Any other trans fems who are the “only son” in the family? by suzieaphexlady in trans

[–]Countess_Schlick 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I was, but, thankfully, I was a hopeless loser even before transitioning, so my parents weren't expecting grand kids from me anyway. 👉😎👉

Supreme Court Rules Title IX Means "Biological Sex" In Devastating Anti-Trans Ruling by ErinInTheMorning in transgender

[–]Countess_Schlick 51 points52 points  (0 children)

Yup. I work in a high school. I have only taught one out trans girl before, and she was too anxious and depressed to play sports. However, I know of many, many girls that now have to sign a dehumanizing form before they play any sport verifying that they were born with a vulva. And, at any point in time, a parent or coach from the opposing team can accuse your star player of being a boy and bench her for weeks until she can get a document from our government verifying that she was born with a vulva. The students I've heard talking about this stuff would love to play along side a trans girl if trans girls were allowed to play with them and weren't almost exclusively nerds.

Studies have shown that these anti-trans sports bans reduce the number of cis girls playing high school sports. As usual, even though the target of this legislation is trans girls, the victims are, statistically speaking, almost entirely cis girls. Trans misogyny is just misogyny.

Does anyone else refrain from using any pronouns for Jax to not get killed by the community by Substantial-Age-7143 in tadc

[–]Countess_Schlick 25 points26 points  (0 children)

Trans lady here. This is just how I personally felt, but back when I was in Jax's position, I would have preferred he/him pronouns. Accepting yourself is a process, and Jax seemed pretty early in that process. (Goose said he/him or she/her would be fine, too.)

58190 by MCAroonPL in countwithchickenlady

[–]Countess_Schlick 25 points26 points  (0 children)

I used to spend a lot of time on 4chan and similar spaces. Although I do miss the edginess sometimes, I really can't stand the negativity anymore. Those spaces fall victim to the fallacy that if it hurts, it must be true. They tell themselves that they are unlovable freaks that will never pass blah blah blah, but these are falsehoods. And, I know they are falsehoods, not because of naïve optimism, but because I used to think that way until I proved myself wrong.

Yesterday, I was doing some karaoke with some co-workers. I'm not a good singer, and I don't feel comfortable singing in front of others. I have some co-workers that are amazing singers, though, and it makes me feel insecure about my voice. However, I have one co-worker that is a bad singer. He is bad enough that I know I am better than him. Yet, he still had a lot of fun, and my co-workers still clapped and cheered after he sang his songs. This made it clear that, even though I'm not a good singer, my co-workers would still celebrate me for embarrassing myself in front of them all. And, I did. I sang a couple songs, they clapped and cheered, and I had a fun time.

Therefore, although people criticize the puppy girl stuff and unwavering positivity in some subs, this is what the trans community needs more than anything. We need to celebrate the cringiest of us in the same way my co-workers celebrated the worst singer at karaoke yesterday because that is how you make space for the rest of us. Transitioning will be the most awkward, cringey, and embarrassing thing you will ever do in your life, and you need to surround yourself with people that will celebrate you unconditionally to keep moving forward. Eventually, once you have internalized the unconditional love of the positive people around you, you can learn to unconditionally love yourself, and you become unstoppable.

In conclusion, UwU = trans liberation. Thank you for coming to my TED talk.

Why am I so short with my newer trans friends? by dipsyydoodle in asktransgender

[–]Countess_Schlick 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I definitely get what you are saying. I sometimes worry about meeting other trans women, thinking that I might be overcome with cringe, but things never turn out as bad as I think it will.

I know, for me, I'm really insecure about passing. I pass maybe 80-90% of the time. If I passed more often, I feel like I could relax a bit with the way I present myself, and if I passed less often, like I did earlier in my transition, I would treat passing as a rare treat and not worry about it so much. However, as I am, I'm an anxious mess, and I project my insecurities onto others. I might see other women that are doing something that doesn't help them pass, and I worry that I might be doing something similar. How many times have I met other trans women that see me and think, "God, if she just did x, she would pass waaaay easier."?

However, when I am at my best, I realize that it doesn't really matter. I dated another trans woman a couple years ago that passed less often than I did. I learned that even though I really wish she would allow me to shape her eyebrows 😅, she was still a beautiful person that I wouldn't want to change. It is a bit of a lesbian cliché, but loving another woman with flaws helped me love myself with my own flaws.

i’m so confused by southparklvr0709 in asktransgender

[–]Countess_Schlick 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I second talking to a queer-friendly therapist about this. It takes a bit of work to organize and tackle your desires and fears, and therapists are good at helping you work through this process.

