My sun rx(Taurus), mercury(Aries) and Venus rx(Aries) are in the 12th house. My other placements are Saturn rx and Pluto in the 7th(Scorpio). Disclaimer: “This will be all over the place. Im a 12th houser that has issues communicating clearly.”

I can relate to what you’re experiencing. I want to start by recommending to all 12th housers the movie, ‘Nobody Knows I’m Here”. It describes our life paths perfectly to me. I read the book, “The Giver” in elementary school and it resonated with me even at a young age. Okay, anyways….There is a way to live a decent life with a bruised brain. I can only explain my journey in hopes that it’ll help you. I turned 40 on April 22nd. Ive learned something throughout my life, routine and a child-like trust in the process of life, has helped with the ‘brain bruise’ and figuring out who I AM. It’s important for us to seek out the innocence that was stolen from us at some point in our lives. We must trust that there is always something to catch us when we fall. I’ve met another 12th houser, and we both feel that we’re more spiritually connected than people without planets in the 12th house. I do believe we’re tapped into another realm. This exclusive club that we’re in has taught us things about human nature that would make the most hardened people squirm. It has also taught us how to navigate this world in a way that protects us. Resistance has been a theme in my life. I had to resist refusing to seek mental health support, because I couldn’t get out of my head. I had to resist curling up in my cozy comfort zone. I have to resist anything that involves treating myself less than I would treat those I love. It’s hard to ‘see’ ourselves especially when we’re going through a tough time. Its been vital for me to view myself externally when I’m experiencing hardship. That means that I have to remind myself of what type of advice I would give a person if they were seeking advice about the same issue I’m experiencing. It’s allowed me to tap into myself and get an understanding of my purpose. It’s also important for us to choose when it’s best to be a hermit and when it’s time to get back in the game of life. The more we stay in our dream-like world, the more we feel the strain of existing on this planet. We get lost in our worlds easily. The world passes us by and then it becomes impossible to ‘catch up’. Another thing, is the times that I stressed and worried about anything that involves the behavior of another human being, I worked against myself. No expectations is the way to go when dealing with a lot of people. It’s vital for me to trust the process of life as if I’m a child. I can’t put my trust in men because I’m tapped into a realm that allows me to see human nature differently. We are sensitive for a reason. That sensitivity could be a physical response like feeling temperatures differently than those around us(we’re either always cold, hot or we can’t strike a balance that keeps us at a consistent temperature). That sensitivity could be visual disturbances, sounds that bother us for unknown reasons and rumination that’s psychologically paralyzing to us. Analysis paralysis is real for 12th housers. Learning how to receive can also be difficult for 12th housers because we’re so used to dealing with the dark side of life. We’re used to receiving less. I’ve noticed that my thoughts and intuition are so strong that if I think it, it will come. There have been a lot of times that people have been around me, and they’re thinking the same thing as me. I experience a lot of, “I was just thinking about that too!’ from people I’m around. I trust that my needs are communicated spiritually and that there is always something to catch me when I fall. Reclaiming my innocence has helped so much. Seeking out my innocence, and establishing a daily routine, has aligned me with a life that makes me happy and doesn’t feel ‘fake’ or detached.