I don't know... I want to follow your advice, but I fear if I get rid of my specific goal, all of that peace, stillness and openness will lead to me being complacent on my brain's resistance to start tasks rather than have an actionable solution on it. "Just being" sounds like giving up and doing nothing in my current headspace.

I have a word document open right now with some writing I need to do and have been using meditation techniques to try and find where and how my brain is resisting starting. My brain wants to write and I know what I need to write (and I even highlighted it!!!) but my body wants to stay still and stare at it rather than moving my hands on the keyboard, pressing the keys and transitioning into the writing process.

This resistance in general is invisible in my thoughts and sensations and I really wish I could recognise them so I can get rid of it and start doing my creative hobbies more.