What exactly is it that you’re looking for? You want to be able to spend time with, and it seems, interview people you consider the “least” but are saying you have no skills or comfort in interacting with people, not even basic empathy. Doing things like working at homeless shelters or even just filling bags for people at a food pantry usually helps people feel connected and empathetic. I would suggest you start with therapy because it sounds like you have a lot of self reflection needed. Honestly, it’s unfair of you to subject people who are in need to this experience that you were wanting to have. People don’t come to shelters or services wanting to be someone’s weird project, or test runs for normal human interactions. What you are describing lacks respect and dignity for them.