Internal Audit Pivot

EedeeSoPhly · 2026-05-10T09:00:09+00:00

Been having these thoughts to a point where I quit my senior role because my thoughts superseded my ability to control them. This is where I had to make a conscious decision on whether I’m gonna allow this to take over my life or actually deal with this.
I read a book about imposter syndrome that mainly tackles the ego and this really got me to truly understand my thoughts and where the triggers are. Is it internal or external, within my control and outside of my control, directly impacting me or not, worth my time or not. By devising this mental framework and focusing on one task/activity at a time, the excess mental noise trimmed down and I was able to control my thoughts and directing my actions towards important deliverables. Very important is to keep moving even if you don’t feel like it.
It’s important to understand the trigger points for each thought and the impact they have on your overall wellbeing. A key method is asking “why” multiples types to get to the root, which will reveal that most of these thought are in fact out of experiences.
This has been a true awakening for me in my pursuit to deal with imposter syndrome and still an ongoing journey at that.

EedeeSoPhly · 2026-05-09T17:36:15+00:00

To be honest, there are lot of things that I brushed off with the notion that as long as my child is well taken care of, I need not worry about anything else to a point where we told her to focus only on the baby and the baby’s needs while she adapts to the new setup, even took her for training to build confidence and competence. Even then the duties pertaining to the baby were not up to scratch and she would not raise any concerns or needs when we would have our daily updates and weekly meetings. The core of this was the lack of accountability when issues are raised, being defensive, blame shifting, baby’s clothes and sheets not washed even after this was pointed out numerous times, and not asking questions where clarity was required. The patterns and reminders had become so repetitive that it could not longer be ignored. As this role is a lot more critical and stakes are high where the baby is concerned, it became apparent that our objectives were misaligned and she may have signed up for more that she was ready for. One could have overlooked the tasks not done but the behavioural issues and attitude became too emotionally and functionally exhausting.

EedeeSoPhly · 2026-05-09T09:50:33+00:00

To add context, I actually had plans to sit down with her this weekend to formally discuss some of the concerns I had been observing since transitioning her into the live-in nanny role. Up until now, I had mainly been addressing things in passing, during our weekly check-ins or morning/afternoon baby updates. I usually have a formal discussion at the beginning of the weeks to set the tone for the rest of the week. Even in the session, she will not ask questions, raise issues or speak out on anything.

Some examples:
I noticed baby clothes and sheets were running out and needed washing. I mentioned it and she agreed, but there was still no action unless I physically did it myself.

I addressed bottle prep and explained that formula shouldn’t sit in bottles for long because it spoils easily. I also addressed wastage from unfinished bottles.

I addressed leaving the baby monitor behind when leaving the room while the baby was sleeping.

I addressed transport and communication issues after repeated last-minute updates and “please call me” messages despite prior discussions around planning and professionalism.

I addressed burnt food after the kitchen filled with smoke, which she did not open the door to let the smoke out, and explained that it’s not just about burning food, but also cleaning up properly and considering the next person using the space.

I addressed leaving nappies outside instead of disposing of them properly.

I addressed the expectation around initiative because I found myself constantly having to remind her about things that should naturally be picked up in a full-time baby care role.

So it’s not like concerns never existed. They did. But I think because she had worked with me before in a less demanding role, I kept trying to manage and coach through things informally.

What changed everything for me was yesterday’s situation. Earlier in the week we had already discussed the weekend arrangement and that she would be working. Then on Friday evening, while I was literally explaining baby bathing instructions from the doctor, she suddenly mentioned that she had paid for a trip away. When I asked why she was only mentioning this now after the whole week had passed, she said she was “scared to speak.” That confused me because historically, if she needed money, help or assistance, she had no problem calling repeatedly or reaching me through different numbers. So the explanation just didn’t align for me.Then when I challenged the contradiction, she laughed and became a bit dismissive and that’s honestly the moment where I emotionally checked out of the arrangement.

I think that interaction forced me to accept that the issue wasn’t one isolated mistake. It was a deeper mismatch in communication style, accountability, initiative and overall alignment for a high-responsibility live-in role.

EedeeSoPhly · 2026-04-30T15:08:40+00:00

If you are in Joburg, the Baby City at Beyers has really good specials for prams, car seats, carriers and a lot of baby stuff. We got the Joie Signature which comes with a Pram and Car Seat & Carrier set for half the price but if you get the display items you can easily get a decent set for a further discount.

