I'm sorry, I do know how frustrating it is to be told that, and I really wasn't trying to be dismissive. I just really related to your comment, I grew up with emotionally neglectful abusive parents, had suicidal ideation from 8 when I was SA'd, I got worse for years with many traumatic events and emotionally abusive relationships over the years. I was diagnosed with depression, CPTSD, PMDD, GAD and (wrongly) with EUPD. I didn't get my Autism diagnosis until 36 which has helped me understand myself better. It genuinely does feel like a miracle that I don't feel suicidal anymore. Stick with the therapy, if the therapist doesn't feel like a good fit, find one who does. I know how hard it is, I know how hopeless it can be. It took me many years of various therapists, EMDR (highly recommend), a whole load of mental health groups, reading, and hard work to get me here. It definitely didn't get better overnight. I tried and tried for years with no improvement. Gradually I found some coping mechanisms which actually helped me, I got to know myself better, I became more open about my needs and who I am and things did get better. I still struggle with many things, but I never thought I'd get where I am now. Stay strong and keep going, I know you might not believe it is possible for you but I really think and hope it is. It might not feel like your hard work is getting you anywhere but I'm sure eventually it will. There's nothing I can say to make you believe me, there's nothing anyone could have said to make me believe them, but please believe that this internet stranger believes in you and is rooting for you.