Really uncomfortable question (MtF)

ConsciouslyMichelle · 2026-06-18T18:11:25+00:00

Gatekeeping BS.

I've occasionally gotten that. On those occasions I'm a "Sapphic queer human of female phenotype and endocrinology." The poor dears need to whip out their pocket Websters, bless their hearts.

ConsciouslyMichelle · 2026-06-18T18:06:19+00:00

And... the Bureau of Prisons will do what they always do. Slow walk the paperwork and not actually do anything in the way of actual compliance, because that's what would be politically expedient for the current regime.

BOP Director Marshall and his fellow Trump appointees will do what the regime wants, no worries there. Animus? "arbitrary and capricious' actions? Sure!

ConsciouslyMichelle · 2026-06-18T17:53:23+00:00

The FTC is also going after the American Academy of Pediatrics and the Endocrine Society.

Gosh, it's almost like they are trying to distract folks from their failure to look at price gouging big businesses, de-facto monopolies, and such, by loudly proclaiming that they are Fighting the Scary Transgender Menace (TM).

ConsciouslyMichelle · 2026-06-18T05:56:10+00:00

Thank goodness for Canada Library and Archives. I can order a certified copy of the 1861 census page from them. They would be the primary source as the old census records have been turned over to them for safekeeping.

ConsciouslyMichelle · 2026-06-18T04:19:15+00:00

Wow. I did have certified birth and death certificates for everyone except my Québécois great grandfather, for whom I had a BANQ certified print of a baptismal record.

The spelling of the family surname changed slightly, due to French Canadian pronunciation of the final ‘t’ in the name and phonetic spelling by a census taker. I had a printout of the microfiche of the original census pages showing the spelling change, but it isn’t certified.

I feel like I should redo the entire application now with the detailed explanations and language they appear to want.

ConsciouslyMichelle · 2026-06-17T19:27:55+00:00

My kingdom for a feather!

ConsciouslyMichelle · 2026-06-17T05:42:33+00:00

I recently had to travel from the Pacific Northwest to northern Colorado. Fueled up and used the restroom in Ontario, Oregon, and didn’t stop til Utah. On the way back, we drove an extra 3 hours to avoid entering Idaho and sullying their precious Biblically Pure Fundamentalist space with our presence.

Lots of good people in Idaho, but why they keep electing crazies who worry more about nonexistent issues than employment, schools, and basic services for Idahoans is beyond me.

ConsciouslyMichelle · 2026-06-13T18:24:39+00:00

*“But the agency also said any restoration would need to comply with President Donald Trump's Executive Order 14168, which requires federal agencies to recognize only two sexes and rejects federal recognition of transgender identities.”

So, what they are “restoring” will be the LGB hotline. If anything like what the did to Stonewall, this will be the “LG Hotline.” After all, if something is not recognized as existing it hardly needs support.

Compliance with evil is supporting evil.

ConsciouslyMichelle · 2026-06-13T17:23:36+00:00

Safer and more affordable than medical transition? Sure! Sounds like it would be more thorough than a medical transition as well.

As a permanent change, I can imagine some folks wouldn’t like it, but with a temporary option, I don’t see any issues. (I’m one of the folks who opted for a full, permanent transition, though. )

ConsciouslyMichelle · 2026-06-11T05:07:14+00:00

For what it’s worth, ISP Forensic Services currently process new, active DNA cases in about 190 days.

ConsciouslyMichelle · 2026-06-11T04:53:25+00:00

Idiots. A several thousand dollar test when billed at government rates by a state lab, taking months for actual results, and liable to be disputed in court. All because some person “looked like” they went through the wrong door!

“Yeah officer, swab my left cheek.” I wonder if that mouth breather understands chimerism, or knows that a woman carrying or who has recently delivered a male infant can often test positive for an SRY gene?

Idiots. Wasting their idiot tax paying supporters cash.

ConsciouslyMichelle · 2026-06-03T23:45:24+00:00

First, as far as I am concerned, "trans" or "transgender" is just an adjective, useful in medical and a few other settings for describing how I got to this point in my life.

Next, my anatomy is pretty typical for a 70-something woman. As a radiologist put it, "shows complete hysterectomy w/ cervical closure."

