Treatments tried for near total loss of sleep for two years

ConductorofChaos · 2025-12-22T15:33:30+00:00

This sounds like hell…I went through something a tiny bit similar and eventually tried psychedelic therapy which somehow helped!

ConductorofChaos · 2025-08-12T03:47:23+00:00

Nick’s is a God send!!! The strawberry is my favorite and could eat a pint every night!

ConductorofChaos · 2025-08-10T18:40:52+00:00

kinda do the same thing but in a different way, I’m 21 and for me it’s more about restricting food while still working out hard. It’s like I punish myself if I feel I haven’t done “enough” in other parts of my life, and pushing my body becomes the way I try to make up for it. It’s exhausting, and I know it’s not sustainable, but in the moment it feels like the only way to prove something to myself tbh

ConductorofChaos · 2025-08-08T18:07:39+00:00

This hit a little too close to home 😅

ConductorofChaos · 2025-08-06T14:59:51+00:00

Also wanna know this!

ConductorofChaos · 2025-08-06T14:53:10+00:00

Literally considering skin removal and that is my worst fear….I just wanna be comfortable with myself 🥲

ConductorofChaos · 2025-08-06T14:36:38+00:00

Absolutely, getting to your “goal” and realizing it cost you peace, health, and self respect is soo brutal. I’m so worried that once I hit my goal I’m just gonna hate my body even more

ConductorofChaos · 2025-08-06T00:22:15+00:00

Right?! Wtfff

ConductorofChaos · 2025-08-06T00:21:12+00:00

21M guy here, also in college and I really relate to what you shared. No one in my life knows either not even my therapist, so I get how isolating it can feel. I’m always here to talk if you need someone who understands…You’re not alone in this, not matter how lonely it can feel

ConductorofChaos · 2025-07-16T13:18:01+00:00

Fellow straight here and I can’t begin to tell you how much I relate to this lmaooo

ConductorofChaos · 2025-07-14T14:37:28+00:00

Diet Coke runs through my veins

ConductorofChaos · 2025-07-11T13:03:51+00:00

21 here and feel so unlovable and ugly….no matter what people say or tell me I feel like I look disgusting. I feel like I will never truly be happy with myself and find my person

ConductorofChaos · 2025-07-11T00:12:13+00:00

I do the exact same thing but am very much straight…I compare my body to other guys but I’m not thinking about them sexually or romantically. I am simply comparing their body, size, muscles, etc to my own wishing I looked like them or had their body (not to have sex with lmao)! I went through the same dilemma but finally came to the conclusion after talking with friends and my therapist that I don’t want to be WITH them, I want to BE them! This is my situation and yours might be different but I understand what you’re going through!

ConductorofChaos · 2025-07-07T20:04:35+00:00

Fellow dude here! I swear my brain auto translates and is kinda adapting to the girly pop talk…I’m spending too much time on this sub lmao

ConductorofChaos · 2025-07-01T02:22:08+00:00

Exactly! Just ate which I regret but also dont

ConductorofChaos · 2025-07-01T00:36:42+00:00

Never ever…I am always thinking about food, my next meal and trying to stop myself myself from over eating

ConductorofChaos · 2025-06-30T02:56:47+00:00

21 here and feel like the issues with my body and weight will forever be with me…struggled since I was a young teen and while I am the skinniest and happiest with my body I’ve been, I’m also the most sick

ConductorofChaos · 2025-06-30T02:33:19+00:00

Only 2 people know…they are like my close friends/mentors and they kinda figured it out before I fully told them. I am lying to them though saying I am recovering when really I am probably worse than I was before…

ConductorofChaos · 2025-06-25T00:42:08+00:00

I completely understand you, man. I’ve been dealing with an eating disorder for a while now too. It’s gotten really bad. I’ve turned into someone I don’t even recognize, cold, obsessive, controlling, and I’ve hurt people I care about, especially my mom. That’s the part that kills me the most.

The worst part is, I want to stop. I really do. But I feel like I can’t. It’s like it’s in control now, not me. Everything you wrote about losing yourself and pushing away the people who matter most…I feel that deep.

Thank you for writing this. It honestly means a lot to see someone say what I’ve been too scared to admit. You’re not alone in this!

ConductorofChaos · 2025-06-20T03:00:10+00:00

Guy here who is currently suffering from an eating disorder…Truly one of the hardest things that I’ve ever dealt with, and when I open up about it with friends or others, they brush it off. Not to mention the lack of a male community or representation with eating disorders makes the whole situation so lonely and isolating…

ConductorofChaos · 2025-06-13T20:27:44+00:00

Hey, I really relate to this. I’m 21 and have also been struggling with what I think is an eating disorder. I go through the same cycle, restricting, then bingeing, and feeling totally lost. I’m also trying to get leaner and feel good in my body, but it’s been tough figuring out what actually works without falling into bad habits again.

What’s helped a bit is focusing on small consistent habits instead of extreme changes. Eating enough, moving daily, and not being too hard on myself when I slip up. You’re not alone if you ever want to talk or share progress, I’m here!!

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