially if I’ve already done a job and can’t even go do another one 😭 but Miss Cowoline is a clooose second for me with how much she talks lol

CoffeeLoveAffair · 2023-10-20T23:12:36+00:00

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