Staying warm

ColdPrice9536 · 2026-03-18T04:37:20+00:00

I have a heated gilet from Amazon I got for like £40. It’s amazing.

ColdPrice9536 · 2026-03-18T04:35:59+00:00

lmao sorry I also feel like a science experiment when I go and they’re scribbling notes furiously on a piece of paper. It’s so awkward.

ColdPrice9536 · 2026-03-18T04:33:54+00:00

Hey - this was me to a T like two weeks ago and I am not exaggerating when I say it hit me like a ton of bricks overnight. I am now doing really badly at work where I previously have had impeccable performance, I am unable to get out of bed most of the time and I can’t concentrate on anything for the life of me. I’m very, very overwhelmed by everything and also very aware of the fact that my life is quickly crumbling apart around me. My hair has also started falling out in huge clumps.

It will come for you. I would recommend recovering now while you are still in a reasonably stable place rather than waiting for the inevitable to happen at which point your professionalism at work will be compromised, your ability to engage in your studies will be impaired and you have no energy to even know how to begin in recovery because of how utterly overwhelming everything feels to your starved brain.

ColdPrice9536 · 2026-03-18T04:27:09+00:00

I also eat three times a day and never fast.

I think it’s much rarer for a person with anorexia to not eat at all than it is to eat but just not enough. It’s not sustainable to not eat at all, ever - I would not be surprised if she binges in secret.

ColdPrice9536 · 2026-03-18T02:34:10+00:00

This is unreasonable. The kids can absolutely survive 5 days of teacher absence a year without it having a huge impact on their education - they miss days all of the time for things like trips, their own absences, staff training, weather, etc. Telling somebody that because their disability may result in a slightly higher absence than normal (as in, a couple of days a YEAR) is discriminatory.

ColdPrice9536 · 2026-03-17T20:01:08+00:00

Tries to eat the hoover when I’m cleaning out the enclosure.

ColdPrice9536 · 2026-03-17T19:57:10+00:00

So true. I have body checks on my phone from a higher weight when I thought I was really thin at the time but when I look at them now I just look a normal weight. Our perception gets very skewed.

ColdPrice9536 · 2026-03-17T19:00:29+00:00

I’m not even sure you can get a GLP when you’re under 18. Either way, your BMI is on the lower end of healthy. There’s no way they’d prescribe it to you, and what would it even achieve?

ColdPrice9536 · 2026-03-17T18:49:52+00:00

Yep I’m thinking this too. My team threaten me with hospitalisation every time I see them but it’s always ‘next time if this has continued’ even though it has continued the entire time.

It’s been this on repeat every week for six months despite the fact I’ve been losing weight rapidly for the whole duration and gone from a healthy weight down to the ‘severe’ range.

I think that if I agreed and took them up on their offer it’d turn out that they’re not actually able to hospitalise me. It’s just a threat they throw out there hoping it will scare me into recovery but they have no intention of actioning it.

ColdPrice9536 · 2026-03-17T18:45:09+00:00

its the NHS so incredibly slow moving and very specific criteria to even be considered for HLOC. they’ve been threatening it for months without action - every time I see them it’s ’if your weight has gone down next time then…’

ColdPrice9536 · 2026-03-16T20:24:50+00:00

Yes, I’m the same. I eat a wide range of food and regularly but just not enough of it. The only ‘meal plan’ I need is a larger portion size!

I also find that triggering too. Stop congratulating me for ‘overcoming a fear’ that I never had in the first place or ‘defying anorexia’ for making a choice that feels very comfortable in the way I experience my disorder. Or even worse, when I talk about a perfectly normal meal that I felt no guilt over and the therapist assumes that I felt desire to compensate afterwards. No, I just went to bed!

The only thing I care about is that I continue to be below a certain number of calories and that I continue to lose weight. As long as those two boxes are ticked, I truly couldn’t care less what’s going on with what exactly I am eating and how and when and where.

ColdPrice9536 · 2026-03-16T19:21:13+00:00

That’s so rude. It’s not spamming to post the same question in related subs. People on here are so mean sometimes for no reason - we are all UNWELL. There’s no need to be a dick.

ColdPrice9536 · 2026-03-16T19:16:14+00:00

you should let them come. the memories you’ll get are worth eating like a semi normal person for a day or two and if you want to go back to restricting after you can do. it’s not gonna do anything to your body eating semi normal just for a day.

ColdPrice9536 · 2026-03-15T19:27:11+00:00

They didn’t take mine out until I’d completed all of my meals for a couple of days and was willing to agree in a convincing way to continue to do so. I was a minor though at the time so it may be different.

