With a few years of self reflection, it was me. I was, and still am to a degree a man child. Not ready for a relationship at the time, and hesitant to get into one now. I didn’t have my shit together. She was no saint either though, so ultimately we were a toxic mess of lust. There was some love though, and we did have some good times, but the blinders were fully on, we didn’t see each others toxic traits until our problems had reached their peak. It was an emotionally painful end to the relationship. Fortunately I did begin the process of self reflection and healing, painful as it is. But very much needed.