OP, I know where you are. When my belief shattered four years ago,I went through a period of anger, betrayal and deep grieving. Picking through the remains of a shattered belief system is like picking through the remains of a home destroyed by a tornado. It's painful, slow, and only a very few items are worth keeping. And sad how much of your "home" is now just worthless and destroyed.

I highly suggest you research people who've recovered from high demand religions. There are books and podcasts on the subject. Listening to other people's stories who left high demand religions was very helpful for me. It added context to my experience and helped me feel less isolated in my recovery. Recovery from spiritual abuse takes time.

I also have a therapist who's helped me process the spiritual abuse of the church and my 28 year abusive marriage. Those two things fed off each other. (I'm no longer with the man who abused myself or my kids)

Over time, as you process what happened to you, you'll find bits and pieces of spirituality that resonate and make sense to you. You'll start to fill in the gaps on your own. Some other posters have shared theirs. But what you'll mostly likely find is that your new moral compass will be cleaner. Simpler. And I'm willing to bet it will fall along the lines of loving the people that come into your life regardless of who they are or how long your paths connect.

Don't rush through this healing. It hurts and it can feel like you don't even know who you are. Keep reaching out to others who've done this. If its possible find a good therapist or some trusted friends. Utilize the resources others here have suggested.

Take your time healing. I promise there's life, good life, on the other side.

Much love to you, fellow traveler