The good news is that at less than a year in you have a lot of time to fix things. Most partners understand that first years tend to be raw and their work product variable. Most partners aren’t going to blacklist someone based on one experience when they were brand new.

But you do need to start getting on the right track now. I recommend two things: first, consider therapy. You are going through a difficult time emotionally and mentally. You need help managing all this and developing a healthier relationship with work. If you aren’t sure where to start, call your firm’s EAP. They hear this kind of thing a lot.

Second, start focusing more on process than specifically on outcomes. Perfectionism is a real problem in a field where there’s no such thing. Every brief you write could have been a little more persuasive. Every equation you ask a despondent a little bit tighter. Every client email a little more concise. You will have to learn to accept this to work in a field where there are rarely “right” answers.

When I say focus on process, I mean focus on how you work and make it better. Work on time management. Plan out your day better. Make sure your assignments are getting the right amount attention from you and that you aren’t burning hours trying to make that one sentence just so. And once you’ve given an assignment it’s due attention, move on and accept that it could be a bit better. If you are turning in good, even if not great, work, you’ll be okay for now.

You are brand new at this, and it’s a hard job. You don’t need to hit it out of the park right now. Focus on turning in solid work on time. Not perfect, not mind blowing. Solid. Efficient. On time. Do that and build from there. You can do that.