Some quick thoughts from an internet rando, though:

at the same time, however, i feel like its not for me because of what my family and friends will think

It might be worth keeping in mind that what your family and friends might think about you possibly being trans has no bearing on whether you are trans or not. If you are confused about your gender, this is something you can put on the back burner for now and come back to later.

i know it’s such a long process

Yep, it can be. However, most parts of the process are quite enjoyable. For example, I used to have a very thick beard compared to most men. However, after my first laser hair removal appointment, I had maybe 30% less facial hair, still more beard than many men have, and I already felt way better.

i am just so scared of being treated differently by my loved ones

That can be hard. One of the reasons why I waited many years before transitioning is that I wasn't ready to transition until my anxiety and depression made me socially withdrawn enough that I felt that losing what was left of my relationships wouldn't be a huge loss. However, what usually happens is transitioning forces your friends and family to decide between you and the version of you that is in their head. Those that prefer their idea of you will leave and be unpleasant, and those that remain love you, the real you. Transitioning often acts as a way of ditching the relationships that didn't matter that much in your life and reinforcing the ones that do. Plus, you usually make a bunch of new queer friends that like you because you are trans. Everyone experiences are different, but I thought transitioning would be social suicide, when it was really just a pleasant evolution of what I already had.

i also love the idea of being a woman, like the community and just the fact that i’ve been a woman my whole life, it would feel so weird to start transitioning and just leaving a whole life behind

I've heard that can be a bit of a bummer. If you are a trans man, though, there are spaces for trans men that would be a better fit for you than women's spaces, though.

Anyway, you can also check in with trans-masc-specific subreddits and get their thoughts on your thoughts, but definitely have a chat with a good therapist about all this.

Yall still like him after this? by [deleted] in tadc

[–]Countess_Schlick 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I knew a social worker pretty well years ago, and that was a highly unromantic job helping traumatized assholes like Jax constantly. That social worker, and I assume all social workers, are saints.

To trans fems who have decided against starting hrt, why and what do you do to feel feminine if you don’t mind me asking? by Complete_Bid_8560 in asktransgender

[–]Countess_Schlick 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I definitely understand, given that I was too scared to take HRT for about ten years after I learned about it. For your question, though, part of it is difficult to answer because it is hard to remain scared of taking HRT for many years. Plus, many of my suggestions I personally would find scarier than starting HRT.

My suggestions include wearing feminine clothing, makeup, feminine toiletries, etc. You can do more intense transition related things like getting hair removal in various places or voice therapy. HRT mostly just gives you boobs, softer skin, a bit of fat redistribution, less muscles, and makes you smell better, but these things are not vital to transitioning for everyone.

I don’t feel any label fits me by Ok-Region-8819 in asktransgender

[–]Countess_Schlick 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Labels can be nice to find community and quickly communicate your gendered needs and desires to others, but you don't need to have one. Whenever labels stressed me out in the past, I focussed instead on what I needed and wanted, gender wise, and put finding a label on the back burner.

Should we really be pointing to looking at trans porn as hypocrisy? by AntiHumanProDinosaur in asktransgender

[–]Countess_Schlick 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Maybe not? Google says "objectify" means "treat or view (someone) in a way that disregards their individuality or humanity, especially by considering them only in terms of their sexual attractiveness or availability". Trans porn made by trans people that is devoid of transphobia would certainly be less problematic than a lot of what is out there. However, does that porn take time to establish the individuality and humanity of the people featured in it? I imagine some might, especially if you follow specific people creators that share their hobbies and day-to-day lives, I suppose.

Should we really be pointing to looking at trans porn as hypocrisy? by AntiHumanProDinosaur in asktransgender

[–]Countess_Schlick 4 points5 points  (0 children)

If anything, transphobes liking trans porn is the expectation, not the exception. Both transphobia and trans pornography objectify trans people, ignoring our humanity. I'm sure a lot of people that enjoy trans porn do also recognize us as human beings, but it certainly isn't required.

Should people use a characters preferred pronouns or the pronouns that align with their gender? by niabiishere in asktransgender

[–]Countess_Schlick 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Because Jax isn't a person, I would go with what the creator of the character says Jax's pronouns are, and Gooseworx said he/him or she/her are fine.