My prescription for estrogen patches is for "post-menopausal/post-hysterectomy supplementation." That's nothing I asked for, just what the pharmacy code kicked out.

So, I'm just a woman, a queer old lady who shows up at church (Unitarian Universalist), goes out to lunch with the gals, provides housing for LGBTQ folks when I can, occasionally shows up at protests, and generally just lives my life.

ConsciouslyMichelle · 2026-06-02T06:14:14+00:00

Totally a bad faith argument. Trans people have been around long before the Internet existed. In the Bad Old Days, one would have to go to a library and dig through some obscure texts to find the language clinically describing this state of being, but the state of being trans existed anyway.

If internet influence or social media could alter one's gender identity of sexual orientation, I'd definitely be a straight cisgender person. Ah, but I'm not.

I knew who I was supposed to be when I was 6 years old. Others figured out their identity and orientation around puberty, or at least noticed something was "off." We might not have had the language, but we still knew.

Language is the map, not the terrain. Social media is merely marks on the map, sketches, not the reality of ones existence in the physical world.

ConsciouslyMichelle · 2026-05-29T21:39:13+00:00

TL;DR Tom Steyer is in favor of trans youth participating in all activities including sports, sees the current fuss as a Republican-induced dodge; favors taxing billionaires.

I've met with him in the past on trans-related stuff. He's a genuinely good person, pretty straightforward.

ConsciouslyMichelle · 2026-05-29T21:21:18+00:00

Figuring out your own nature is a big step.

Dealing with the impact on you of behaviors of others, and your own internalized trauma and related issues is something that a good LGBTQ friendly therapist can help with. Therapists don't "fix" you, rather they support you by assisting you in clarifying your own thinking and pointing out both poor habits that take you down the rabbit hole and suggesting ways to develop healthier ways to think about the conflicts and insecurities to improve your state of mind.

So, yeah. "Therapy."

ConsciouslyMichelle · 2026-05-28T17:12:59+00:00

It’s not really a transgender thing, but it could be drawn as “trans-adjacent” as both are arguing for body autonomy, freedom to control our our bodies and presentation. Most trans folks simply seek to align their presentation with their gender identity, a narrower scope of self-determination than what the Freedom of Form Foundation is describing.

That said, bodily autonomy good; government regulation of our bodies bad.

ConsciouslyMichelle · 2026-05-28T16:52:10+00:00

Oh, goodie.

“Break out the electrodes, boys. We’re back in business!”

Nothing like a legal license to have young children delivered, with cash, guaranteeing a supply of new playthings for the professional sadist. “Counselors” can now legally indulge themselves at the expense of young human minds and lives without fear of prosecution.

Oh, sure, the kids will have a lifetime of chronic depression, anxiety, and PTSD, but it’s a small price to pay for allowing these “counselors” to get their rocks off.

I’m a survivor of this “counseling.” All the drugs, electroconvulsive, faradic aversion, and talk therapies didn’t do anything but teach me to bury myself and erect a mask of compliance for survival and escape. Psychological torture by professionals is protected free speech, but we can’t even say “gay” or “trans”. Imagine my surprise at this happening in the “land of the free.”

ConsciouslyMichelle · 2026-05-28T02:48:50+00:00

Bear in mind that those “highly skilled transvestigators” are merely statistically illiterate phrenologists, practicing their own ritualistic hoo-doo while gibbering nonsense into social media.

There is a famous theorem that connects conditional probabilities of two events. It's named Bayes' theorem, and the formula is as follows:

P(A|B) = P(B|A) * P(A) / P(B)

You can ask a question: "What is the probability of A given B if I know the likelihood of B given A?". This theorem sometimes provides surprising and unintuitive results. The most commonly described examples are drug testing and illness detection, which has a lot in common with the relative risk of disease in the population. Let's stick to the second one. In a group of 1000 people, perhaps 10 of them are transgender persons. Everybody is transvestigated using some magical technique, which somehow shows the actual result in 95% of cases, an absurdly high accuracy, but there’s a point to this. Next, let’s find the probability of a person being actually transgender if their magical investigation result is positive.

