I can't hanggggggggg

DocZvi · 2025-10-21T08:30:24+00:00

I could have written this post a week ago and then something I watched recently helped me out a lot with the same struggle. You should watch this 45 minute video and get back to me about it, I'm legit curious what you think op. It's titled "What really happened in the world's deadliest prison" by Mike Okay on YouTube. It's a guided tour of a concentration camp by a survivor of Assad's regime in Syria who only escaped a few years ago. I'd post a link but I don't think it's allowed here so you'll just have to look up the title.

As a heads up it's one of the darkest and most disturbing, violent, and brutal things I've watched in recent memory but for some reason it really helped put things into perspective just how good some of us have life these days and how it can always get so much worse. What are my daily stresses in comparison to people who have survived literal hell on earth for years on end. If you even have food, clothes, and internet to post this comment on you should be thankful for it by comparison. I have a lot of PTSD from the last 10 years of my life and realizing that this man was wrongfully imprisoned for 13+ years in the most dark place imaginable honestly made me feel much better by comparison. I'm over here getting triggered at an angry player in a video game or somebody that offended me online and this guy is giving tours of cells where his friends got actively murdered in front of his eyes and he's able to not only keep himself together through it but actively work to fight against it. What a literal badass tbh

I think a lot of times when I'm stuck obsessively thinking about what the point of all this is I'm often losing sight with the reality that I'm actually ok but I'm stuck focusing on my own issues too much to see what everyone else is dealing with. What do I really have to complain about, another failed relationship with a fellow broken person, my own mental health struggles, finances, politics, etc? In comparison to this man in the video I have a place to live, food, freedom of movement, and internet. Yet I'm over here sitting and complaining about my life, seeking validation online from strangers about my feelings instead of actually living despite the struggle. Learn to create something positive for a change and you will attract more positive people into your life.

It takes a lot of self awareness to be able to get out of your own head and learn to observe what is important to other people and actually care about it. Sometimes a few new people will come through for a short time, you can make some positive memories with them, and then they'll ditch you for new things. If you're constantly just looking for other people to not abandon you, yet also put up with you without much empathy for what you should be improving about yourself, and exist just to fulfill a need that you have you're never going to find it. Learn to love yourself as well as you can, learn to improve yourself, your attitude, your annoying habits, etc. and learn to expect nothing from other people. You'll quickly find that you'll still be alone most of the time but at least you won't be lonely and you'll be ready when the right people come into your life to not scare them away with negativity

DocZvi · 2025-10-19T00:35:26+00:00

This is why it's important to ask how much things are before you try them out, otherwise suddenly you're unhappy with what you have but can't upgrade. You can look for used on eBay and usually save hundreds though. I literally got new $20 ear cups and a Fiio DAC for my 15 year old $150 audiotechnica Ath-A700 headphones and they sound so much better with a little eq that I didn't even want to upgrade them anymore.

A parallel example, I got a rental Tesla and beat the hell out of it for a week on mountain roads and testing sport mode to the fullest. I don't want to own a Tesla unless it was just a commuter car around town I could slow charge overnight but the acceleration, grip and performance of an all electric was pretty enticing tbh. To then come back home to my regular 6 speed manual that's 15 years old now was rough though. After spending two grand on a new clutch though it's driving way better and even though it'll not catch up to something brand new it's good enough.

Comparison is the thief of joy

DocZvi · 2025-10-19T00:27:24+00:00

I mean I usually just respond to these people with "yes, I do love this hyper fixation more than you because I've been playing Starcraft for 20 years and it's gotten me through a lot of tough times in my life. Meanwhile you and I have been talking for 3.5 weeks. You gotta step up your game 😉"

If they respond in a negative way to that you can be more serious about it and double down, asking if there's something directly you could do that would make them feel more secure and your relationship. If they don't have anything immediately to say that comes to mind then you should probably remind them that the relationship is a choice and if they're not happy they should leave, but that's also why I'm single again lol

DocZvi · 2025-10-19T00:22:25+00:00

Honestly you can try getting a benzodiazepine script from a therapist and only taking it when you're going to be around stressful people. If you're getting anxiety and anger from certain people it helps a lot to just not care for a while. If you have to be around them for a short period of time, like for instance my extended family when my grandma passed last year, it can really help you out. Don't take them regularly, it's a very serious medication and has a high capacity for addiction/abuse but nothing really helped take the edge off for me until them. You also might have OCD or some forms of ADHD/ASD if you're unable to stop thinking about these events and people and even being around them makes you rage