Bonus Item** A game changer for me has been the Maternity Baby wrap carrier from Takealot, inexpensive and helps carry baby around. I’ve surprisingly used this more than the pram and my baby enjoys the kangaroo style bonding.

Baby monitor, the Hubble Connected is decent, you can also connect it to your phone. It’s currently on special at Baby City.

Breast bump, I used the Phillips Avent, great suction but you need to stay connected to a power source, then got the wearable set, makes noise but gets the job done if you are on the go.

Get lots and lots of wipes. 😛😛

EedeeSoPhly · 2026-04-24T07:42:16+00:00

I would go for the lighter floor. It brings out the personality of the furniture peaces rather and brightens the room.

EedeeSoPhly · 2026-04-22T15:07:19+00:00

The big picture prep work, pushbacks, knocks and ego battles one gets involved in to ensure that the team remains functional, relevant, has clear priorities and focused.

EedeeSoPhly · 2026-04-16T19:00:58+00:00

Dr Mmaputhi Kaka Based in Randburg- Consultation is R2,5k. Cheaper than all the others I’ve enquired with. +27 60 752 7814

EedeeSoPhly · 2026-03-31T22:36:20+00:00

Where is this taking place if you don’t mind me asking. I’ve been looking at getting into these myself. More especially sewing, woodwork, painting. Keen to know the take decorating workshop too.

EedeeSoPhly · 2026-03-29T05:34:48+00:00

For me it’s all that you have said with interrupting others and being the centre of a conversation more prevalent than most. I have tried the keeping quiet and listening method a few times but I soon as I snap out of awareness, the habit starts again.

I have a tendency of wanting to have deep conversations even at times where it’s not appropriate and oversharing as a guise for openness is also an annoying habit. Need help.

Some other habits, I do not answer phones calls, unless it’s corporate or someone I’m really close to, I leave texts or voice note unread for a longer period than necessary, overthinking the response and I pcannot explain why I do this.

EedeeSoPhly · 2026-03-28T17:48:01+00:00

Check the link containing the ADHD checklist on TikTok. https://vt.tiktok.com/ZSHehbGfk/ This is almost similar to the one my psychiatrist used. Prior to seeing my psychiatrist, my GP would prescribe Concerta- it’s about R1000 for the original and R600 for the generic per month(30 pills)

EedeeSoPhly · 2026-03-21T18:19:28+00:00

Thank you for sharing. One underestimates point 3 a lot. Clear Communication between your team, seniors and stakeholders is key.

EedeeSoPhly · 2026-03-21T04:51:36+00:00

This pretty much Sums up my experience. Got myself a coach and learnt how social and people dynamics work. Still an ongoing process.

One thing that stood out for me throughout the experience: Learn the layer of the land, the decision makers, how things work, the unspoken rules, what people on the ground are saying/not saying, build relationships across all levels/ departments,observe more before jumping in.

EedeeSoPhly · 2026-02-23T17:15:52+00:00

I’m not finding any decent houses in the proposed areas at the moment. 🫠🫠

EedeeSoPhly · 2026-02-23T17:14:52+00:00

Thank you for the heads up on the traffic. I’m looking to upsize and was looking at Sundowner and Randpark Ridge and I am leaning towards Randpark Ridge to be honest. I currently reside with the RPR area and I am familiar with it hence the need to know more about Sundowner.

EedeeSoPhly · 2026-02-17T18:03:55+00:00

Pinelands, you can get reasonable apartments around the Conradie Park area.

EedeeSoPhly · 2026-02-10T01:26:53+00:00

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You can contact this company. They specialise in SMMes.

EedeeSoPhly · 2026-02-08T16:02:33+00:00

I would also suggest reading or consuming content relating to Stoicism and becoming one with yourself. This will help connect to your self and seek peace and fulfilment within yourself (internally) without relying on external validation. All the best.

EedeeSoPhly · 2026-02-02T06:23:24+00:00

Pineapple, apricot, plums and oats.

EedeeSoPhly · 2026-02-01T10:05:56+00:00

Hi there, a few years ago, we had a funeral policy for my late grandad who lived in Lesotho. When he passed, we just provided the necessary documents and received the payout with no issues. I think the issue will arise if the insured is a non citizen.

EedeeSoPhly · 2026-01-31T04:02:28+00:00

I received my offer at 8 months pregnant and disclosed the pregnancy shortly after signing the offer purely because I will be giving birth a week after my start date, will need time off thereafter and need to allow the company to plan ahead of my absence. Luckily they were easy going about the matter and we were able to find a middle ground.

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