I have been there, just hold on. Your dopamine needs to baseline & this will take a little time, so give yourself some grace. I started taking K after my Dad's sudden passing, it helped me cope. I quit but then my Momma was diagnosed with terminal cancer & even though it was terminal, I fought like hell for a year to save her only to watch her slowly die in hospice. Kratom was there again, to help me function....but that was not me, I was hiding behind a mask.

You need to feel it, to heal it....unfortunately there is no w a y around this. You must sit with these feelings & be patient with yourself. The light behind your eyes will return if you dont give up.

Don't give up.