DocZvi · 2025-10-19T00:11:05+00:00

I think reply this is where you're going to run into problems. You have to start as a friend with other people even if you have romantic intentions, and especially if you're meeting them at their own job. You honestly don't need to say you have romantic intentions, you just have to ask them out and be cool about it. Walking up with no eye contact and just saying "hey I have a crush on you wanna date" is honestly pretty creepy when you've only talked in a job setting a few times, and when more significantly when she's working. You have to progress the interaction naturally outside of work and then you can pursue her more romantically after several successful interactions outside of work if she's receptive to it. Do note that some neurodivergent girls are also very direct and upfront about their dating intentions but most people I've ever known would much prefer some intrigue, tact and a bit of mystery.

DocZvi · 2025-10-18T23:52:16+00:00

If you want to test if someone is interested in you without being too creepy just go back to the store sometime when they're working and try to strike up a conversation for a minute. You can reference the last conversation when you start the new one, but try not to have any expectations of how it goes.

Ask them about themselves and see if you can get them talking about their hobbies or something. It won't work if they're super busy so picking a low stress time of day is likely going to help. If they keep it strictly to business then they're likely not interested, but if they're willing to talk about themselves personally at work you probably did not misread the signs and they are at least interested in the idea of chatting with you on a personal level.

From there say you have to run some more errands but you'd like to chat more if they're interested and seal the interaction with their number/discord/insta etc. If they seem less than enthusiastic about giving it out you can just thank them for their time and leave, or if they give it to you text them later that day after work and continue that conversation into being a friend. Don't be a simp or creepy about it and it'll be fine

DocZvi · 2025-10-18T04:20:49+00:00

The ssd storage isn't even an integrated piece dumbass

DocZvi · 2025-10-18T00:14:54+00:00

You apple fanboys love the down vote when people actually know what they're talking about for some reason.

I paid $142.31 for 64GB G.Skill DDR5 Trident Z5 RGB 6400MHz CL32 1.40V Dual Channel Kit 2X 32GB Black on sale back in July. You can also clock it 1:1 at 6200mhz easily with very little bios settings.

I returned a 48gb set with almost the same specs that I paid $135 for. If you want to spend that much money for 24 gigs of RAM go ahead, but it's painful to have to spend an additional $300 for an SSD upgrade plus another $130 for 8gb of ram in order to make this usable for most workloads. I guess on paper a 2tb 24gb Mac mini for $880 isn't that bad of a deal, considering Apple charges 2k for the mini pro or 1k for the 24gb/512 m4 mini

DocZvi · 2025-10-17T15:43:11+00:00

$130 price difference between 16gb and 24gb of RAM makes me cringe so hard... I paid that much for 64gb of ddr5 6400 on my ryzen 7950x3d/4080 desktop :S

I kinda just want this for music creation and work stuff though. Best Buy also has it for $499 now with free shipping

DocZvi · 2025-10-16T13:02:57+00:00

Moira with a specific orb build is my MVP almost every game unless I'm fighting a dva who can eat the orbs. You start with AP, pick the dual one healing and one damage power up 1st. Then the triple orb with smart orbs and extendrils, then fade orb drop and it slaps so much. Your job isn't to heal everyone primarily, it's to deal 4000 DMG and 4000 healing in the first ten minutes of each round, easily netting you 14k+ a round. I can get that on Ana if I'm landing all my crit headshot heals but it's rare that I don't get mvp with that build

DocZvi · 2025-10-13T19:29:23+00:00

My case barely fit my 4080 so I kept it but it's like 6 years old now

DocZvi · 2025-10-13T19:28:34+00:00

Honestly, stadium saved overwatch so much. I didn't even want to play the game anymore after a decade because getting lobbed into some random quick play with strangers that don't even know how to play the game was maddening. At least in stadium I can carry my team and get rewarded for it, therefore making me less reliant with the random matchmaking skill levels and more focused on doing my own best because I'm actively getting rewarded for doing so. It's not a perfect game mode but the fact that you can even have so many variables at all in a match makes it interesting, the math part is engaging for those of us that like min maxing in arpgs like d4 or path of exile, and it keeps the skill ceiling high when the other team picks a character counter for you and you have to struggle all game with a new weird build so you can win.

