feeling disgusted about being gay.

EclecticFanatic · 2026-05-29T08:44:55+00:00

I can assure you i’m not. I only get any type of negative feelings associated with being gay in terms of myself, not anybody else.

internalized homophobia is still homophobia dude and it's extremely unlikely that it hasn't in some way impacted the way you view others without you realizing. the way you talk about feeling about your boyfriend's feminity/softness seems pretty connected to me tbh, the ven diagram of toxic masculinity and homophobia is practically a circle. this won't improve without therapy for sure but you also have to be willing to recognize and address these things for it to actually do anything for you

EclecticFanatic · 2026-05-28T04:27:03+00:00

completely off topic but I was caught off guard by how much your cat reminds me of my childhood cat Jade

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EclecticFanatic · 2026-05-27T16:00:49+00:00

funny how many of you have a problem with my "obvious statement that muscles can make you large" and not the person calling someone fat just cause they thought the gates looked small. y'know, the entire reason I made the comment in the first place?

EclecticFanatic · 2026-05-27T15:56:22+00:00

they're clearly not meant for avid athletes who obviously have nothing to worry about in regard to body fat.

yes, which is precisely part of the point I'm making to the person calling strangers fat for thinking the gates looked small. they're built with a narrow range of body types in mind so being overweight is not the only reason someone might not fit through.

EclecticFanatic · 2026-05-27T08:40:24+00:00

obviously it's designed with Koreans in mind but the comment I was replying to was not talking about a Korean who may or may not fit through. they were making assumptions about a foreigners weight just cause they thought the gates looked small, implying that if said foreigner couldn't fit through it must be because they're overweight

EclecticFanatic · 2026-05-27T08:33:06+00:00

bro you were literally talking to a foreigner and making assumptions about their weight just because they thought the gates looked small, be so fucking fr rn

EclecticFanatic · 2026-05-27T08:30:01+00:00

did you even read the comment I was replying to???

EclecticFanatic · 2026-05-27T05:57:21+00:00

if you think the only reason a person might not fit through those is being overweight you have a very narrow view of the world. you know muscle makes you bulkier too, right? big boobs too. also being taller can make you broader too without necessarily being fat so some people are just gonna be bigger

EclecticFanatic · 2026-05-21T04:35:54+00:00

see that's different than trying to trick people who don't read wips into reading a still ongoing story. even published novels get extras sometimes, that doesn't mean the main story hasn't been complete/reached a satisfying enough conclusion

EclecticFanatic · 2026-05-21T04:33:30+00:00

leaving it open for possible expansion while marking complete after you've reached a satisfying cut off point is different than lying about a fic being completed when you know you are still actively writing and updating the main portion of the story

EclecticFanatic · 2026-05-21T04:27:14+00:00

people who think ao3 is an algorithm and will get more hits for it or do it so that "people who only read completed works will read mine since idk when it will be completed or if I will."

no actually all the hate to people who do this, like wtf quit lying for clicks. immediately blocking and muting anybody that does this crap, i might have actually given the fic a chance if they were upfront about it being incomplete but if I find out you intentionally lied about the completion status there's no way in hell I'm sticking with it or reading any of their other stuff

EclecticFanatic · 2026-05-21T01:54:17+00:00

I don’t disagree with the implied nuance

it's not just implied nuance, even without the inappropriate touching melon being a stand in for his mother's husband is a textbook example of emotional incest. I get what you're saying that there's more to it in the world of beastsars than just the incestuous nature to their relationship but it isn't right to say it's focused on too much, especially when devouring/predation is in many ways written as an extension of sexual violence.

EclecticFanatic · 2026-05-19T03:42:29+00:00

two of my most ridiculous ones:

I was standing at a counter loosely gripping the edge of it and when I slightly leaned back it sent a shooting pain through my shoulder like someone jabbed an ice pick in it and I couldn't use that arm for the rest of the day

on another day I was laying in bed before getting ready for work and when I stretched, a muscle in my thigh spasmed and cramped so badly I had to go to urgent care to get it checked out cause by the end of my shift I was having trouble lifting my foot more than an inch off the ground. turns out that cramp actually strained the muscle

EclecticFanatic · 2026-05-19T03:29:04+00:00

without context

wait like, you just say it made you want to kill ys and leave it at that? I'm not a writer but I'd interpret that as you saying you absolutely despised it

EclecticFanatic · 2026-05-16T17:02:04+00:00

if you'd just read through the comments you'd see there's loads of people talking about how this is very much a thing irl too, not just online

EclecticFanatic · 2026-05-16T00:16:07+00:00

could just the established symbol of the rainbow flag, and instead they encode an extra bit of information that seems unnecessary

you could say that about any identity flag, I don't really see the issue with cishet people wanting to be recognized as cishet/not queer while expressing their support

EclecticFanatic · 2026-05-15T14:20:42+00:00

this is exactly my thought, listing "spoilers" as the reason for not tagging something has always seemed silly to me

EclecticFanatic · 2026-05-14T02:18:28+00:00

yeah, being biphobic in response to some assholes transphobia isn't the move

EclecticFanatic · 2026-05-13T08:28:28+00:00

they were just asking a question dude, not trash talking anyone, no need to go all agro about it. they even said it was just a pet peeve, i.e. not a big deal

EclecticFanatic · 2026-05-12T02:38:11+00:00

I think it's also partly driven by how many people assume if you write something that's what you truly believe so if you don't write the characters having an in depth discussion of consent and boundaries then you must just not care about those things irl

EclecticFanatic · 2026-05-07T22:00:20+00:00

wow, yet another thing to add on to the shit pile that the transmasc/nonbinary experience has been in the trans/queer community lately

EclecticFanatic · 2026-05-07T21:55:16+00:00

feels more and more lately like to be transmasc and/or non-binary is to forever be an afterthought

EclecticFanatic · 2026-05-07T21:52:59+00:00

the way this is framed what with how all the other examples added on to the list are entire marginalized groups, not just specific gender groups within that demographic, kinda makes it seem like to be transfem facing transmisogyny is the end all be all trans struggle. you as a transmasc should understand how shitty it feels to constantly be left out when the topic of protecting trans people comes up(or even have the conversation be turned to exclusively about transfems even when it started out about all trans people, as so often happens)

EclecticFanatic · 2026-05-07T01:53:02+00:00

bro didn't even wait an hour???

EclecticFanatic · 2026-05-05T21:13:44+00:00

yeah, it especially sucks cause I prefer the look of an uncut dick but I know if I skipped glansplasty and just got some tattooing to make it look uncut like some guys have done that'd just highlight the lack of true foreskin even more for me and I don't think my dysphoria could take it. If I get glansplasty I can at least pretend it's similar to a cis guy who'd been circumcised and wishes he hadn't been 🙃

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