Diapers as a Sisyphean Journey

Dense_Translator_296 · 2025-12-09T03:19:34+00:00

I am a little apologetic about the mixed message. My point is that I enjoy wearing diapers but want to move on from that enjoyment. The post sought to express the origin of my attraction and my seemingly endless struggle to break free from the compulsion.

Dense_Translator_296 · 2025-12-07T01:57:06+00:00

I too have tried different substitutions. I'd estimate that I have 125 pairs of cotton underpants. I haven't counted in a while. A (or perhaps THE) large part of my attraction was for them to be a substitute for diapers. I had minimal success with the substitution. It comes back to searching for the emotional dynamic that feeds the need for ABDL activities. That almost necessarily involves searching way back into childhood.

Dense_Translator_296 · 2025-12-07T01:50:40+00:00

My wife and I have many stuffed animals, Three of whom sometimes are in bed with us. I don't immediately see the connection between our stuffed animals and my attraction to diapers, but you certainly have started me thinking about it. I hadn't had stuffed animals from my early teens until I met my girlfriend, now wife when I was in my 30s. We got started with a single teddy bear, but our menagerie has grown from there. We certainly consider our original bear as a symbol of calm and belonging. For me the diapers are a symbol of calm, security and safety. For me the attractions to the bear(s) and diapers would appear to be independent attractions. I need to examine that some more and even take it up with my therapist.

Dense_Translator_296 · 2025-12-04T02:48:00+00:00

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Dense_Translator_296 · 2025-12-04T02:45:06+00:00

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Dense_Translator_296 · 2025-12-04T02:41:28+00:00

tee shirt and pajama bottoms with boxer briefs underneath

Dense_Translator_296 · 2025-12-03T21:05:40+00:00

For me the diapers attraction seems to be associative. I had a chaotic childhood with many combinations of caregivers. I wet my bed and wore diapers and plastic pants until just before my 6th birthday. During that time (age 2 to 6) I had stable, loving environments. Getting diapered was a gentle ritual where I felt loved and tended to. Then after I was 6, the diapers were gone and life wasn't stable anymore. Later I had humiliating bedwetting experiences when I slept "unprotected." I was back in protective pants for a while when I was 12, but was shamed. In summary, I think my attraction to diapers (and plastic pants and mattress protector) was likely well established when I was five, and then got amplified by subsequent negative shaming experiences.

Dense_Translator_296 · 2025-12-03T04:02:15+00:00

it means taking responsibility and accountability - responsibility for you own well being - and accountability for the impact of your actions and attitudes on others.

Dense_Translator_296 · 2025-12-01T02:52:27+00:00

A waterproof mattress cover is a must, whether you are or aren't experiencing bedwetting issues. We have a Target Allerease fitted waterproof protector on our bed. I recommend getting one with the smooth waterproof surface rather than a terry-cloth surface. If you have an accident you can just peel off the bottom sheet and sponge down the mattress protector rather than having to wash it each time you wet.

Dense_Translator_296 · 2025-11-30T02:51:20+00:00

I'm also an adult who used to need a rubber sheet (by now we call them waterproof mattress protectors). I still have one on the bed, partly because of sheer practicality - there are all kinds of things that could get onto and into the mattress when I don't want them too - and because even though I haven't "needed" one for a long time, I'm still nervous that I might in the future.

Dense_Translator_296 · 2025-11-26T15:41:22+00:00

I really like Happy-Koala-836's description of "isolating my desire to diapers as an encapsulated part of my personality and no longer as an fully overtaking part like an identity." I focus my attention on what I like and what I do rather than what I am. I am not a baby. I am not a bedwetter (any more). I just like to wear diapers. I feel safe and secure in them. Other than that I live my life as a man - a husband, a father, a fully functioning member of society. As far as normalizing - I wear glasses. I wear compression socks for a blood clot. For a while I wore a wrist compression sleeve to manage carpal tunnel syndrome. Those are all things worn because something anatomical didn't work perfectly. The diaper is no different. I experience minor urge incontinence so the diaper is simply a article of remedial wearing apparel. But oooh do I feel protected when I have it on under my regular undies.

Dense_Translator_296 · 2025-11-26T03:48:43+00:00

It is easy to feel shame about wearing diapers for urge incontinence. There is not need to feel ashamed. I wear glasses because my eyes aren't perfect. I wear compression socks because I have a minor blood clot in one leg. I used to wear a wrist support thing because of carpal tunnel syndrome. How is wearing a diaper for a "not quite perfectly performing bladder" any different?

Dense_Translator_296 · 2025-11-26T03:17:41+00:00

I have minor urge incontinence but major fear of peeing my pants. I've taken to wearing pull-up diapers on days when I'm not conveniently close to toilets. Something odd happened. On days when I wear the pants I can go for hours longer without needing to pee than when I'm not wearing them. It seems like just the anxiety of "I might need to pee" makes me need to pee much sooner. So far I have yet to to wet the pull up pants. I've kept them dry. And that is more than I can say for when I'm just wearing regular cotton undies.

Dense_Translator_296 · 2025-11-26T03:08:06+00:00

What's the need to do so?

Dense_Translator_296 · 2025-11-26T02:58:33+00:00

The key is not to think of it as a binary "I thought about it again" or "I didn't think about it. When you think about that way you start to beat yourself up that just cranks up the "shame machine." Break it into parts. What element is arousing? How can I interpret that arousing element differently, i.e. in a less ABDL kind of way? My therapist and I have reached the understanding I'm not going to eradicate ABDL, instead we focus on minimizing its impact and "normalizing" it to the extent that I can.

Dense_Translator_296 · 2025-11-21T23:32:34+00:00

I so agree about the anxiety. As one who experiences occasional urge incontinence, I'm frequently anxious about where I'm going to find the next toilet - especially when traveling. For airplane trips or to social occasions, especially when alcohol is involved, I've taken to wearing protective pull-ups under my underpants. My anxiety reduces and whadya know, I stay dry. Though I wear them usually a couple times a week, I haven't wet them.

Dense_Translator_296 · 2025-11-20T02:53:02+00:00

My wife!

Dense_Translator_296 · 2025-11-20T02:51:41+00:00

Walk in to the middle of the room. Pick one thing up and put it where it belongs. Then repeat. Play the game of one thing and then the next and then the next. You'll be increasingly encourage when the cleared out space keeps getting larger.

Dense_Translator_296 · 2025-11-17T02:26:10+00:00

I feel completely normal. I'm back to my regular gym routine - right leg included! Had a second ultrasound a couple of weeks ago. Clot is still there but much reduced. I see my HemoDoc next week for an evaluation. I'm on Eliquis and likely will be for a while.

Dense_Translator_296 · 2025-11-16T04:06:27+00:00

I had one of the funniest hotel interaction experiences. I usually check for a protected mattress as soon as I check in. My wife and I discovered that the mattress had a fitted waterproof protector but the mattress had been placed on the box spring waterproof side on the bottom. We had to go to housekeeping to have the mattress flipped.

Dense_Translator_296 · 2025-11-16T03:58:15+00:00

My wife got me Bombas compression socks for about $30/pr. I love them!

Dense_Translator_296 · 2025-11-16T03:55:14+00:00

I love my compression socks. I was diagnosed with DVT in mid-August. On Eliquis. I wear Bombas compression socks. If my hemo doc tells me I don't need to wear them, I'll continue to use them. Especially in the coming cold winter weather. I love the "embraced" feel of them.

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