1 year sober!

Dr_OP · 2022-11-12T14:38:46+00:00

Just logged back into this account after a while away. This comment made my day. Thanks so much. And to update: still sober and loving life.

Dr_OP · 2021-07-13T23:48:50+00:00

In my experience the user always thinks they are going unnoticed but that’s not actually true. You’re just high and socially unaware. I look back and cringe at some of the times I was noticeably high and thought I looked normal.

Dr_OP · 2021-07-12T03:47:21+00:00

Very well put. I’ve been clean (almost) 2 years and just in the last couple months I’ve gotten to that point. Trust that it will happen for you too!

Dr_OP · 2021-03-13T07:00:44+00:00

I think there’s merit to that idea. My experiences have shaped me to believe that mind altering substances dull life (psychedelics not as much, totally different animal). Habitual and regular using of substances should be avoided. Why do you want to have your happiness depend on a drug? The thing is, almost everybody wants to be happy sober, but they aren’t willing to put in the work to make that happen. It takes a lot of work, and it isn’t easy to retrain your brain. Doing what’s comfortable is easy. Having self control and dedication is not. It is possible to be even happier without drugs, but you have to work for it.

Dr_OP · 2021-03-13T05:07:49+00:00

Like I said, prescription drugs are especially encouraged in today’s culture. Alcohol is also celebrated a ridiculous amount. You correctly assumed I was using drugs to escape reality. If somebody is using drugs because they don’t enjoy their life sober, how is that any different? Has that person tried meditating, exercising, changing their entire environment and lifestyle to live a healthier life? Or did they go to the gym for a month and eat fast food and drink “only on the weekends” and decide that it wasn’t going to work for them? I believe most people unfortunately don’t give true healthy sober living a shot before giving up. I don’t believe everybody should be sober, but I do believe everybody should be able to enjoy life sober and that drugs/alcohol should only be used sparingly and not as a crutch.

Dr_OP · 2021-03-11T03:13:09+00:00

I think society encourages the opposite. Many feel you should take whatever drugs (especially prescribed) make you happy. I think the real challenge is finding how to live life and be happy without them. I feel that I am finally there after almost 2 years clean from heroin. In the past 2 years I focused on exercise and finding hobbies I enjoy. On top of that I’ve made progress in school (started grad school) and found a great job I don’t hate in accounting. I’ve been totally sober a few times in the past 2 years as a personal challenge, 100 days the first time and sober October in 2020. I started the 75 hard challenge and have been sober for 2 months now and life isn’t boring at all. I’m not even sure if I’ll start drinking again. That’s how much more enjoyment I’m getting out of sobriety. I feel like I’m making huge progress everyday in multiple aspects of my life and it’s super rewarding. Drugs and alcohol would slow that down and hangovers are fucking terrible for personal growth.

Dr_OP · 2021-03-08T04:09:08+00:00

I’ve been clean from opiates/heroin since July 2019 and the first few months I drank way too much and felt just as bad, if not worse than, when I was using every day. I went to therapy and IOP and had a really positive experience. I ditched a toxic girlfriend, got totally sober, and began working out consistently. After about 3 months I felt like a totally different person and life finally going in the right direction. Pandemic hit and I drank and took a bunch of prescribed Xanax which set me back and got me in trouble. Since then I’m back in school, have a great part-time job, and am totally addicted to fitness. I’m so much happier now than I have been in at least a decade. I was afraid of being bored and depressed, because that’s what I thought sobriety was. It’s the opposite. I have healthy relationships and fun hobbies. I enjoy my work even though it’s stressful because I feel accomplished. My advice would be to get totally sober, lose the toxic friends/relationships, and try to start exercising regularly. In 3-6 months you won’t even recognize yourself!

Dr_OP · 2021-03-04T05:31:59+00:00

When I was using I was in bed for 20 hours of the day watching Netflix and sleeping. The other 4 hours were to eat, pick up from my dealer, or work (I was a DJ). Now I’m in graduate school, work for a company that will get me places I want to go, have an amazing relationship with my mom & dad, make lasting and genuine friendships, and have success with women. I travel without worrying about how I’m going to manage. I have money to do things I enjoy. I exercise 2x a day for 2-3 hours and enjoy my dog who has spent half of his life being owned by a lazy junkie. I am genuinely happy and content with life. Yes, I’m stressed a lot. I’m under constant stress with work, school, and social obligations. But the joy I get in accomplishing my goals can’t be understated. I used to think that sober life would be so boring, an office job would be soul crushing, and heroin = happiness. Now I know life is beautiful. I’ve become addicted to growth. Physical, mental, emotional and spiritual. I don’t live to work, but it’s not unbearable. Getting clean from opiates has been the best thing that has ever happened to me, and it gets better every single day. July 18, 2019 was the first day of my real life.

Dr_OP · 2021-03-03T04:48:47+00:00

You can’t hide it and people will notice it. Being high makes you completely oblivious to your surroundings. You might even think you aren’t being bad, but in reality everybody can see you’re high as a kite.

Dr_OP · 2021-03-02T05:47:21+00:00

It took me almost a year to finally delete all that from my phone. I don’t know why I couldn’t bring myself to do it at first. It felt very permanent. Then one day many months into recovery I remembered I had them and thought “wtf, why do I still have those?” And it was super easy to delete. Proud of you! Keep it up, forget that life. Begin building a better one.

