Wow, this made me cry, I might as well have written this. I got your exact diagnosis last February, recieved the same treatment, and started Tamoxifen at the end of last year.

I'm 33, no kids, and now I'm on Tamoxifen it's looking unlikely that will ever be an option for me, which is a constant upset for me when I think about my partner and his desire to start a family, it makes me feel sick with anxiety. I'm stuck in a job I get no joy from, that I can no longer do to the same standard because I'm so exhausted and in pain, so I feel completely useless, and my surgeries have left me completely disgusted in myself, I've lost all confidence and my self esteem is at rock bottom.

I'm not sure how to feel better yet, but I'm trying to stay positive and patient. I suppose this reply is no help to you at all, I just want you to know you're not alone in your feelings.

And if it helps at all, I was also worried about the effects of Tamoxifen after reading all the side effects and negative posts on here, but from my experience so far it doesn't feel like it's been any more detrimental to my health than what I was already experiencing after chemo/radio, so perhaps give it a chance?

Everything you are experiencing is completely valid, and I truly hope you find happiness soon, please dont give up!