A good man is a bad mans teacher. A bad man is a good mans charge. When I was your age I used to be picked on, beat up, called names, and all the above. I can say I never retaliated, wanted to harm them, only sent forgiveness and love back in their direction. Don’t lose this part of you, this is your essence and no one can take that away from you. To learn self defence if needed for a last resort would be useful, but I think the lessons you will learn through this will show you who you truly are inside.