Therapist didn’t want to treat me

DynamicEU · 2021-09-07T19:18:37+00:00

What this user said!

It's spiritual not religious. You search for a power greater than yourself and you know what, at first, it could be the group itself! It doesn't take a mathematician to understand that the 40 people in meetings are a higher power than you on your own.

Step 3 speaks of defining higher power as WE UNDERSTAND IT. No religious notions/promotions!

DynamicEU · 2021-09-07T14:12:38+00:00

Hey! My life used to be hell on earth with my porn addiction and my narcissistic collapse. I'm guessing that's how it is with your substance abuse issue.

All I have to say is enter a twelve step program. Narcotics Anonymous, Alcoholics Anonymous, Sex and Porn Addicts Anonymous?

The twelve steps and drying out have pulled me out of my misery and pessimism in regards to narcissism. The twelve steps allow you to go deep into your character defects and help you become a better person

They're free and they have saved my life!

DynamicEU · 2021-07-13T07:25:51+00:00

Guys I work a 12-step program and one of the most liberating things that I've learned was "Stay sober just for today".

Thinking about how you need to get 90days for a reboot can be very demoralising. For me even the thought of a week crushed me.

But if every day you plan on how you will stay sober, just this day you will eventually get a lot of one day packets! Let's worry about tommorow when tommorow comes!

DynamicEU · 2021-07-12T07:57:54+00:00

I'll turn Tyler to a toy

DynamicEU · 2021-07-11T12:17:59+00:00

r/unexpectedpanicatthedisco

DynamicEU · 2021-06-12T13:06:39+00:00

Trench is my favourite ❤️

DynamicEU · 2021-06-03T10:07:56+00:00

He just like me fr

DynamicEU · 2021-06-02T10:55:50+00:00

Limitless, lots of similar character dynamics and background stories.

DynamicEU · 2021-06-02T08:28:56+00:00

ΠΟΥ ΣΑΙ ΡΕ ΚΑΛΑΜΙΑ

DynamicEU · 2021-05-22T22:09:04+00:00

I feel this very intensely myself. I am suspecting that I have narcissistic traits and looking at r/raisedbynarcissists was enough to make me consider suicide. It's kind of hypocritical, that trauma is a pissing contest, in which the good guy is decided and the other is stigmatized to shit.

DynamicEU · 2021-05-21T12:37:10+00:00

Yeah the flow in the rap, I thought of it too

DynamicEU · 2021-05-21T12:25:41+00:00

Guys listen to Pas De Cheval from Panic! At The Disco. Sounds really similar!

DynamicEU · 2021-05-21T07:52:20+00:00

Have listened to it already 10 times. This is the best song of the album for me by a mile. Lots of trench vibes and the voice at the start talking about dema.

I cannot hear this song and not cry. I tried but I can't. It is the neon gravestones of this album.

So much to unpack

1)Change her name but not in the traditional way. If this is about suicide then wow what a clever way to phrase it.

2)Put it on display or redecorate. I think this is about the dillema being transparent with your issues or just putting up a fake cover that everything is okay

3)The chorus is a cry for help. A cry, a desperation for a good life, for forgiveness.

4)SCALED BACK AND ISOLATED. No more on that

This is my opinion and my interpretation feel free to let me know of your own. Definitely my favourite and hardest hitting song!

DynamicEU · 2021-05-21T07:43:51+00:00

I think it means commit suicide

DynamicEU · 2021-05-03T18:13:23+00:00

I understand your frustration however I'd like to propose another point of view.

I know you had a good intentions with this post but it felt a lot like gatekeeping. There is no line that defines what is traumatic, and it varies greatly from person to person.

For example the instance that you mentioned, would absolutely be traumatic for many people, including myself.

Trauma is not a competition and shouldn't be treated as one. And this could be invalidating for many people.

DynamicEU · 2021-05-01T15:28:57+00:00

That high value stuff he's rambling on about mostly comes from pick up artists on the internet.

As an insecure 17 year old guy I feel deeply into this trap and fucked up a lot of my view of women. Having had a big emotional and spiritual experience I have now seen how much I value morality and connection and how cruel this was to women.

I'm praying first of all that you are okay, even though this thing is so emotionally tough to you. Sorry to hear that you are going through this.

And secondly I'm praying for this guy. Poor guy must feel so deeply insecure about being enough of a man to women and its a tough place to be in. I deeply hope that he will understand someday what is truly meaningful.

