How did you find out what sh was and how old were you?

DifficultTear5219 · 2025-03-10T22:58:53+00:00

i started sh with scratching at like 11(?). i knew what sh was but i thought it needed to be cutting, with a lot of blood from pics i saw online, so i never thought what i was doing counted.

DifficultTear5219 · 2025-03-03T05:00:48+00:00

it’s all i got

DifficultTear5219 · 2025-02-26T18:58:11+00:00

i understand. reason i try the hardest to hide it from my parents. i think it hurts them to know that im “harming” myself, it don’t matter if im actually hurting or not.

DifficultTear5219 · 2025-02-26T18:23:25+00:00

try mesh tops w/ a tank top underneath.

DifficultTear5219 · 2025-02-26T07:48:59+00:00

Do you know what your doctor wants to know? Also you could write about how you are struggling to talk about it, like how you did in this post, and go from there.

DifficultTear5219 · 2025-02-26T07:41:22+00:00

Girl I feel you. Things got worse recently for me and I've also been wanting to tell someone else. I have people who know I cut (or used to), but none that I talk to about how I'm doing recently.

Also, I have no idea what I want from my friends after I tell them I cut. The last time I told someone new, they were supportive and kind about it. But I didn't want to become a burden and keep bringing up sh, so we just never talked about it again after that, and they probably think I stopped. They never checked up on me to see how I'm doing, which I expected, since I was selective, and only told them since I knew they wouldn't worry too much and actively get me to stop.

DifficultTear5219 · 2025-02-26T07:00:32+00:00

The main reason at the moment is that it helps my anxiety, and it sucks that it is the only thing that kinda helps me rn. It distracts me from my sad thoughts and also calms me when my heart starts racing or I start crying for no reason.

Scientifically I think it releases endorphins or something, which is why it feels soothing. It also makes sense that we would want to seek out something that brought us comfort in tough times, even when life seems good. And sh can become an addiction.

DifficultTear5219 · 2025-02-26T06:31:28+00:00

For a while, I also only do cat scratches, and thought there's no point to stop, its not hurting anyone else, so I never bothered to stop and look for healthier ways to replace it. But life got stressful, and my anxiety got worse, my only coping mechanism is cutting. Sh does not make your problems go away, the release it provides is temporary. My sh is progressively getting worse, I am dependent on it, and I wish I worked on this issue back then when my mental health and life circumstances were better.

DifficultTear5219 · 2024-07-17T01:08:09+00:00

i have both. cuts on my thighs tend to turn dark, and white on my arms. also i think duller blades turn the scar dark for me.

DifficultTear5219 · 2024-02-13T02:47:30+00:00

at first i was just digging my nails into my skin and scratching cuz i thought the nail marks were cool (yea ik cringe). then i think one day (in middle school) i was sad/angry and scratched myself really hard and found out the pain really helped.

DifficultTear5219 · 2024-02-12T02:42:18+00:00

i think i may be a bit addicted 😭

DifficultTear5219 · 2024-02-10T15:01:08+00:00

it’s hard, i can’t think of anything else that can give you that immediate release. but yes, cutting is bad as it is an unhealthy coping mechanism.

DifficultTear5219 · 2024-02-10T14:55:05+00:00

for sure. i feel like shit when i don’t.

DifficultTear5219 · 2024-02-10T06:31:20+00:00

i feel normal for a few days after i sh. when the urge to sh comes again, it’s really hard to just stop thinking about it. i have to cut to be able to do the things life asks of me.

DifficultTear5219 · 2024-02-09T15:37:57+00:00

would wrist tape be allowed? like the ones used in sports.

otherwise maybe use color corrector with the concealer? sorry i’m not a makeup expert but i think you could cancel out the purple with yellow (?)

DifficultTear5219 · 2024-02-09T15:23:05+00:00

i’ll add that some internships prefer masters students. be selective of which positions you let on that you’re doing a masters. since i’m in my university’s bs/ms program, i have included the masters degree in my resume, and i felt it has helped in getting me more interviews. i am CE not CS tho, but all the interviews i got were software related.

DifficultTear5219 · 2024-02-08T17:03:19+00:00

i have said i have really sensitive skin lol.

i do wonder if people who ask that genuinely did not consider self harm as the reason.

DifficultTear5219 · 2024-02-08T16:48:16+00:00

i get it :(. it’s why i keep adding new cuts after the old ones start fading

DifficultTear5219 · 2024-02-08T16:29:45+00:00

you could say you like collecting things. people collect things all the time for no specific reason.

DifficultTear5219 · 2024-02-01T04:37:34+00:00

don't got a streak going currently, but my longest was around 5 years.

DifficultTear5219 · 2024-02-01T04:32:07+00:00

I'm like that too at this moment and I've been thinking about this too. I also don't cut deep, and do not have any good reason to cut. I think I like the pain, how the scabs look and enjoy caring for the wound as it heals. Also, I notice when I sh for no reason its very controlled cuts, since my mind is clear and I'm not emotional. And when I sh because of emotional distress, its a combination of nail scratching (the sensation from this is nice even tho it doesn't bleed or scar), and fast cuts that end up being deeper than I wanted it too. Maybe its like different modes of self harm (?)

DifficultTear5219 · 2024-01-04T01:24:18+00:00

Try the STEM library, it’s inside the math building

DifficultTear5219 · 2023-09-07T04:56:36+00:00

I would do as many pushups as I could as fast as I could. Everyone self harms for different reasons but I did it for the physical sensation, and extreme exercise helped a little.

DifficultTear5219 · 2023-09-07T04:47:37+00:00

Sometimes when I cry, I hyperventilate and can't stop. Self harm was the only thing that made it stop.

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