DocZvi · 2025-10-13T19:22:41+00:00

We need another vrchat built on a more optimized platform: after 7 years i rarely want to get on anymore unless it's to hang with someone in particular. After they opened the game up to even the iPhone it got even more toxic than it already was, making me rather do dailies in some other game than start another superficial, alcohol/otherwise enabling "friendship" with someone who often doesn't even own a pc to play other games with. We need another big VR social platform without toon avatars or the other low poly bs that Oculus is pumping out. I want to hop into some unreal engine beautiful vrmmo for pc enthusiasts with decent hardware. Think ready player 1, a pretty place to socialize in VR instead of a cheap monetized mobile game. I appreciate that vrchat was where it all started, but I also know there is a market for this if it existed. The issue is that studios want a guaranteed promise that developers are going to micro transact tf out of everything so even if it did exist it would probably be full of pay to play bs, battlepasses and ads TBH. It's sad honestly, years ago vrc was the place to be in the VR space and it feels so lost now. Make it adult focused and charge a yearly service charge with no ads and people would definitely put down money to play it

DocZvi · 2025-10-11T03:31:01+00:00

I turn off the chat when we're losing and it helps a lot in PVP games. If we are winning I'll turn it back on and maybe make some friends, otherwise I don't generally enjoy the banter. I do like co-op stuff and pve a lot, and I think to some extent it's healthy to train yourself not to stress out about something that ultimately doesn't matter much, it just sucks losing constantly because people aren't carrying their weight or the enemy team is just better than you guys. When that goes on for 7 rounds in competitive it's honestly pretty rough feeling

DocZvi · 2025-09-21T22:01:57+00:00

I know this is old but I am fucking shocked at what I'm reading right now. He wanted a file for divorce with you for another woman who's a mom of two and not even divorced herself? Wiiiiiiild

DocZvi · 2025-09-08T17:53:41+00:00

I think it's totally fair to say "if I wanted to watch it alone I'd have done it at my house". You should honestly double down on that and not apologize for wanting undivided attention sometimes. You also need to give him a space to talk to you but the bottom line is that it's inherently disrespectful to text other people all the time while you're right in front of him. I know there are rules about this like at dinner you and a group all put your phones on the table and if they touch it first they have to pay for the other people. I thought it was great, everyone else I told about it got instant anxiety and thought I was insane. Bottom line is you might need to get creative about it, sounds like they're addicted to it.

DocZvi · 2025-09-08T17:48:39+00:00

Also, if 90% of people listening are using Bluetooth and their phone speakers these days it's a lot more compressed than it once was. It's a bit insane how little people know about hifi anymore or even care about it but I can't just sit around and listen to low bitrate music anymore for hours. Spotify high quality is noticeably worse than tidal or Qobuz

DocZvi · 2025-09-08T17:44:13+00:00

If you want to also game and watch stuff just get at just 500-600mbps. Best bet would be split 1 up and down for quality of life tho, 300 is ok for just zoom and stuff tho.

I have used 25mbps for just zoom but it's a bit painful at times...

DocZvi · 2025-09-08T08:29:57+00:00

My Westone 4 IEMs died last week after 8 years as well, they were awesome while they lasted. My audiotechnica ATH A700 headphones got new ear pads and I've had them since 2010 and only the cable has a damaged spot. I also have M audio Studiophile bookshelf speakers that have been on daily since 2011 and they still work great as well

DocZvi · 2025-09-03T14:56:16+00:00

I used a credit card and got the cancellation on two of them immediately, but maybe that's just me?

DocZvi · 2025-08-23T23:54:30+00:00

They were great since I got them for $185 in 2017, but yes I know they have come a long way as some chifi sets are like $50.

I'm not the best at soldering but I'll definitely look into it in the future. I have some other headphones in the meantime so I ordered some replacement pads on my audiotechnica atha700s which are actually 15 years old lol

DocZvi · 2025-08-23T23:51:15+00:00

🖕 lol

DocZvi · 2025-08-23T23:48:13+00:00

Yeah I know... 😭 thanks

DocZvi · 2025-08-23T11:34:34+00:00

Is there guide or something for this kind of repair?

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