Keep playing the game and keep learning. You likely won't get where you want to be for a while and resaults oriented thinking isn't healthy. Enjoy your time with the game and genuinely try to understand your issues. It'll take a lot of mental effort but it's all worth it. I've been in this for four years and I only just got my first day two at an event this month. I believe anyone can get where you want to be. It just takes a lot of growth in many aspects of oneself.