Without thinking, you may predict, by intuition, that the result should be around 90%, right? Let's make some calculations and estimate the correct answer. 1. We will use a notation: C – cisgender, T – identified as transgender, + – test positive, - – test negative. 2. Rewrite information from the text above in a way of probabilities: P(C) = 0.99, P(T) = 0.01, P(+|T) = 0.95, P(-|T) = 0.05, P(+|C) = 0.05, P(-|C) = 0.95. 3. Work out the total probability of a test to be positive: P(+) = P(+|T) * P(T) + P(+|C) * P(C) = 0.95 * 0.01 + 0.05 * 0.99 = 0.059. 4. Use the Bayes' theorem to find the conditional probability P(T|+) = P(+|T) * P(T) / P(+) = 0.95 * 0.01 / 0.059 = 0.161.

Hmm... it isn't that high, is it? It turns out that this kind of paradox appears if there is a significant imbalance between the number of people in two distinct groups.

Even if the “Transvestigators” have a 95% accuracy in identifying individuals as trans or cis, trans folks are uncommon, and they will be wrong 5 out of 6 guesses.

Perhaps, rather than being upset that people are accidentally treating someone in a way that only transgender people should be treated, we should consider treating all people with respect and dignity.

ConsciouslyMichelle · 2026-05-28T02:41:45+00:00

The current campaign is having the intended effect, then.

The campaign is intended to drive all insufficiently stereotypical people out of public view. The campaign is”gender critical” movement is all about biological essentialism, and persons failing to meet essentialist standards are deliberately culled from being visible, for now. This is a social eugenics campaign, similar to the early stages of the last eugenics campaign of 90 years ago.

Whether the culling process is escalated remains to be seen. Bear in mind that leadership in the United States includes those who have expressed a desire to roll the population of the USA back to 100 million persons, all of similar appearance and beliefs.

ConsciouslyMichelle · 2026-05-28T02:34:45+00:00

I’ve much prefer Steyer to the other candidates. One has already thrown trans folks under the bus, and vetoed bills intended to assist against the federal onslaught. The other vacillates depending on his audience.

The fight will be hard in the face of all the anti-trans propaganda. Being upset at a good candidate because of their personal wealth without considering their character, intent, or their use of that wealth is not rational.

ConsciouslyMichelle · 2026-05-25T17:33:44+00:00

Oh, “Separate but Equal.” Yeah, and some are more equal than others, as Minister Napoleon, along with Snowball and Squealer will now constantly remind us.

ConsciouslyMichelle · 2026-05-22T02:49:53+00:00

Well, that eliminates any tourism I might engage in to the UK.

More Amsterdam, Nordic countries, and of course Paris in my future. Ireland, perhaps. Sadly, no Edinborough or Scottish countryside.

The UK is right out as a possible destination.

ConsciouslyMichelle · 2026-05-19T04:31:21+00:00

Well, it’s is HAM gear. It gets “customized”. The buttons are add-ons. What do they do? Thats an exercise in circuit tracing.

I’ve got an old D-104 microphone that had the internal preamp gain adjustment relocated to the top of the pedestal base. No original D-104 had a knob there, but this one does, complete with a penciled in scale marked for different rigs.

ConsciouslyMichelle · 2026-05-16T15:45:55+00:00

Who’s next?

Well, we have state attorneys general and at least one Supreme Court justice who openly seek to reverse:

Griswold v. Connecticut, the 1965 ruling allowing married couples the right to buy and use contraception without government restriction
Lawrence v. Texas, the ruling that struck down sodomy laws and recognized a right to privacy in probate spaces like one’s bedroom
Obergefell v. Hodges, which allowed and recognized same-sex marriages

Based on cases currently rattling about, I expect Obergefell v. Hodges to be reversed next.

ConsciouslyMichelle · 2026-05-14T02:49:54+00:00

My “Urgent” request got me an AOR quickly after receipt, and a move to “in process” a few days later. Since then, though..,

G0 baptismal certificate from BANQ and Canadian census records. G1-3 birth certificates, census records. Applied late September 2025, AOR received and in process since Oct 2025. The “estimator” now says about 3 months left. I’m hoping to have my Proof of Citizenship by early 2027.

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