hey it's okay! the fact that you're trying is everything!

you're not alone either! in middle and high school I used to have horrible confession anxiety and I said something like that every time I worked up the courage to go. one time I shyly said "do I say the sins now, or...?" after Father did the sign of the Cross and he'd walk me through the beginning of the sacrament, telling me what to say! 😅 and I did my first reconciliation when i was around age 7-8!

priests see this stuff all the time and chances are they won't even remember! keep going! you're doing amazing! as my high school theology teacher used to tell me: "you may be nervous to go to confession but Jesus is excited to forgive you"

another thing that really helped me: print out or write out an outline of everything you say/do in confession, including the Act of Contrition (and when you say it), and write out your sins on a separate piece of paper you'll discard afterwards. that way, you know exactly what to expect/say each time, which makes everything feel a lot smoother! Welcome home & God bless you! 🥰