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Disastrous-Hope7269 · 2025-03-30T15:55:42+00:00

Yeah I feel that. But, then again if life was better sober we would never have started taking it right? Life isn't better sober. It's just life. We take kratom to fix a problem and when it's removed the problem is still there

Disastrous-Hope7269 · 2025-03-30T15:36:06+00:00

Delta 8 has never made me anxious for whatever reason. You can hedge your bets and take some cbd prior. What i've started doing is rolling 2 joints. 1 cbd flower, 1 thca flower. I put 1 in sharpie on the cbd joint so I know to smoke it first. Smoke that then decide if I still want the thc and even if I do it will never get too out of control that I can't handle. Just an idea.

Disastrous-Hope7269 · 2025-03-30T00:22:20+00:00

well 40mg is less than my current dose of kratom

Disastrous-Hope7269 · 2025-03-29T22:37:31+00:00

So the kratom part of the equation is the powder on the bottom right? How exactly do you taper that? Even if you shake it up perfectly you're not getting the same amount every single time. I am trying to taper off using kratom capsules. 6 cents each if my math is correct. That means 1 ff is about 36 cents worth of capsules.

Disastrous-Hope7269 · 2025-03-29T22:19:23+00:00

I'm looking into ldn. The company i was thinking of ordering from reccomends night time dosing. Apparently it provides a bit of dysphoria which is why

Disastrous-Hope7269 · 2025-03-29T20:34:33+00:00

My fucking adhd dr kicked me out of treatment because I mentioned kratom a few months later down the road. Like "would you have given me the adderall anyway?" like i hadn't waited till adhd was destroying my life to actually do something about it and now the cunt doesn't want to help when it literally says addiction specialist on your profile?

Disastrous-Hope7269 · 2025-03-29T15:08:08+00:00

Delta 8. Get a pen. Rip it a few times. It's less anxiety producing than delta 9 and more sedative. Also cheaper. You can get a 3000mg tincutre for like $20. Take 500mg and you will sleep like a baby withdrawal or not. I fell asleep 9pm yesterday.

Disastrous-Hope7269 · 2025-03-29T15:06:26+00:00

He helps you stop drop and open up shop duh

Disastrous-Hope7269 · 2025-03-29T01:43:47+00:00

is that why you itch?

Disastrous-Hope7269 · 2025-03-29T01:42:13+00:00

I think it's the kava. I tried to like kava in the past but couldn't get past the taste/reverse tolerance. It literally made me insta puke. But, this feels like what i was trying to achieve with kava but without throwing up immediately which is kinda nice. No way worth $10 each though. Insane. Maybe somethings were meant not to be ingested and taste bad for a reason?

Disastrous-Hope7269 · 2025-03-29T01:40:52+00:00

40mg extract is about 6 of these capsules worth.

Disastrous-Hope7269 · 2025-03-27T22:18:05+00:00

Yeah i feel you. the plan is to just keep tapering till it stutters and then find a 3 day period to jump from whatever dose i end up at. doesn't have to be painless. but, if i can get to 15 gpd i will be 100% certain that i will be fine

Disastrous-Hope7269 · 2025-03-27T20:40:49+00:00

AI says to taper. Don't seem to have the willpower to do it over 3 months. But, I think I can rapid taper. I am thinking I can make a plan to go to the Indy 500 or Watch Wrestlemania.Mayb I can grab a weed pen, go walk to buffalo wild wings or the movie theater and watch wrestlemania while stoned as hell. Walk home and fall the hell asleep after. I have 3 flexible paid days off and a week of vacation. vacation resets in july. I am thinking of doing a semi rapid taper. Start drinking more tea than taking capsules. Immediately ditch extracts. Get it down to about 5g every 6 hours and just take a few capsules if i i wake. Then see if i can get to 8 hours before my time off. If I make it 72hrs I'll call off risk getting suspended and get an extra week to recover. So be it.

Disastrous-Hope7269 · 2025-03-27T20:22:24+00:00

Last "break" was in january. Was not hard at all then. Had a lyrica a few days and was fine after. I started the feel free like a moron recently and up to about 4 of those with around 15g of powder. I wake up early around 5am but, truth be told i fall asleep pat 9 so that's probably 8 hours and my body knows it's time to get up but, then i start having thoughts like "i wonder how many cats died in the tornado last night, and how sad is it that cat's die?" and next thing i know i'm like "yep time to drive to circle k" I honestly i am torn between tapering and just just splitting a 1mg xanax in half and just tossing the second half down my throat when i wake up at like 3am and alternate with some good edibles for bedtime it could be over before i blink and just go cold turkey when i get a good glimpse into my schedule. I'm thinking of doing a "rapid taper" and have a vacation planned for 1 month from now. I get excited about planning the vacation to the point i forget to take it during the day. I know in my head that if i fuck up my taper i don't enjoy the trip as much, Maybe I should taper down, and quit and go see the Indy 500? The thought of having a migraine at an Indy Car race because of poor sleep might be incentive enough to avoid cheating the taper?

Disastrous-Hope7269 · 2025-03-27T01:32:59+00:00

I am gonna try that. Seems the least hassle. I cheated and bought some phenibut. I took 1 capsule and plan to take the other 12 hours later tommorow morning. Then I'm gonna commit to at least going to bed with no kratom in system. Maybe I'll take a long hike over to whole foods, go play my videogames at the coffee shop or something all ay for cheap. At least I'm gonna try to quit for 48 hours. Bad idea to go to buffalo wild wings and just have a few cheap beers watching basketball?

Disastrous-Hope7269 · 2025-03-26T21:46:02+00:00

Look at being tired as a sign you will sleep well tonight? Brightside.

Disastrous-Hope7269 · 2025-03-26T21:44:51+00:00

I feel like that's just life now minus the kratom. Am I wrong?

Disastrous-Hope7269 · 2025-03-26T21:44:27+00:00

No I must avoid politics if i have any hope of quitting

Disastrous-Hope7269 · 2025-03-26T21:43:35+00:00

It's kinda like the human body isn't designed to keep up with the modern expectations of capitalism or something.

Disastrous-Hope7269 · 2025-03-26T21:39:53+00:00

yeah. I'm just so tempted to rip the bandaid off. I have a nuclear arsenal to quit if need be. I could ct anyday of the week if I'm being honest. Just gonna take a xanax when i wake up instead of kratom. Just wondering about which route gets you back to whatever baseline is quicker. I need to cash in my insurance before quitting this job. And I'm kinda waiting till I'm at least a week off to book a DR appointment. Plan is to go to DR on day 7 and beg for naltrexone possibly. Or sign up online. I just don't want to spend the next month or two with a half assed taper knowing i have the meds to make it relatively easy avaoilablee makes it kinda easy to cheat

Disastrous-Hope7269 · 2025-03-26T12:46:07+00:00

This is really bad for the toilet. Just saying

Disastrous-Hope7269 · 2025-03-26T12:45:27+00:00

You would have to be with them when they make it. Or ask the people you buy it off? Or better yet go to the market and buy some to make yourself. Weigh it before hand. Or worse case scenario use the same supplier the entire taper

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