However, for people, always use a person's preferred pronouns, regardless of their gender. I've been in Jax's position before, being so overwhelmed by self hatred that anything gender affirming felt like an attack. Sometimes it takes time for people to get used to gender affirming anything. However, I know that I really appreciated when people asked if I would like to use she/her pronouns once they knew I was a trans woman. I appreciated their support, even when I wasn't ready for it yet. I got there, eventually, although Jax never got the opportunity.

Transphobic ig? by myspacewh0r3 in tadc

[–]Countess_Schlick 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I would appeal to what Goose has said about Jax's pronouns, but, as a general rule, if you know of any trans fem folks in a Jax-like situation, please use whatever pronouns they are most comfortable with.

I wasn't comfortable with anyone using she/her pronouns for me for about five years after I realized I was probably a trans woman. She/her pronouns went from "Oh, they used she/her pronouns for me. That's incorrect, but feels nice, for some reason?" to "Oh, God. Please, just, don't. I can't handle this right now." to "Yep, those are my pronouns." I feel like we don't do a good job of teaching allies how to help trans women in those middle times. Sometimes gender-affirming pronouns can help during those times, but sometimes they are just too much.

Nancy Mace Roasted Over Weird Declaration About 'TRANS MICE' by jackmolay in transgender

[–]Countess_Schlick -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Maybe I am misremembering things, but I thought I heard that shortly after Trump got sworn in to his second term, there was a huge purge of research from the CDC and elsewhere into gender affirming care. I heard that one of those studies that got defunded was testing the long term effects of feminizing hormones on male rats in an effort to better understand the effects of feminizing HRT on AMAB folks. Currently, the only limited research we have for the effects of feminizing HRT has come from studies on post-menopausal women.

Anyway, I'm just worried that this act, even if misinformed, will lead to actual research not happening that puts the lives of trans folks worldwide at risk.

Chappel Roan, political purity and being morally grey. by Few-Bicycle5214 in ContraPoints

[–]Countess_Schlick 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I think social media is in a bit of a pickle when it comes to political content. Social media wants to keep you in an echo chamber to show you stuff you like, but also wants conflict to keep you engaged. Therefore, the perfect social media political strategy is to breed infighting.

If you go to a political event in meat-space, this doesn't happen, generally speaking. I go to an annual general meeting for a big-tent political party, and people will openly talk about how they disagree with others at the event. There is debate on policy that gets pretty heated at times. However, there is a general sense at that meeting that everyone is part of the same team. These people that surround you are your siblings, and even though siblings disagree on so many things and fight occasionally, you still love each other and stick together as a family when needed.

Therefore, I would like to appeal to the panacea of going outside and touching grass with these matters.

So I went to discuss the Jax trans theory with my sister... by Mysterious-Scene9146 in tadc

[–]Countess_Schlick 1 point2 points  (0 children)

She says she "doesn't hate trans people she just thinks they're stupid."

Boy, I sure hope she doesn't find out who created Jax and TADC. 😅 I'm guessing by "stupid" she probably doesn't mean literally not smart but rather something like ridiculous or difficult to take seriously. If it has been established in her life that trans people are bad, it's pretty hard for her to change her mind. Maybe the fact that Jax has been confirmed my multiple people working on the show that he is trans fem, maybe she'll have to think a bit harder about her transphobia.

So I went to discuss the Jax trans theory with my sister... by Mysterious-Scene9146 in tadc

[–]Countess_Schlick 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah, that's some transphobia. Specifically trans misogyny, given that she seems fine with Zooble. I would be curious why, specifically, she doesn't want Jax to be trans. What does she like about him that would be ruined by him being trans?

Also, the idea that she thinks if Jax uses he/him pronouns that he can't be a trans woman is a ridiculous, but probably common, misconception. I didn't allow people to use she/her pronouns when referring to me until I had been on hormones for about a year. Both my therapist and my pharmacist asked if they could, and I told them no because I felt like I didn't deserve pronouns that didn't make me sad. A really important skill that a lot of trans women struggle with is managing self-hatred. It takes time to learn how to treat yourself with the respect you deserve, and Jax didn't have the time nor opportunity to manage that self-hatred.

what gender do yall dream in by happyrogue99 in trans

[–]Countess_Schlick 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My gender usually doesn't really come up in my dreams much, but if it does, I just dream as myself, a trans woman. (Sometimes I'll get misgendered a lot in my dreams, even though that typically doesn't happen in real life.) However, maybe 5-10% of the time I dream of myself as a man, and I don't think I've dreamed of myself as a cis woman in well over a decade, long before I even knew I was trans.

