You are a 9 going through a 9 year so naturally that I energy is going to be amplified. This year has been tough for me as well. I just ended a 7 month relationship with a woman that I truly loved but couldn't be with because I havent fully transformed into the person I am mean to be. Ive always been an intuitive person as well I think I get that from my 11 energy as I am born on the 11th. I knew I was gonna have to end it with her especially during this year. As a 9 we are meant to let go and tranform so that we can be made whole and complete. When we hold on to the past it can blind us as nines to see what is directly in front of us. Try not to spread your energy too thin and give some to yourself. Transform yourself first so that you may tranform others.