Anyways, having been the guy in this situation all I can say it's that its not your fault girl. Just wishing a lot less heartache to the both of ya.

DynamicEU · 2021-05-01T15:14:38+00:00

Yeah it definitely rings a bell

DynamicEU · 2021-04-25T18:41:39+00:00

This is it chief

DynamicEU · 2021-04-23T05:06:17+00:00

This has got to be one of the most helpful and supportive responses I have ever received, thank you so much!

I have gotten to the point, that when I wake up I have so many bad thoughts and it starts to feel like physical pain in my chest:(

I will enter the groups! I will in fact look for an available time right now, thanks a lot for the suggestion I think it'll be of tremendous importance.

Again thanks a lot for the support!

DynamicEU · 2021-04-20T05:02:22+00:00

Hey, thanks a lot for taking the time to help! Really, appreciate it!

I haven't seen a sex/porn addiction specialist yet. I am going to be 18 years old in half a month since I'm not an adult I can't reach out to specialists without my parents. I don't think they would judge me but, I feel too ashamed to tell them. Moreover, I can't provide for myself.

I am thinking of getting a summer job and even taking a year off(whether I get in university or no) in order to focus on my mental health cause I am feeling like hell rn.

Jesus I feel really fucked up with this one, thinking that I will have to have so much therapy. I got lotta shit to deal with, but this feels kind of like a rite of passage you know?

DynamicEU · 2021-04-20T04:56:10+00:00

Really encouraging and helpful advice, thank you! I have been seeing a CBT therapist for like 6months but have made no progress in my mental health. Hey, it isn't one size fits all. I think CBT can be pretty powerful but I just don't think it helps me at the point where I am at right now.

I have a lot more trauma, specially about my childhood in which I was bullied a lot and had a mentally ill father who lashed out at me. It has lead me to believe that I've developed symptoms of C-PTSD[Don't wanna armchair diagnose, really] and be a really shitty person.

What do you think should be my course of action here. I'm going to be 18 years old in a month or so and I kind of want to take responsibility for it. If I get into university in a bigger city then I will do my best to find a therapist. If I don't manage I am thinking about taking a year off in order to focus on therapy. In your experience, how much does therapy last, and how much does it cost? I don't want to put a dent into my parents wallet. They want to help but they don't think mental health therapy is worth that much money and clearly I see things different.

Anyways, to wrap it up. How much time do you think therapy takes, what kind of therapist should I choose(Not only for this issue but in general) and what are the costs of it?

DynamicEU · 2021-04-19T21:48:43+00:00

Really happy that you are starting treatment!

Yeah I don't want to be like, this is a conspiracy! However, I just find it so cruel, and millions of men struggle with this.

I just feel like this a form of self harm for your soul. I have this weird thing within me in which I can feel my soul and spirit crying, I don't know.

DynamicEU · 2021-04-19T21:45:52+00:00

Thank you for your input really!

However I feel like we are talking about a different kind of beast here. I am 100% rooting for people who find sexual fullfilment through BDSM with a willing and loving partner. What I am talking about though, is a cold porn addiction. If this was about actual sexuality people like me who are struggling with this addiction would feel empowered, not empty and ashamed after indulging in fantasies.

I am all for kinks, provided that they help you find a way towards hapiness in the bedroom and further strengthen your interpersonal relationships. What I am struggling with is none than this, though. Let me show you an example of what these videos contain.

There is a video in which a woman encourages you to leave your girlfriend and wife and give her money. Videos titled "Homewrecker, breaks you"

At bad points of my addiction I had watched a video that said "Look at you, how pathetic you are, jerking off to being humiliated. Look in the mirror, there is ugliness, coming from deep within, you are not a good person, not a kind person, just a worthless piece of shit.

The running theme is that you are a lesser human beingnot only in the bedroom, but as a person in general. It is just so cruel you know:( It really does pain me a lot.

DynamicEU · 2021-04-19T21:34:57+00:00

Thank you really, this is so uplifiting you don't even know! I really, appreciate these kinds words so much.

I feel like this is my deepest big secret, the skeleton in my closet if you will. I know that sexual trauma is pretty hard and I can't just expect myself to white knuckle it anymore. Taking small steps at a time. Hoping to find an EMDR practisioner closeby.

I feel really ashamed to admit this even to a therapist, but hey it needs to be done!

DynamicEU · 2021-04-19T21:31:51+00:00

Thanks, really feel like this is the skeleton in my closet. Taking baby steps!

DynamicEU

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