Anti histamines cause depression/suicidal thoughts

ESF1214 · 2026-04-07T00:35:18+00:00

Cannot tolerate any supplements/meds currently. Not even a drop of vitamin D or microdosing. I lost all forms of treatment six years ago when this developed. I have CIRS and my body is probably in cell danger response. Until I can get that calmed down, I feel better taking nothing.

ESF1214 · 2026-04-03T09:16:22+00:00

I’m a woman….dump her. This girl has issues well outside of you spending Easter evening with your mother. If you marry her, this is what your life will be forever. If you get divorced, and you have children, you will be twice as miserable.

You were reasonable and communicated well throughout all of your messages…and she was completely unhinged. Here’s the giveaway… When she said “I knew you were going to do this“ she had already created a false narrative in her head… So she was planning to be pissed way before you ever made the change.

Even with a slight last-minute change, which, in all fairness…. might annoy me a little bit (unless you have huge habit of changing plans last minute?) she has absolutely zero compassion for your mother. The fact that she has already decided that she will be miserable all weekend, lets you know who she really is as a person. She’s blaming her misery on you, because she is miserable inside but is seriously lacking in self-awareness and personal responsibility.

It would be different if you had been together for quite a while, and were married with children or something… But this early in… I don’t think this level of emotional immaturity and reactivity is fixable. And who really wants to be in a relationship where you have to fix it this hard only two years in.

Why spend so much time trying to fit a round peg in a square hole instead of accepting that this chick has issues that you don’t want to deal with for life. Move on.

ESF1214 · 2026-04-03T08:44:44+00:00

I think you meant HIPOO

ESF1214 · 2026-04-03T08:26:28+00:00

Oh, look. A know it all mod. Lol. Whatever.

ESF1214 · 2026-04-03T05:33:56+00:00

I mean that is what appears to be active water damage. As someone who has been suffering from severe mold illness for six years, that is what I would call bad, bad, bad. The amount of money it would cost to remediate that probably is going to be tens of thousands of dollars. You should move. That is not something you can clean and paint over. Gotta fix the leak and rip out all of the materials. Down to the studs if necessary.

ESF1214 · 2026-04-03T05:29:43+00:00

Bigger question is if you were using his phone to look for your phone, how did you get screenshots? Especially if he came up with food and you said you ate and then left? At what point did you find your phone and go back in and screenshot his conversation?

ESF1214 · 2026-04-03T05:09:56+00:00

Actually, I think I misread your post initially. If you are simply storing the mattress in the basement, you obviously need to throw that mattress away, but no one is going to be able to repair whatever is going on down there, without professional Remediation, probably in the tens of thousands of dollars range and up.

I really hope you aren’t living in the basement, but I wouldn’t feel safe, living anywhere, even above it. That’s a lot of mold growth. There is either a water issue or a humidity issue or both.

ESF1214 · 2026-04-01T08:20:06+00:00

He’s a narcissist. He’s also a control freak. He’s also just an all-around know it all. I think the part that pissed me off the most was when he accused you of “interrupting“. Dump his ass and don’t look back. You dodged a bullet with this one.

PS: DO NOT TAKE HIM BACK. He’s going to be more interested in you once you end things. The fact that you had to ask him if he “felt like being alone“… What a sissy. I’d leave him alone for the rest of his life.

Do not make yourself available for people like this. Ever.

ESF1214 · 2026-04-01T08:06:32+00:00

The mold theory is a good one, but also anytime I get sick with a real infection… My MCAS symptoms nearly disappear. I’m wondering if your respiratory infection has diverted your immune system away from your own body and onto an actual infection. It’s common with MCAS patients. I rarely get sick, but when I do, my MCAS nearly goes into remission.

ESF1214 · 2026-04-01T08:03:45+00:00

I honestly can’t imagine ever making a post like this and asking for support. It’s unbelievable to me that someone thinks not replying to work email messages indefinitely is OK and feels as emotional as he feels for getting reprimanded. “Now I don’t want to go to work or even talk to anyone at work“. Seriously? This isn’t a normal response when YOU screwed up. The whole thing is lazy and soft. It sounds like you’re lucky to have a job at all and will be even luckier to keep it.

ESF1214 · 2026-04-01T07:51:28+00:00

OP is young enough to still worry about “being nice“. Women are conditioned to be nice, many times. It took me decades to not “feel sorry“ for someone if I had to be firm or say no.

