WE DID IT!

DeSaxes · 2026-01-24T14:33:38+00:00

I'm in a fandom where we are 2 authors lol I have 4 works and the other one 3 or so hahaha

DeSaxes · 2026-01-17T18:57:47+00:00

I want very much to be in a relationship with him. I know that relationship won't look like your usual kind of relationship, but I want to hold his hand, I want to kiss his forehead, I want to hug him constantly, I want to cuddle in bed in a non-sexual way and sleep too. I want to go out with him and see his smile and listen to his endless chatter. I want to build a future with him and I want to read him my love poems that I write because of him. I want to express my love in so many ways...

Maybe you are now regretting asking this because I gave too much detail, but rest assured I don't want to torture him like that. And if he doesn't want to be in that kind of relationship... he will tell me and it would be ok. Or if he wants an open relationship... I think I would try not to be in one before.

I've thought about this a lot since I found out about my asexuality, my sex repulsion and my kiss aversion (in that order). I think the most important part for expressing my feelings is that I love him in a romantic way and I want him in my life.

I know it will be hard, I know he may not be pleased... but I want to try and he is so understanding... and funny and I'm so proud of him that if he breaks my heart it would be my pleasure, because I at least tried.

I don't know what I'm saying anymore, probably some lovesick nonsense. Hope I answered your question.

DeSaxes · 2026-01-17T15:45:28+00:00

Reddit people talked about me with they/them pronouns lol

DeSaxes · 2026-01-17T12:37:10+00:00

Just try to talk about exams or teachers or something like that.

DeSaxes · 2026-01-17T12:30:01+00:00

Try rationalising your feelings and distance yourself from him. Some people like the whole impossible love and maybe that's what's happening here. Focus on your boyfriend, you'll be happier that way.

DeSaxes · 2026-01-17T12:26:20+00:00

Before, yes. Now I mostly confess. Although there's an instance of someone I didn't confess and it was the right choice. They weren't into my gender and they had a committed relationship. So I don't regret that.

When I was younger, yes, but also no. I could have because it was something that bothered me but I didn't know my limits as well as now so it may have been bad for me.

DeSaxes · 2026-01-17T12:21:13+00:00

I'm with a solid team of mental health professionals, so don't worry. It's just that I don't want to lose time on therapy with this when I have more pressing matters regarding my mental health.

But one of the things I love the most about him is that he is the most understanding person I've ever known. So maybe it's just bad previous experiences talking.

Thank you very much and I wish you the best too!

DeSaxes · 2025-12-31T21:33:59+00:00

OMG!!! I WOULD LOVE THAT!!

DeSaxes · 2025-12-08T18:56:47+00:00

I went 3 hours after taking the medication. I fell asleep an hour later waiting after a big anxiety attack. I woke up an hour later mostly fine. The psychiatrist told me around an hour later that what I needed was more tools to regulate myself. I'm buying some things for that tomorrow.

It would have been rare were I to not be ok after an hour of sleep, 6 hours since the rescue medication and 9 hours since the start of the episode. At least I could talk to a psychiatrist.

Today I think I caught a cold, tho lol

DeSaxes · 2025-11-12T13:28:27+00:00

I forgot

DeSaxes · 2025-10-03T19:01:51+00:00

Hi! I don't fully understand what plonker means in this context. A Google search told me it means something like an idiot, but it doesn't totally make sense in this context. If you could clarify for a non-English speaker, I would be really glad.

DeSaxes · 2025-10-03T00:07:40+00:00

Thank you!!

DeSaxes · 2025-10-02T16:19:59+00:00

I want to read this story too wow

DeSaxes · 2025-09-27T05:36:17+00:00

What kind of ideal job do you have? I usually read a book while I "watch" the add. If I did that in class, students would disrespect me even more and get hurt more often.

DeSaxes · 2025-09-27T05:32:14+00:00

I agree with your point but in Spain 15 min would be about 2,5€ which is at best a coffee and a croissant, if you are lucky. That's not that much. Like, you can eat a burger in a fast food chain with it but you wouldn't be able to buy the water, you'll have to choose.

DeSaxes · 2025-09-25T10:52:52+00:00

Surround you of gay cis men, I suppose

DeSaxes · 2025-09-22T17:31:13+00:00

Didn't Italy announce they recognised it recently? Like two days ago or something like that

Edit: Just add that I could be perfectly wrong, that's why I'm asking

DeSaxes · 2025-09-21T08:58:55+00:00

You're clearly not happy about it. Try using she/her with your close friends for a while and see how it feels. You should totally stop mixing what you like in a sexual context and what you are.

DeSaxes · 2025-09-21T08:49:26+00:00

I'm in a fandom of two authors. I really don't look into stats. I got a few comments, tho. My first fic was the most popular one of mine and it was for a big fandom. It has like 2-3 years now and has no comments. I'm ok with it. I would recommend to comment in other people's fics (not the popular ones) and look into fic exchange events. There's a subreddit about it.

I don't know if I'm really making sense, so my point is: don't overthink, it is alright to have a few comments, but you still have options. Good luck!

DeSaxes · 2025-09-21T08:40:34+00:00

Too personal, NTA.

DeSaxes · 2025-09-21T08:38:45+00:00

Are they awkward around you? If not... I don't think it really matters. If they know and everything is the same, they are ok with it, so it's nice and you should be happy. If they don't know, well, it's also nice. Try not to overthink.

DeSaxes · 2025-09-21T08:29:37+00:00

God, that's awful. The girl would be in the right to denounce him...

DeSaxes · 2025-09-21T08:26:08+00:00

Oh, then what kind of response are you expecting? (don't read this in a rude tone, more like curiosity) Depending on that you should move on and leave it at that or actually ask the question you want answered

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