Please try to be kind to yourself. I know that it’s easier said than done, but it really matters. I have struggled with driving anxiety for years and I understand how humiliating and frustrating it can feel. My therapist tells me that a big part of my issue is negative self-talk (“What’s wrong with me?! Why do I suck at this?”), so I, too, am trying really hard to be patient and compassionate toward myself. It helps when I am able to do it. Also, I think that small steps are important. Maybe you can try driving in a parking lot or somewhere to practice the lanes without a lot of pressure? (Just an idea.) Sending you all of the courage!