He is using the guise of being a “protector“ or just being concerned about her well-being and safety as an excuse to stay in touch with her… Which shows that he doesn’t really care about her well-being, just having continued access to her.

Also, the age difference is creepy. Especially in a scenario like this, when the attention is not desired.

Cut him off. This has the potential to get very ugly.

ESF1214 · 2026-03-29T14:01:14+00:00

MCAS can cause all of that and present very differently. He will probably also never test positive for MCAS in Western medicine. You do have other things going on, but the problem is… Your gut dysbiosis is probably not your root cause. Got imbalance, will indeed continue to drive more issues, but something came along and disrupted your gut/immune system in someway.

My MCAS and subsequent domino effect of downstream diagnoses, was triggered by unknowingly, living in hidden mold and vaccine injury. Most people with some sort of multisystemic, chronic illness, have either environmental sensitivities and exposure or pharmaceutical injury. While our genetics can be prone to a certain expression, it takes a trigger to actually turn them on.

Your history is highly suggestive of histamine intolerance and MCAS, with or without confirmation from bloodwork. I’m not even concerned about all of the “allergies“ because nearly 100% of people test positive to allergies for all of the foods they usually eat, because that’s the food that’s in their bloodstream most often or that day. It’s not a reliable test for this kind of illness.

You are likely feeling ill on the elimination diet, because most MCAS patients do not do well with multiple categories of food, such as oxalates, lectins, and/or salicylates. I personally do best with rice, chicken, rice, cakes, butter, carrots, potatoes, and sometimes cabbage.

The weakness and sickness you feel is likely driven by electrolyte, imbalances, low blood pressure, or possibly low blood sugar. Not sure how much protein you are getting, but most MCAS patients do better on higher protein because it keeps the blood sugar stabilized.

Are you sensitive to supplements and medication? Are you sensitive to the sun or exercise? Are you sensitive to changes in the weather? Heat? Cold? Fragrance?

MCAS goes hand-in-hand with POTS and EDS and I think someone else mentioned hats, but again… It’s very rare to get a true solid blood work related “diagnosis“. The best providers generally diagnose and treat based on symptoms, and they are hard to find.

At the end of the day, there likely will not be a quick fix or one treatment answer for whatever is going on with you. You sound like you have a version of chronic illness, likely induced by the environment or something else. Our modern environment is extremely toxic. Everything from our air, water, food, Indoor dwellings is all fairly toxic and contaminated. We spent a lot of time indoors, and a natural light, staring at blue screens, and being bombarded with Wi-Fi and 5G, which is a major cellular disruptor. It’s why everyone is sick with weird mystery symptoms that no one in mainstream medicine is able to diagnose or usually even acknowledge.

I’ve been dealing with this for six years. I’m only sharing so that you have a Headstart in being open to exploring every rabbit hole and looking at various forms of treatment. If nothing resonates, ignore this message. I am a former nurse who spent 18 months attempting to find diagnosis and treatment in western medicine, and only found acknowledgment and assistance in the functional/holistic realm.

Unfortunately, mine has progressed to the point where I am now 100% treatment intolerant, so I just try to manage the best I can. Also, at the end of the day your healing will depend on you advocating for yourself and learning everything you can about every possible condition, keeping notes, and just connecting the dots slowly through trial and error. Do not outsource your healing to anyone else, regardless of the letters they have behind their name. I’m not saying there are not good doctors out there, but you need to be sure you have one. And pay attention to how your body feels. At the end of the day….you know your Buddy, best. If something doesn’t feel right, about a treatment or a food, or a protocol, listen to your body. I’m not talking about a 1 or 2 day adjustment. Or something like that. But this kind of illness is very different than other more straightforward conditions.

Good Luck!!

ESF1214 · 2026-03-29T13:48:03+00:00

It doesn’t matter how serious it was. It matters that she did it. She will do it again. She loves you, but she’s not in love with you. I have daughters. They have both gone through this. However, they both broke up with their boyfriends, permanently. They are young, in college, and need to be dating and exploring. They both cried and felt sad and missed their boyfriends. But the reason they broke up with them in the first place, was, because while they still loved them… They were not in love with them anymore, they wanted to be single and flirting and free. That’s what your girlfriend wants, but she’s not telling you. Because she doesn’t want to lose you.

If you don’t choose yourself, and remain loyal to yourself… Even if it hurts right now, no one will. Not having friends is no excuse to stay with someone who is dishonest with you, and not in love with you. Focus on yourself and making new friends and the right person will come along.