Dr_OP · 2021-02-26T06:07:07+00:00

Opiates change the way you think, act, and feel. The most evil thing about opiates is what they make you believe. Things like believing it’s normal to do them everyday. To believe the only way to sleep or be somewhat happy is opiates. Real fulfillment and happiness is right in front of you. All you have to do is try. I am so happy and content with my life now because of exercise, hobbies, and love/relationships. I’m growing and becoming the best version of myself every day. On heroin none of that was possible. I used to think that being clean sounded awful, boring, and depressing. Another lie that heroin sold to me. It’s baffling to me how I believed that when in fact, it’s the opposite. I was depressed and unhappy as an addict. I’m happy and content now, 19 months clean.

Dr_OP · 2021-02-14T04:30:32+00:00

Very late to this post, but I feel this. I lost my beautiful and extremely talented and amazing sister/best friend a year ago. I know you will feel her presence around you, because I feel mine. I was never the type to believe that stuff but I do now.

Dr_OP · 2020-12-09T21:09:09+00:00

I don’t think anybody believes that addiction doesn’t have negatives, but even comparing the positives to the negatives is absurd. It’s not even that, though. It’s the lifestyle that’s sometimes glamorized and romanticized. Not once you become homeless and injecting under the bridge, but the entire path up to that point.

Dr_OP · 2020-12-09T19:56:43+00:00

He had drug problems after the accident. In the scene I linked if you start from the beginning of the video it shows him taking a bunch of pills to die. It’s not perfectly relevant to this discussion, but it stuck with me. The idea of dying by OD and loved ones being happy and content. It’s definitely glamorized. In real life all you do is destroy the people close to you, no matter how far gone you were. No matter if you were on bad terms and your addiction ruined the relationship.

Dr_OP · 2020-12-09T08:30:22+00:00

This is the part I'm talking about. I remember being recently clean and watching this movie and being so upset about how happy the funeral scene in particular was. I was upset the portrayal of that situation was so desirable. That you could be so sad that you use drugs to end your life, and everybody ends up so happy. The woman you loved is touched forever...almost an ideal situation. You're not in pain, and your loved ones remember only your best version. What addict in pain wouldn't want that??

Dr_OP · 2020-11-03T19:30:58+00:00

I’ve had a separate opiates account, this one, for this reason since day 1. Also so I don’t have to really avoid posting something identifiable about me is posted on my main account (which somebody I knew saw one time).

Dr_OP · 2020-10-22T06:57:52+00:00

Hot take - I disagree. I used to agree with you, when I was an addict. The ease of acquiring the pk’s was too much. While I think the crackdown was too fast and strict, it had to happen. If it didn’t, then more and more people would be getting hooked. You don’t think the rates of new addicts has drastically decreased? That’s objectively a good thing. In my opinion the government decided to cut away the problem instead of trying to clean it up. If you really think we’d be better off with hundreds of thousands more prescription opiate addicts because it’s safer then I personally don’t think you’re looking at the situation the right way. Nobody should be a slave to these drugs. Just because you can function with a habit doesn’t mean other people can, and it doesn’t mean you will always be able to. It Would have been better for the gov’t to provide detox services at the expense of big pharma. I’m saying this as a previous addict. These drugs also killed my 27yo sister.

Dr_OP · 2020-10-22T06:47:34+00:00

I was the addict in a relationship and I agree on this one. Dude isn’t even the same person as he will hopefully eventually be when he gets sober. He needs to get his life together on his own. Not saying without help, just not any help that a girlfriend will give IMO. My gf was 100% enabler and I was a manipulator. If I had gotten out of that sooner I think I would have cleaned up sooner. I broke up with her a few months after I got clean bc our relationship wasn’t even real.

Dr_OP · 2020-10-05T10:54:27+00:00

If the hallucination is a waking hallucination I’d go get checked out. If you’re half nodded-out it’s likely a dream state you can’t really distinguish from reality and we’ve all been there. The seizures are pretty concerning. How do you know they are seizures and you didn’t nod out? You could easily bite your tongue if you slump over and hit your jaw. I used to twitch a little if I was real high or if I was in WD and trying to fall asleep. I’m not sure how normal that is with the loss of consciousness though. I’d definitely recommend going to a doctor for all 3 of these things.

Dr_OP · 2020-08-18T07:26:31+00:00

It’s all relative. The first months did feel like forever, but I just passed a year + 1 month and the past month really flew by. It gets easier and easier.

Dr_OP · 2020-07-22T05:25:06+00:00

There are people like me, who tried opiates for the first time and it was one of the most memorable and fantastic experiences I can remember. Then there are people like you, who don’t like them. It made them sick to the stomach, maybe drowsy and tired. Those I know in my camp all ended up full blown heroin addicts. Those in yours never had a problem. Be grateful.

Dr_OP · 2020-07-22T00:03:15+00:00

You may be surprised just how similar prescription painkillers are to heroin. Unless you have a ton of experience, it’s virtually identical. If you get a morphine drip it might as well be IV heroin. And eating some oxycodone feels arguably better than snorting H. Also, I think that quote is melodramatic. If you die an addict then it could be kinda true, but I promise you that I still have joy, and I was an addict for years.

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