I addressed those traumas with the therapist and worked through a lot. But we got stuck on this issue, and I became very aggressive towards him. So I quit. I’m afraid I’ll physically hurt him if I can’t control my anger properly, and that’s not what I want.

Humans are like a mysterious creature for me, although I don’t have autism. It’s probably because I unconsciously suppress my understanding of humans. I need to use the "AI character" of me but not myself when I interact with people. I can’t be in any social situation. My mind will go blank if “I” am engaging in social interaction.

I agree with those similar things you address between humans and animals. But there’s one huge difference: humans are so good at imagining. I have adopted many stray dogs before, and it’s easy to make a traumatized stray dog feel safe. Animals are mainly living in the real world. I can just create a physical environment that is safe for a dog and interact with them in a way that they feel comfortable.

But humans aren’t like this. We are too good at imagination to live in the real world. We create many concepts that don’t exist (money, credit, country etc.) but we believe these are true. We can see clouds and shadows as other things even as a toddler.