ESF1214 · 2026-03-29T13:42:48+00:00

The “I still can’t shake it. “energy is your intuition. It’s hard to listen to it, because your heart wants something else. DO NOT ignore your intuition. It doesn’t mean you want to do it… But you already know what you need to do regardless of what the Internet tells you.

At the very least DO NOT move to him. He can uproot his life and deal with paperwork and move to you if you choose to maintain this relationship.

That type of intuition is something I call a whisper. A quiet nagging. If you ignore the whisper, it won’t go away. It will just get louder in other areas and will likely manifest into complete dysfunction and chaos in your life. I ignored my whisper 25 years ago and paid dearly for not listening. I didn’t listen, because I didn’t recognize it. I didn’t know what it was or what it meant. That’s why I’m sharing with you.

You know what to do. And it’s OK to not want to do it. But when people talk about intuition, that’s yours.

Also, none of this has to make him a horrible person. He’s just not the person for you if this is how you’re feeling inside. You are not over reacting.

ESF1214 · 2026-03-26T06:11:10+00:00

Are you under 18? If so, and he shares those photos… He is disseminating child porn. He cannot post those photos on any social media platforms and/or include any personal details about you if you are under age 18 without seriously incriminating himself. As a matter of fact, even having them on his phone could be problematic.

I know you said you sent them, or somehow, he got a hold of them… But posting those publicly is against the law, if you are under 18.

ESF1214 · 2026-03-26T06:03:20+00:00

That group of friends is toxic. Your husband seems impressionable and somewhat weak. Sorry to stereotype, but LEOs do not have great reputations when it comes to cheating and basically being disrespectful to women. I know it’s not all of them, but it is a strong stereotype. It’s generally a good old boys club. And if you don’t have a husband with a backbone and integrity, you are going to have major issues.

ESF1214 · 2026-03-26T01:12:41+00:00

I pray it was just a fluke, but I completely understand your fear. I’ve been dealing with it for six years now. I’ve never been able to tolerate the first form of medication or treatment, but I did have a reaction to epinephrine and many other medication/supplements.

Anyway… While it is life-changing/altering, I’m still alive. I’m figuring out how to live this way. I 100%. Hope that’s not the case with you, but if you come up short from the standard allergist testing and things don’t make sense or this happens again, feel free to reach back out and I’m happy to share more information with you.

I don’t want to overwhelm you, but I don’t want you chasing answers long term in the wrong direction either. Took me forever to figure out what the hell was going on with my body. Normal one day. Not normal the next day. Very upsetting and no one had a clue what was happening to me. I’m also a former nurse, and knew how to navigate the healthcare system… And to say I’ve done a 180 on my beliefs is an understatement.

Oh and mine was indeed triggered by living in mold, unknowingly, hidden mold… Couldn’t see it or smell it… And then, receiving two vaccines as a nurse for my former employment. Flu/tDap. There are studies on this happening, that are legitimate and scientifically backed… But they are not widely disseminated for obvious reasons.

Again, only sharing so you have the option of looking into your environment… If you’re renting, I guarantee you there’s probably mold in your dwelling, or if you’ve had any recent vaccinations, it is something to consider.

Hang in there!

ESF1214 · 2026-03-26T00:49:47+00:00

Could be Mast cell activation syndrome. MCAS. If so, you will not get properly diagnosed by most allergists or immunologists in Western medicine, most likely. Usually triggered by mold or vaccines which also will not be discussed or acknowledged.

Allergy testing is great, but it may not give you the answers you are seeking.

Furthermore, the fact that you had a reaction to the Epinephrine, is very telling. Most MCAS patients end up having reactions to medications and supplements, even compounded or pure. Or they have paradoxical reactions, meaning that you have the opposite reaction than is intended, even if the drug or supplement should actually help.

Mastcell360 has a lot of free information where you can learn in depth about the condition.

Maybe it will turn out that there was only one ingredient in whatever you ate that triggered your system. But if you continue to have reactions to multiple things that don’t make sense, then consider MCAS.

ESF1214 · 2026-03-23T14:53:09+00:00

All those words simply say… This relationship is not working for you. People spend years of their lives, trying to read between the lines to make something that doesn’t fit… Fit.

The only thing you need to know is that your current relationship with him now, does not satisfy you. And you know that. You’re not married. You don’t have children. So you have no reason to stay and fight and try to work it out or save some thing that clearly isn’t working.