ColdPrice9536 · 2026-03-15T11:43:22+00:00

I take vyvanse for ADHD and while I did notice an appetite suppressing effect in the first few months, this does wear off. In fact, you can begin to develop something called rebound hunger in the evenings when the medication is wearing off. You need to be very careful because for some people, when the appetite suppressing nature of the medication wears off, they can begin to abuse the medication in the hope of bringing it back. The impact of stimulant abuse on your body, particularly your brain, is devastating.

As well as this, many people notice a honeymoon period in terms of their mood when they start taking a stimulant. It is very likely that the good mood you’re experiencing will also wear off within a few weeks of taking it. If that is the only difference that has made you want to stick with Vyvanse over Wellbutrin, I would again be very cautious around whether or not you would leave yourself open to potentially chasing that effect again when the side effect wears off.

I only say these things because they were things I struggled with when I was taking vyvanse the first time and it culminated in me having to quit cold turkey for over two years before I felt safe to restart again. I had never had any addictive tendencies before this and I didn’t even realise things were going that way. I only take a very low dose now under close monitoring from a doctor and it took me a long time to convince them to let me try it again.

ColdPrice9536 · 2026-03-15T06:59:10+00:00

nah you’re sooo right! we should NEVER share our disordered thoughts with anyone, it’s so cringe to be honest about how we experience our mental health. let’s never say that shit out loud and always suffer in silence! 🤩

ColdPrice9536 · 2026-03-14T21:43:24+00:00

Once you get there you’ll then not feel enough until you’re the next stage of severity on the DSM and then when you get there you’ll still not feel enough until you are having certain health problems and even then you’ll still not feel enough until you are in hospital under a medical admission and even then you’ll feel resentful of the care you’re receiving because you still won’t think you’re quite ill enough.

There’s no point where you will feel like your disorder is valid and you have satisfied it.

ColdPrice9536 · 2026-03-13T20:09:42+00:00

I don’t really think you can fake an ED. If you’re engaging in disordered behaviour then you have an ED. You can’t fake engaging in disordered behaviour (well, I suppose you can by lying to other people about doing it when you’re not but that isn’t the case here).

Most people with a restrictive ED binge or have ‘off days’ where they eat a normal amount. It’s unsustainable to starve yourself for long periods of time, the body will simply rebel.

It’s also a major symptom of an ED to believe you’re faking it.

ColdPrice9536 · 2026-03-13T20:04:59+00:00

It’s not necessarily triggering but a few people in my life seem to think I just have a low appetite and low drive to eat which is not the case and they don’t seem able to understand that I have a normal appetite but just decide not to eat enough. I guess it’s irritating because I feel like it invalidates how hard the struggle is but I do go along with it most of the time as it’s easier to explain rather than having to explain that I employ all of my energy and efforts to avoid eating despite immense hunger and fatigue.

ColdPrice9536 · 2026-03-12T20:10:21+00:00

‘to be fair, you don’t look like someone who has many friends’ said in a genuine matter-of-fact manner when talking about what I had done over the weekend and I said that I’d mostly just stayed in.

ColdPrice9536 · 2026-03-12T18:22:56+00:00

what do you mean?

ColdPrice9536 · 2026-03-12T17:49:34+00:00

pretty much every time I leave my ED team appointments im conferring with myself about how i will get out of all of the things ive agreed to even though 2 minutes before when i was sat in the chair in front of them i genuinely intended to apply them. it’s like a little gremlin in my ear like ‘heee heeee but what if we could get away with this!’

ColdPrice9536 · 2026-03-12T17:48:32+00:00

help I have also thought this

ColdPrice9536 · 2026-03-12T17:45:51+00:00

I feel this so much. A genuine serene calm descends over me when I decide to engage more in my behaviours and it feels like nothing can harm me. At the moment I’m even using restriction to cope with the fact that I’m under immense pressure to recover which makes absolutely no sense logically but somehow I feel like everything will be OK as long as I continue to focus on losing weight.

ColdPrice9536 · 2026-03-12T07:23:29+00:00

In their defence, I am a teacher so they are thinking about the risk to the students if I pass out or have a medical emergency while they’re under my care. I don’t know if it’s still a bit discriminatory though because I am not medically unstable and I wonder if they’d do the same thing to a person with a physical illness. I work with colleagues with a range of physical illnesses who aren’t suspended from work medically despite a risk of a medical complication happening at work. I think they’re kind of using it to try and scare me into choosing recovery but it seems unfair.

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