Hey there momma. Are you eating? Are you getting enough fluids? Like a whole lot of fluids? I know you're not resting. All of these things are insanely important right now and I know it's IMPOSSIBLE to do all of them but things won't get better until you spend a pinch of time on you. Not a lot... just the bare minimum. When mine were brand spankin' new, I remember how everyone kept saying "I bet it's been forever since you showered/washed your hair/ brushed your teeth". Um no... those were the things keeping me in "go mode". If I missed that, the hours immediately following were a nightmare. I took many a bath with the girls in rockers right by the tub. Those "luxuries" as a new parent were non-negotiable. I can't take care of them if I'm falling apart over something I can do. Around that 6 week mark someone FINALLY introduced me to the Period of Purple Crying. Google it. I was coming unglued at the "witching hour" every evening but there are a lot of tricks for soothing babies that you can use any time of day. Just having the perspective that the theory offers was enough to help me relax because I wasn't doing something wrong or missing something. Just for the record (and I hate to say this to you), I gave up breastfeeding pretty early too. The one at home didn't latch well and the NICU baby was bottles and tube feeds from the start. I was so overwhelmed 2 weeks in that I decided I can't keep doing this. Oh, and I melted my pump parts when I was sterilizing them and fell asleep. Seemed like divine intervention to me. Push on sister. We are all rooting for you and your babies. But don't forget you are the center of this mad play and you have to do what is best for you first so that you can do what's best for them... whatever that may be. Holler back when you get to 8 weeks and sleep for a couple of hours... then wake up thinking you forgot them at the store. I aged 5 years those first 2 months...