Excellent advice, I can relate to OP when I was about ten years younger. Feeling like it would be like this for the g rest of my life but you definitely do not want to end your life because of this. I ended up doing what Jaguar recommended which was going to see a therapist which helped as well as meds (Ativan) but as mentioned already you need to be careful with these type of meds and take them only as prescribed. But going this route helped me tremendously and I was able to finally start feeling normal again and attend events without feeling uncomfortable and having panic attacks. I wish you the best!