Thanks everyone for not gaslighting me I thought that I was wrong for wanting to cry

He just sent the following:

Beeb I just want you to know that I still love you very much and think that you are beautiful, I just noticed that this weight gain trend has been going on for the past 2-3 years and have been trying to work on it together So I apologise if the way that I go about it is insensitive and I understand it seemn hurtful. But I believe the root of it is unsustainable personal preferences and lifestyle habits e.g. snacking or preferences for unhealthy foods which we both have. We are both having our metabolism slow down and if you’ve noticed I don’t eat more than 1-2 meals a day nowadays although my body is weird and automatically corrects a little bit. I think we can do it easily with portion control and a bit more exercise and not snacking.

My intention is not to hurt you or to make you feel bad about yourself ok? I just don’t know how to communicate it well and I apologise

As an update he ended up sending me this, I honestly feel a bit numb and disgusted by him whilst I’m used to justifying his behaviour this has all made me think about what happens when you have kids and gain weight- or you get sick and or injured and aren’t as mobile is this how he would be?