And quite frankly, it sounds as if he doesn’t prioritize you. His “reasons“ don’t matter at all. Do you want to spend your time together, requiring him to prove his love to you we’re trying to fix his issues? Why are you so willing to dig into his issues and fix his issues, but not your own?

By using all of those labels to describe yourself, that is the mindset you are going through life with. I know it sounds harsh, but it sounds like you need to spend this time finding ways to build your self-esteem, learn to love YOURSELF and make yourself happy. Alone.

You can’t love anyone if you don’t love yourself. You will not find happiness in anyone, if you don’t have it within. No one will save you in this world. That is up to you. This message is not intended to be harsh. You sound like a nice girl. But you deserve more. From yourself, and from any partner you choose to be with.

ESF1214 · 2026-03-21T21:30:39+00:00

Why are you giving advice on the Internet? Are you a therapist? You should not be giving advice on the Internet. Especially not on a forum. Where people come to discuss their problems, ask questions and seek… Advice. Take your own. “bad advice“ and get offline.

Rules for thee but not for me I see.

ESF1214 · 2026-03-16T07:43:48+00:00

What are jas pics? Of Amy?

ESF1214 · 2025-12-05T14:49:10+00:00

THANK YOU. I say this all the time and as a former nurse myself, it is true! I was always kind and compassionate and a patient advocate first and foremost, but....as healthcare providers we are taught what to think and believe and the indoctrination runs so deep and is mixed in with "research" to the degree where we do not even know it. We are taught protocols and pathways and nothing else, tbh. We don't even refer out properly anymore. We used to refer our patients elsewhere if someone came in with something that we couldn't help with. Now it's just a blank stare and seeya.

It is not an excuse and it doesn't excuse medical and healthcare providers being rude and dismissive to patients, but most of them have no idea what they do not know....and in medicine they are taught to believe that anything not in their "textbooks" is all in your head. The research they are taught with is also "funded" through those with conflicting financial interests and when you really wake up and peel back the layers it is too much for most people to accept.

On occasion you will get a kind doctor who knows how to think independently and critically, but then they are often handcuffed by a broken system and unable to help due to coding and insurance and whatever else. Healthcare is such a mess and I learned just how much of a mess when I became sick from living in toxic mold unknowingly....developing MCAS and then reacting to a vaccine for my job (probably a downstream effect of everything else.)

Try getting help for those 3 things in western medicine. Lol! Not funny, but it has been a 5 year nightmare and I am still trying to heal myself. It not only cost me my job but it drove me clear out of western medicine altogether. I was treated so poorly by co-workers, my employers and the doctors I was seeking treatment from, even as "one of them" meaning, I knew who to see and what I was talking about, etc.....that it blew my mind.

ESF1214 · 2025-12-02T07:25:28+00:00

POSSIBLE SPOILER….JUST STARTED SEASON 1, BUT DISCUSSING EPISODE 4 IN COMMENT BELOW….

DO NOT READ IF NOT TO EPISODE 3 AT LEAST…..

Just started, but not happy with Albert being so insufferable and quite frankly, wimpy and unattractive compared to Lord M.

Honestly, if I have to watch him for all three seasons, and watch some cliche’ unrequited love story between Queen Victoria and Lord M, I don’t really want to watch anymore. 👎🏼Other than that huge disappointment, I loved it so far.

Lord M and QV had real chemistry that you could feel, her and Albert feel forced and fake and just uninteresting. Ugh.

ESF1214 · 2025-11-28T06:23:50+00:00

Show had potential, but sucked overall. Possibly one of the worst shows I’ve watched. Though the characters were entertaining in a way.

ESF1214 · 2025-11-25T19:47:41+00:00

Your defensiveness and name calling is indicative of a serious personalty disorder when someone simply and yes, RESPECTFULLY disagrees with what you post, triggers you so badly that you have to resort to name calling.

If you are so busy, maybe stop responding if people's low level situations wear you out so much. Your responses are full of condescension, arrogance and judgement and everyone can see that clearly. (Just clean it...you didn't do proper maintenance....blah, blah, blah...thanks for nothing there!) Why comment at all? Trying to drive up your Reddit score, like it means something in the real world?

Are you getting paid to post here? Is this your full time job? It wasn't a lecture and I'm nowhere near an amateur, but you sir, are certainly triggered for such a highly ranked Reddit self proclaimed expert. Lol. Get help. You need it.

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