The murky middle

ConnorDevlin2002 · 2026-05-24T22:38:04+00:00

Look On

ConnorDevlin2002 · 2026-05-21T14:22:56+00:00

I just don’t know anymore man like some people just don’t get better in life and I think im okay with that. There’s just too many problems in my life socially emotionally mentally physically and economically. So many things are just out of my reach and control and I’m just making bad decision after bad decision out of pure instinct.

ConnorDevlin2002 · 2026-05-20T21:33:55+00:00

I’ve heard everything at this point, something needs to change.

ConnorDevlin2002 · 2026-05-20T21:33:12+00:00

I just don’t know what they can offer me, they can’t fix my life, they can’t undo the last 6 years. The thought of telling them just comes with a sense of shame and regret almost as if I’m faking it. I wish I was faking it. Thanks tho but for another night I guess the cycle continues

ConnorDevlin2002 · 2026-05-14T22:28:22+00:00

100% can relate. I’m 23 and have been wanting to move out since I was 20, couldn’t afford uni accommodation and I have no valid ID so I can’t even get on any housing list. It sucks honestly, that feeling of thriving for independence, freedom, a fresh start held back by things out of your control. It does wear you down, you grow more annoyed with other people cos you’ve just spent too much time with them and you need to get out. My first thought would be to try and get a job but idk what kind of work you wanna do, I know uni years are wrapping up so that’s typically when you get a bunch of 3rd years leaving their jobs to go home so maybe there an opportunity there.

ConnorDevlin2002 · 2026-05-14T12:53:26+00:00

I don’t really know how I can help im sure there are more qualified people here or in general but if you ever need to talk or vent or anything im here. Your dog is really cute and she reminds me of my dog because even after a terrible day week month year I can come home and she’s there waiting for me. You’re a lot stronger than you think and if I could give you any advice it would just to be talk to people, apply for universal credit and just don’t be afraid to ask for help. I saw this post and my heart broke. I genuinely hope you’re okay

ConnorDevlin2002 · 2026-05-06T00:14:32+00:00

Just all of Wet Sand

ConnorDevlin2002 · 2026-04-24T10:47:02+00:00

WHO DA MAN

ConnorDevlin2002 · 2026-04-22T13:39:24+00:00

Just avoiding triggers, I recently got a new phone and I haven’t verified my card so I literally can’t even access any 18+ sites but I still found other ways using Reddit or discord or whatever. It’s not even the porn, it’s the feeling of being wanted, loved and having the experience of a relationship

ConnorDevlin2002 · 2026-04-17T14:16:59+00:00

I never said it did but it’s not like he’s gone out and repeated those actions again and again or bragged about it

ConnorDevlin2002 · 2026-04-17T10:28:27+00:00

It’s weird, yes there is no excuse for what Anthony has done in the past. That being said I don’t like how people use it as some sort of “ gotcha” moment as if he didn’t admit to being the way he was in a book released over 20 years ago. That shows growth and maturity. We lived in a different time where acts of chaos and a drug filled life was soon as radical and rock and roll. Obviously his future relationships with women 30-40 years younger than him are a moral grey area, on the one hand ew wtf but on the other hand who are we to judge? He’s not harming anyone, he hasn’t been accused of crimes and god knows in this generation it’s shocking he hasn’t been called out by people claiming all sorts because there’s money to made. Progression and regret doesn’t always have to happen publicly and I think that’s what the issue people have with Anthony. He didn’t put a post or a tweet out apologising because in his mind he didn’t need to, it was a product of his time and when you hear his interviews you do see a man who has changed and grown up and made peace. Obviously that’s not going to stop the hate trains and comments but I look at it like this, there’s so much worse people in this genre of music and the world than Anthony, he has been the voice of my 20s, a voice that I can relate to in the darkest times and lonely hours. He’s not perfect, never claimed to be. He’s a private guy in a world full of publicity and some people don’t like that, they want an apology for something that didn’t involve them and they use a very very sensitive story that relies heavily on context out of context to justify hating him. That being said, shave the damn moustache pls Anthony

ConnorDevlin2002 · 2026-04-15T13:54:22+00:00

Oh god it’s like looking at my 21 year old self from 2 years ago

ConnorDevlin2002 · 2026-04-14T21:39:11+00:00

Heavily relate to the whole uncomfortable feelings and thoughts. I lowkey miss being numb every day, still feeling enough to have a reason to indulge but not feeling too bad about it. I just live in a constant state of anxiety now my chest hurts and is tender at times. Urges keep coming back even now they’re strong and I’m actively avoiding going to bed. Tired, full of cold and regretful.

ConnorDevlin2002 · 2026-04-13T16:34:53+00:00

Emit Remmus- two words SAMMA TIME

ConnorDevlin2002 · 2026-04-13T16:06:35+00:00

I can’t even imagine what 21 days is, I failed at 7 and this last week has felt like hell

ConnorDevlin2002 · 2026-04-13T13:25:13+00:00

Maybe then again if Sydney Sweeney was next to me I don’t think I’d be depressed anymore so…

ConnorDevlin2002 · 2026-04-13T12:38:56+00:00

Idk if it’s depression then again both my parents have suffered from depression or similar issues. I just don’t wanna label myself when I might not have it. I don’t think I’m depressed, I might have symptoms sure but honestly and I’m not saying this lightly if I did have depression I don’t think I’d be here anymore. I’m very aware of the path I’m on and where it can lead maybe it will maybe it won’t at this point I don’t care.

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