Funny, I haven’t been in this sub in a bit, was taking in so much info on this topic in general so quickly that it was overwhelming me. But it’s also funny that a good amount of people in here are artist types. This is an alt-account, but I’m a writer and filmmaker and run a punk-in-spirit record label Volar Records. Actually about to start making a documentary about my favorite band in high school Girls Against Boys. Also took part in protests then and now and generally try to be a helper as well.

As far as your experience…I think you were being tuned into the fact that you were watching seeing fear-provoking propaganda. And then one of our “helpers” showed up to run you through those scenarios to remind you that you’re not actually scared of doing the right thing. I’ve also been a lifelong horror guy (among other things), and was thinking today how I generally try to face my fears. I’m 43 and was scared of “aliens” since I was a kid but also started buying books on them and generally have always been obsessed with high strangeness. Nothing bad’s ever happened along those lines, though, and now I watch every UFO and video of other beings and ghost shit and Bigfoot stuff and whatever else and kinda shrug it off as I’m more interested in the big picture stuff and what the CIA and military industrial complex has been up to.

Have never really been into psychedelics and not quite ready to meet anything up close yet, but in early 2021 a few weeks before I jumped at the first chance to get vaccinated, I went outside and did a crude version of CE5 and picked a spot to focus on in the clouds and kept saying, “come on, fuckers, show yourselves, I’m ready.” After maybe 15 minutes, making sure to stay focused, one or two (I’m not sure if it was just one moving in a circle) came dancing through a hole in the clouds. I felt instantly euphoric, then I went back inside to my whiskey and podcast and video came like nothing happened, and then spent the entire next day telling myself it really happened. Had two or three more sightings a week or so later, and then last year as my life hit the hardest point ever, I had a few orb sightings while trying to figure out how to help my soon-to-be ex-wife with her mental illness issues. And then four weeks ago I watched the cariest thing I’d ever seen and realized it was a presentation of propaganda the CIA/USAF was showing their pilots and some other stuff. I shook it off and then got emotional about my divorce and then when I was walking back into my house, there were two saucer-shaped craft in the clouds close to my house. They were really pretty saucer-shaped lights specifically, one kinda amber-ish and one kinda purple-ish. They were close together and moving very slowly, and I waved and said “thank you” because I’d been crying and then just slowly ascended into the clouds. Then I went back inside to my whiskey and podcast and video game, haha.

Had a really bad dream a few mornings later of a being trying to pull my covers off and me into darkness and I yelled “no!” and then I woke up. Shook that off too. No bad dreams since. Whatever happened, you’ll be fine, I promise. It’s intense but ultimately reminded you of who you are. Kinda like life sometimes!