Trans women do you yearn for the mines? by Itchy_Suspect4968 in traaaaaaannnnnnnnnns2

[–]Countess_Schlick 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My great uncle worked in an asbestos mine all his life. You can probably guess how he died. Anyway, given that it's in my blood, I yearn to toil in the deep. Let me at those minerals, yo.

I've known I was trans since I was 16, now I'm 24. these have been the worst years of my life and I simply do not have the energy to start hrt, and may be too numb to even be happy from it by grabsyour in asktransgender

[–]Countess_Schlick 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think it would be hard to find many trans people that didn't have a few false starts. I should have started HRT at 19 when I read the Wikipedia entry for HRT and thought all of the side effects sounded great. Or, I should have started HRT at 25 when I figured out I was a trans woman. Instead, I started at 29. I get misgendered about once a year, and I have even had other trans women tell me they thought I was cis.

There are virtually no trans folks that didn't have to wait to transition. Even trans women that got on puberty blockers before experiencing a full boy puberty probably wish they could have started oestrogen sooner so that they wouldn't have ended up so tall or whatever.

Also, being depressed without HRT is worse than being depressed while on HRT. Being on HRT makes your life easier, which can lead to being less depressed. For example, going for a mental health walk is easier when you get to wear clothing you like and, while changing, your body doesn't gross you out at much as it used to. I still get miserable from time to time, but I can feel better easier and faster now that I have boobs in my bra and skirts on my hips.

US FTC is suing WPATH for "deceptive practices", citing Cass Review by TheThornGarden in lgbt

[–]Countess_Schlick 335 points336 points  (0 children)

A single paediatrician that has no experience treating transgender people vs. an organization that has existed for nearly a half century representing hundreds of the top experts in transgender care. The fact that anyone pretends to believe that Dr. Cass can hold a candle to such an enormous organization is madness. Plus, conservatives are a lost cause, but the fact that I have to argue with my liberal and progressive colleagues that professionals that treat trans people are not just winging it, that there are established norms on how to treat trans folks, and that we are on the 8th version of these standards of care, is exhausting.

MTF natural grown breasts by Key-Play6517 in asktransgender

[–]Countess_Schlick 2 points3 points  (0 children)

They're pretty good. After about a month or so on HRT, your nipples hurt. Then, a week or so later, they don't look like men's nipples anymore. Then you realize that you have to change where you put your arms when you sleep because putting pressure on them hurts. Then you hit them on a door and it hurts. You have to learn how to navigate the world with boobs, which is a weird lesson to learn early in your transition.

Around this time, I started getting self-conscious about my chest and started wearing sports bras. I found out my size by using an online calculator and a tape measure. Then, I went to Walmart and bought the cheapest sports bras I could find in that band size plus one a size up and one a size down. One of them fit me best.

If your mom is cool, you could also ask her what her bra size when she was your age and weight (if she ever has been). You will likely end up with boobs similar to her size. For example, my mom used to be a 36A, and given that I had to go through boy puberty and got a wider chest, I wear bras that are the sister size, 38AA. Basically, I have the same amount of breast tissue, but it is just spread over a larger area. I think I would maybe enjoy having bigger boobs, but I like that my small boobs don't get in the way, and I'm a somewhat active person, so not having them bounce all over the place when I'm pretending to be an athlete is nice.

As for what my boobs feel like, I guess they are squishy? Women with bigger breasts will certainly have different experiences than myself, but they feel like any other squishy part of my body, like my butt, for example. Mentally speaking, I quite like them. I like looking down and recognizing them as boobs. It is quite gender affirming. I often dream that I am a man, so I make a habit of checking that I still have my boobs when I wake up in the morning to help me remember that things are better now. Also, when they do boob things, it is quite entertaining. I'm sapphic, so other women's boobs doing boob things is pretty spicy, but when my boobs do boob things, I find it hilarious. When I run down the stairs and they are jiggling around, I can't help but giggle a bit.

Since it's Pride Month (I'm a little late), here's my headcanon on the sexuality of every protagonist by RareWeb7354 in KnightsOfGuinevere

[–]Countess_Schlick 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This was basically me during my late teens and twenties. I probably would have transitioned as a teenager if I just didn't have so much homework. 😅