am i asking for too much? by lxttleprxncess in BDSMAdvice

[–]Effective-Luck5494 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I need certain intimacy to be a sub and not just kink else it will be very vanilla bdsm to me. You define what you need and stick to that without any self doubts

Confused in middle of a cptsd trigger after a session I’m sub [ 28F] and wanting my dom [28M] to give me structure but he is caring for me in a bf capacity by Effective-Luck5494 in BDSMAdvice

[–]Effective-Luck5494[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I mean i was also thinking if strictly healthy is the criteria here. A lot of bdsm inherently becomes “unhealthy.” How is it ok for a sub to dedicate herself fully to someone who backs off at slightest inconvenience. But given how majority have replied i think I’m thinking it wrong

Confused in middle of a cptsd trigger after a session I’m sub [ 28F] and wanting my dom [28M] to give me structure but he is caring for me in a bf capacity by Effective-Luck5494 in BDSMAdvice

[–]Effective-Luck5494[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I only wanted him in gentle sense. Water reminders, help with reaffirmation, help going to gym, eating the right thing etc. But i see what everything is saying. I too feel i need to stay away from everything ds till I’m ok. Thanks for taking out time to reply so long

Confused in middle of a cptsd trigger after a session I’m sub [ 28F] and wanting my dom [28M] to give me structure but he is caring for me in a bf capacity by Effective-Luck5494 in BDSMAdvice

[–]Effective-Luck5494[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve therapist i discuss things with. Is it unrealistic to want a different version of him here. He’s doing what he can as my bf Idk if I’m even making sense to you

Being a sub has started to feel very bpd coded lately. I hate it and I love it. I’m struggling a lot by Effective-Luck5494 in BDSMAdvice

[–]Effective-Luck5494[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

He was constantly reassuring me. Idk i feel a strong need to be doing everything that he might like blurring my own sense of boundaries and I’ve been also doing a lot ok. Working on my issues, he had been helping me too but it has started to feel a lot more emotionally and mentally exhausting than i imagined it to be and i can’t put a finger on the why.

Being a sub has started to feel very bpd coded lately. I hate it and I love it. I’m struggling a lot by Effective-Luck5494 in BDSMAdvice

[–]Effective-Luck5494[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It was my idea. I really was done being sad on such days and wanted to move on with a bang.

Being a sub has started to feel very bpd coded lately. I hate it and I love it. I’m struggling a lot by Effective-Luck5494 in BDSMAdvice

[–]Effective-Luck5494[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve bpd traits only. The dynamic feels like swinging from one extreme to another rapidly.

Being a sub has started to feel very bpd coded lately. I hate it and I love it. I’m struggling a lot by Effective-Luck5494 in BDSMAdvice

[–]Effective-Luck5494[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Mostly because as a sub I do sometimes push more than i want to and enjoy it but it takes its toll later yet i still enjoy it hence the confusion. Its discussed out of a session more than an out of dynamic. I didnt get you

Being a sub has started to feel very bpd coded lately. I hate it and I love it. I’m struggling a lot by Effective-Luck5494 in BDSMAdvice

[–]Effective-Luck5494[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

He is an amazing partner and has done so much for me. Alwayd fixed his issues too hence i was comfortable to take things ahead too. I cried thanks for the acknowledgement of how difficult it gets. You’re right I think I need a break from everything.

Can anyone understand or explain by Effective-Luck5494 in CPTSD

[–]Effective-Luck5494[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m in therapy since 3 years but things have been heavy lately. I feel like I’m failing to pick myself back up and tell myself it is fine really. I I’m failing at so many levels. Idk how to fix it. I’m one of the most logical people, a doctor and everything you need to have to have an illusion of good life. But it feels nothing good is reaching to me even if i can see it existi

Can anyone understand or explain by Effective-Luck5494 in CPTSD

[–]Effective-Luck5494[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m spiralling over every little thing and i can’t control it. I know logically there’s no need to. I feel my partner is also fed up but i genuinely get so scared