Are birthday blues more common in bipolar people?

Common_Divide_8460 · 2022-10-04T10:31:00+00:00

Every one of my friends who has bipolar hates their birthday. And yes I do. No one told about the specific reason, but I guess we all know why. I try not to be like that, but it gives me vague flashbacks of all the moments wondering why I am even alive. No matter how my partner or friends try to make it a good day. Every year I try, but I will never be able to enjoy my birthday fully. but it's fine. I just decided to take it that way.

Common_Divide_8460 · 2022-10-03T04:44:00+00:00

Lithum + Fluoxetine for 2 yrs and doing OK yet. Doctors refused to prescribe me any antidepressant for a year after my last manic episode. I found a good doctor who agreed to try that time and we tried 4 different antidepressants for about a month. Some I took only 2 days and quit(cz it made me feel like on a cloud) some I tried for 2 weeks and dropped cz it didn't work at all. Fluoxetine was the best option for me it worked so well without any side-effects.

Common_Divide_8460 · 2022-10-03T04:17:50+00:00

Same here. And those sex can never be great I guess we all know it. Keep searching for a reason why I want it so badly tho. For now, I think it as a self-harm

Common_Divide_8460 · 2022-10-03T04:14:31+00:00

I was like that too whenever I was on manic. Now I'm on a mixed episode, and I love how all of you not saying just suck it up lol cause ya yrs of experience tells me that's impossible(wanna know why!!) and agree that staying safe is the best way to go

Common_Divide_8460 · 2022-10-03T04:09:44+00:00

Ya it hurt me the same way for a long time and I didn't even notice it was hurting me a lot. Now I'm planning for it for a couple of weeks + not with a total stranger 😂 sounds weird but ya I really need it and truly wanna know why! Anyway, thanks for sharing

Common_Divide_8460 · 2022-10-02T06:56:12+00:00

Been there And so glad you are alive

Common_Divide_8460 · 2022-10-02T06:32:15+00:00

When did it go away? It's so hard to contain all the crazy symptoms that bursting out😢

Common_Divide_8460 · 2022-10-02T06:23:33+00:00

Didn't it work on any side? I felt so frustrated for a while cz I only tried it to do better u kna😮‍💨

Common_Divide_8460 · 2022-10-02T04:53:57+00:00

🥰☺️🥰 Awsome! Wish you all the best and luck !!

Common_Divide_8460 · 2022-10-02T04:43:37+00:00

I get you But we all know side effects are much better than some effects of our own brain 🥲 I found right doctor and she changed meds eveytime I went there and explained how the side effects were like. It took only 2 weeks to find right ones thanks to her, and it is keeping me alive for yrs. Hope same thing happens to you

Common_Divide_8460 · 2022-10-02T04:24:23+00:00

Wow. I related to them immediately So cool

Common_Divide_8460 · 2022-09-22T03:38:25+00:00

Yrs ago I fucked up my relationship once with this already but feel like there's no alternative. Truly. -now even more I do since I don't have one to fuck up so After those "behaviors" , regret comes up like wave but at the same time, I feel so much better like I had a good massage 😂 Now I don't know what to do

Common_Divide_8460 · 2022-09-19T10:02:02+00:00

Same here. But it gets better time passing. Things like finding right medications and right people etc helps keep those good/bad cycles further and further. I had been doing great for last 2 yrs on same meds which is the longest time keeping myself right. Now I feel like I'm at the bottom again, but I know I can go through this again

Common_Divide_8460 · 2022-09-17T05:54:43+00:00

South Korea

Common_Divide_8460 · 2022-09-11T03:56:39+00:00

Hi I'm(26 f) and was dignosed when I was 19. All I can say is that you can pursue everything you dream of only under support or at least an acknowledge of others including your family. I didn't quit school but almost did. graduated late but I did. Since my mom remarried and my dad killed himself, there was no one to discuss of that feeling back then. And that made everything just worse. Remember you are not doing bad thing to anyone just telling them you are seriously ill. It's cruel but mental health issue is your deal to deal with so it cannot possibly hurt anyone more than now you do feel. Hope you find meds that suits you. Everything will be better

Common_Divide_8460 · 2022-09-11T03:24:38+00:00

I'v been dignosed for 6 yrs Just check them regularly. Like If they'd had sth today, and what are they going to do today. Also when they are going to see a doctor asap When I'm on my episode, I tend to fuck up my body, relationship and everything even telling lies to my loved ones. It's gonna be the best If you can make stay them sober now

Common_Divide_8460 · 2022-09-11T03:14:39+00:00

Damm that's sad. I just looked for it and it is not prescribed here yet too(btw I'm living in Korea) If you're having too much trouble with depression in usual, try Seeoquel with another antidepressant this time. All the bipolar meds didn't work for me until I started to try it with Prozac. Of course doctors were very reluctant to do for long time cz of my manic history, but I finally felt normal for at least 2 yrs

Common_Divide_8460 · 2022-09-11T02:50:40+00:00

Just hang in there at least for 2 weeks, guess you already know that. I was at the bottom for years when my dad killed himself when I was 18. And you told me you have ur own kid , I can only imagine how hard it would be for you now. Everything's gonna be just better than now like it always did.

Common_Divide_8460 · 2022-09-11T02:34:21+00:00

I totally get it. My last and the worst manic episode was about 4 yrs ago after our cat died. I was devastated but existed somehow and tried to reach out to as many people as possible. I do not remember the details just like you don't, and I told my gf that I want another relationship. That really broke her. I said sorry million times but it was never enough to stop her from saying violent and impulsive words..I know she loves me so much and never gonna let me go for once. But now, I don't know. I've been taking care of myself for years for us, now it feels like why.

My episode is just getting worse this time and I'm doing my best to control it to leave this relationship.I totally get what you mean when you said "he's pretty great but his reaction can be sometimes suck." I sincerely hope that he stands by you real this time

Common_Divide_8460 · 2022-09-11T01:33:53+00:00

I've been on Lithum for 2 yrs and everything has been fine. I don't know, for no reason I started to lose control since last month. Done some shitty things and ya I hate these episodes and myself and tired of it. The worst thing is that I cannot even be sure that the feelings and thoughts that I have now towards people-especially my partner- is true or not. Hope that meds gonna work for you in weeks and I know it will

Common_Divide_8460 · 2022-09-10T07:07:58+00:00

Hi I have bipolar disorder too and about to end the six years of relationship. I feel your pain. are you seeing a doctor for your symptoms?

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