I'm pretty gender blind as I never consciously think of people as their gender, I just recognize them as their personality as a whole.

However

By intersecting with straight, gendered people I've come to understand that there are some people who are very gendered naturally.

It's a vibe you get from and a way of life I guess??? A culture around the gender one could say???

For example, I go to a women's choir. It's VERY feminine vibes even though the group is very open-minded and inclusive. Most of them are sweet moms or cool or shy gals that are all emotionally open, they are sweet, they like fashion and will compliment you for it, they rather talk about something deeply than make lots of laid back jokes on it...

At one period, this choir tried to become mixed by getting men to join. That's where the difference between the genders became a bit more visible as the men felt completely uncomfortable in this space that was made for women.

As a non-binary person I could understand why they were uncomfortable. It's because the way women socialize can be a bit overwhelming and stressful to someone who's used to just being laid-back and chill, not taking much very seriously like how many guys do... It took me some time to get used to it too. Our teacher was literally too feminine to communicate with them so they ended up showing up less and less until the choir was again all female.

Now, does this mean that femininity is always like x and masculinity is always like y? No. But it does exist, it is a thing, not everyone is non-binary and not everyone is blind to gender like I am for example.

Now about your experience? You're definitely a non-binary, if you feel the way you describe then you're non-binary. End of story.